19.12.05
Yippee.
Back from m'sia ^ ^
The trip wuz short but wild.
3 families went n there were altogether 13 ppl. Not an unlucky number i would consider, it wuz probably gd, but it could get better if there were 12 instead.
See, there wuz this girl (she's not in the picture), 5 yrs old, who is really spoilt n a total brat. Oh dun get me wrong. She looks angel sweet n all that, lyk any typical round eyed child, but deep down inside, she's as scheming as a baby fox.
Um. That doesn't sound right.
Never mind.
Point is, she totally loves sucking up to the older ones, n pitting herself against the toddler in the pic. See, the toddler has elder twin sisters, aged 13, n this angel girl juz enjoys makin the toddler feel all crummy n lousy that someone else has gotten her older sisters.
It's not lyk she doesn't have her own elder sis, she juz didn't come.
But angel girl juz had to budge into every family photo besides her own, n make herself look lyk a complete extra.
There wuz once when we were havin dinner at a restaurant, n she wuz being naughty n played with the toothpicks. Accidentally, she emptied the whole bottle onto the floor n there wuz a huge mess.
Joyce n the toddler instantly leapt back n started pickin up the toothpicks.
Angel girl?
She went cowering behind her parents, fearfully eyeing every waiter/waitress as they passed, afraid of getting scolded. Then finally one waiter came up to our table n saw the Joyce n the toddler picking up the toothpicks.
Of course, to him, it seemed obvious who'd spilled the toothpicks.
But, duh, gimme a break.
It wasn't the two of them!
Oh, they didn't get scolded, but it wuz still irritatin for me as an older sis to see my younger sis get a bad impression from a stranger, even though she did nothing wrong.
N angel girl says really hurting stuff which she really meant.
Lyk pointing out someone's faceful of horrible pimples or leg hair etc.
It's juz sooo frustrating to be around her.
Her parents r seriously nice n sweet tempered, that's probably why they cant bear to scold her etc. So she turned out to be a selfish, irresponsible, spoilt, irritating little angel.
The whole incident made me think.
Can we really excuse kidz such as angel girl juz becoz they are, well, kidz?
Can being "a child" be used as an excuse for such disgusting behaviour?
Should we be kind n sweet to them even though they totally turn off ppl with their spoilt ways?
Shouldn't we, lyk, gently try to remind them of their manners n stuff? Even though we're not their parents?
I dun understand how parents can allow their kidz to turn out lyk this.
Maybe they don't know.
I know, it sounds lyk im being really mean n stuff, but truth is, i totally cant bring myself to be nice to someone lyk her.
Im usually really happy around kids, n i dun mind being teased or being played around with, but not when they take it for granted n r total stinkin brats that r not worth the effort.
I kept my promise to her n bought her a lolly, but it wuz really becoz she insisted on it.
-Shrugs-
Kidz.
What can u do?
We've juz got to be nice to them, haven't we?
Most kidz r juz so full of beans n totally innocent n cute, but so NOT lyk angel brat. Seriously. She's the first.
Urgghhh.
I think i so totally sinned against the Lord by speakin bad behind her back.
I spoke so badly about her, im beginning to think im a devil.
I would've ruined my reputation as a nice, kind older sister.
CRAP!
Why can't i juz give the poor kid a chance?
What came over me?!?
I swear im usually not lyk that.
I juz never met such an obnoxious kid.
Oh here's an enlarged pic of her with Joyce:
Who would believe she's such a...
Oh never mind.
Forget it.
It's over anyway.
Lord, forgive me.
Sighx... at least i didn't show my dislike for her, i tried my best to be nice to her.
Over the past 3 dayz, i learnt a very impt lesson - no, it's not abt angel brat - a family holiday often serves the purpose of bonding everyone n helps us to know each other better.
Lyk through this trip to malaysia, i realised that Joyce can actually get really high n idiot when Jamie n I get her into the right mood.
N that's when things go totally wrong.
She'll completely lose herself n start doin things that blow me up.
Lyk being disrespectful n calling me names, screaming at the wrong time, roll her eyes n totally kill me...
Arrghh.
Oh well.
It's kindda lyk a side effect of hers when she gets high.
Can't help it.
Jamie n I got soo crazy during the long drive that we totally forced the wild side of Joyce out.
We imitated well known commercials by changing the product they advertise to something silly; did raps in stupid slangs; sang songs by direct translation; re-invented the famous lines of actors/actresses e.g. Mei Ren Yuuuu. etc etc.
It lasted for only, lyk, 15 mins?
But it was my craziest moment since i wuz born.
Then on the last night, before we came back to s'pore, Jamie n I led the other girlz into craziness too. Oooh i think we created quite a racket in the restaurant.
Oh, i also realised that Jamie actually cares a lot a lot a lot A LOT for me.
*grins*
Really.
After we spent the whole day in the water theme park at our resort, i wuz feelin kindda weak n feverish, she wuz so worried she kept askin if i were alright.
Aw... so sweet...
Im totally touched.
I put on a big smiley face n told her i wuz fine.
But i really wuz feelin fine, after knowing how much she cared.
N mummy, through the trip, i discovered that she can get flustered quite easily. Lyk, really flustered.
Her fingers can turn to jelly n her mind would be totally messed up n she wouldn't be able to think straight.
I alwayz thought my mum wuz the cool n composed type.
But the trip proved me wrong.
While she wuz driving, she made a few small mistakes n she totally shrieked n made a everyone jumpy, thinkin something major had happened.
MUM!
You've got to learn how to be cool in times of trouble!
But i really think she did a good job.
Everyone else thought so.
Even daddy.
Speakin of daddy, the trip made me feel quite sad.
He wuz tryin to take some pics for us when we were sittin on the boat for a ride called Grand Canyon Rapids, but the boat gave a sudden jerk n he slid off his seat n bumped his back on the side of the boat.
He laughed it off n we all thought he wuz fine... until dinner time.
He didn't come out for dinner n we were told later there was a dreadful pain in his back.
He couldn't walk properly after that n had probs even sittin n standing up.
That wuz how mummy came to be the driver.
As i watched daddy limp his way around, it suddenly struck me how much he had aged over the yrs n i suddenly had a vision of him as an old man.
Oh man.
I really wanted to cry.
I juz felt so upset.
He told me jokingly that he didn't want to be paralysed yet, becoz he still have a lot of family burdens to take care of. And there were still a lot of things he want to do, lyk get his dream house n play golf with us.
I dun want him to be paralysed either....!!
I wuz so worried sick that i smsed minnie n asked her to tell yf to pray for my dad.
He has done a lot for the family, n has a lot more to do.
I dun want to grow up yet, but i have to, becoz i want to take care of my parents.
I dun want them to work so hard now, but they have to, becoz they want to take care of us.
The least I can do now as the oldest child is take good care of the younger ones n try to help out more around the house.
It takes patience n time to do that, but i'll have to make it a habit.
Beocz i never know what's gonna happen tomorrow.
And if one day, sth really happens to someone in the family, i'll live with regret forever.
That's how i go about treating everyone in my life.
I treat them as though i'll never see them again.
It's not a curse.
It's a way of reminding myself how precious n unpredictable life is.
And we dunno what's gonna happen the next minute.
I dun want regrets in my life.
Especially to my family.
So here's a reminder to everyone reading this:
You never know if you'll lose someone the next minute, and if you ever get really angry with someone n feel lyk doin something mean to him/her, ask yourself, "What if i never see him/her again?"
The question helps me to keep my temper under control.
It might work for you too.
PICTURES~!!!
Sunway Lagoon Resort lobby
family photo outside hotel ^ ^
girlz wet after ride...!
girlz in the house :)
playing kangaroo :P
*sisters*in*christ*
TO SIXUAN:
Thanks for alwayz being here for me and don't stress over being new kz? Im juz as new as you in yf n u're never alone. You're actually a very friendly n sociable girl, try to open up n make as much frens as possible in ur new cca. I had the same problem as you when i transferred the start of this yr, but things got better with new friends. At first i wuz so stressed i cried every time during cca for the first wk. It's all a matter of time.
And when u feel so depressed n upset with life, dun think of cryin as the first solution. Count ur blessings n think of someone who is in a worse situation than you, then try n help him/her. It makes u feel more fortunate n less sian with life. If it doesn't help, you could alwayz arrange to go out with some frens (lyk minnie n me ^ ^) n have a gd talk or laugh it off. If no time, a phone call will do.
But sometimes, i understand nothing really helps, n at this point of time, a good cry will help. After that, give urself a shake n remind urself that ur frens in church will alwayz be there for u, n u'll alwayz find comfort n advise here.
All ur probs abt being new, sch probs etc are juz what i'd call "short term probs". These r probs that will can be solved sooner or later, n through these probs, u discover who r ur real frens n ur faith in God grows stronger. Don't let these "short term probs" get u down, becoz it's juz part of the devil's plot to make u spiritually tired n mentally worn out. It is the "long term probs" you should be worried abt, lyk being a living testimonial to God n frequently goin back to his Words for enlightenment. If u r constantly takin care of ur "long term probs", the short term ones will naturally be solved n u'll see that at the end of the day, everything will be fine.
Continue smiling n i really hope to see u in church for a long long time :)
tranquility ; 12/19/2005 01:06:00 pm.
