13.12.05
Ohhh.
stress stress stress...!!!
i haven felt soo busy for AGES.
it started today, when i went to sch to download the video for my china immersion trip. I wuz in charge of editing it n burning a copy for the sch. HOWEVER...
I spent the whole day in sch, n STILL did not manage to finish the editing.
By 4pm (i went to sch at 9am), i had only just managed to finish downloading everything. And the lab would be closing in an hr. So i had no time to do the editing. Eventually i decided to burn everything into a CD n edit at home. HOWEVER...
I split the downloading process into 2 parts, becoz i went out for lunch around 12. I managed to burn the first part into the CD, BUT for the second part, i couldn't burn at all. Probably becoz of the CD, nevertheless, i wuz stuck with no ideas.
How wuz i goin to bring home everything for editing?!?
I tried using Yousendit, compiling everything into zip form, burning again n again... nothing worked eventually. I waited sooo long for the cursed Yousendit that finally, i had to give up becoz the lab wuz closing.
Trust me, i prayed.
It wuz useless.
At that point, i really questioned God. All my faith in him seemed to be put to the test once again. All that spiritual connection with him during UB4 evaporated n i began wondering.
I felt so close to him during quiet times n bible study, or even when im with my friends. Yet when real life situations need His help, it doesn't seem to do any good.
I juz cant pray that the computer works n bingo, it'll work.
It juz doesn't work lyk that.
I wuz stressed beyond description.
I had spent the ENTIRE day in sch, slaving in the chilly comp lab, n it all comes down to NOTHING. All becoz the stupid comp wouldn't burn my data.
#@*!#!!#
So now i have to go back to sch early in the morning at 9am tmr to do the editing part. coz i've got to visit my ex-piano tchr in the afternn.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not blaming the Lord. I juz wonder what good is spiritual peace when ur real life probs juz doesnt seem to get solved. Or when everything goes wrong in the day.
Oh wait.
Something went right: I managed to get home before it rained.
Big deal.
Sighx...
WHAT'S SO WRONG WITH ME?!?
i cant believe im actually doubting Him.
Yulan, i think i need another counselling session =(
it's been so long since i experienced things goin wrong in my day. I juz need someone or something to blame it all on. But maybe it's not anyone's fault. It juz happened for a reason.
A reason not meant to be comprehended by my shallow human mind.
A reason that is so godly, a human like me would not understand.
Please.
I've heard that SO-O-O many times...
I really need a direct answer.
Whatever.
Im feelin incredibly crummy, lousy, grumpy n sweaty now (did 15mins hula hooping juz now). Shall talk abt sth nicer...
I wanna watch Perhaps Love.
Oooh it's soo dance-y n sing song-y, lyk a musical ^0^ n it's full of vibrancy n love. A bit abstract, i heard, but it's definitely a good quality show.
ANYONE WANNA WATCH?!
Oh that reminds me, have to save up for Christmas. Still haven buy prezzie for Jamie, Minnie, Sixuan, n chocs or sth for the yf.
Family n I goin out on... 23rd dec i think, to watch Chronicles of Narnia. Whoosh. So cool :D maybe this time we'll finally get to take a family neoprint!! Jamie n I have been dying for one.
Daddy's company alwayz provides tix for such movies at a much lower rate n we've watched Ocean's Twelve & Harry Potter 5 before as a family.
Yea, ok i know.
A bit random.
No connections whatsoever.
But whatever.
Im gonna sleep now.
hope ur day wuz better than mine.
Nightz, everyone~!!
tranquility ; 12/13/2005 02:23:00 pm.
