14.12.05
Everything went smoothly today during video editing. Though there were a few minor technical probs, i managed to finish editing everything n send it to my own account so i can add in the music at home :)
Praise the Lord~!!
Anyway, spent abt 2.5 hrs in comp lab, then went home for lunch n finally off to my ex-piano tchr's hse. Her two kidz r really adorable, the older one bossy n a typical boy (competitive n unwilling to lose), the younger one seriously into Barbie n Power Rangers.
I know!!
It's such a cute combination!!
*screams*
He loves Barbie's hair n clothes, but enjoys fighting lyk the Power Rangers. That's juz sooo RARE! I wonder how he'll grow up to be like. But his older brother, Gavin, keeps teasing him for lykin Barbie n the pink colour.
Poor gareth kept defending himself.
Oooh. So cutie cutie!!
We played some pretty childish games lyk Tables n Chairs (where we're supposed to stack up mini tables n chairs, sth lyk uno stacko), but i kindda liked it, coz i haven been around kidz for some time.
Then i took them all down to the playground n that's when sth happened.
As i wuz the oldest, it's obvious im meant to take care of 3 yr old Gareth, but i lost focus for one split second n he went toddling towards the swings.
WHAM.
Jamie, who was on the swing at that time, slammed into him n he went spinning on the ground. Ok, it wasnt that bad, he wasnt hurt at all, but still, i felt awfully bad.
The poor kid burst out cryin n to my surprise, he made a beeline for his older bro, throwing his arms around Gavin's waist n sobbing.
That scene really touched me.
Gavin often smacked Gareth n left him out of games, makin him cry n stuff, but now, when he felt hurt, the first person little brother thinks of is his big brother.
Like, love totally surpasses everything else.
I geniunely felt i've done Gareth wrong, but after a min, he wuz beaming n high fiving with me again. That's when i realised something else.
Little kidz r totally full of beans n downright innocent.
To them, they r blameless, n in their eyes, everyone is faultless.
They may feel the pain n cry, but they absolutely cannot find it in their hearts to blame anyone. They juz accept what has happened to them n forget abt it quickly.
Some ppl, as they grow out of their childhood, they still retain this special character - innocence n forgiveness.
But sad to say, most ppl lose it.
If our hearts r broken in a relationship, we fault somebody.
If we lose sth, we blame.
If we trip over someone, we curse.
If our parents restrict us, we grumble.
How many times a day do we say, "It's all XXX's fault!" or "It's not my fault!!"
How often do we remark, "I hate XXX!"
These r wordz that will never come out of the mouth of a kid.
Im talkin abt really young kidz, lyk, nearly toddlers.
I know it sounds ridiculous, but sometimes, i feel that i lyk little kidz better than ppl of my age. Sometimes, i lyk the little ones more than myself.
The grown up world n complicated society has completely changed our natural forms. We grow up n get influenced by the scheming world, where it's "The Survival of The Fittest". Thus we often kill each other in order to grow stronger, abandoning our conscience n shedding our child-like innocence.
We cannot afford to "lose out" to others or fade out among our peers. We have to follow up with the lastest trends in order to look "in the crowd". These are all part of fighting for our own survival.
I think i might've stretched the topic a little too far, but what im saying is, the poisoned insides of some ppl around me really disgust me. The way they behave n the way they talk makes me wonder how they were as little kidz.
Perhaps it's good for all of us to take some time off to play around with toddlers.
Their innocence n simplicity will stun you.
And you will see how complex the adult minds are.
Oh, there's another thing i've been thinkin abt.
It's really becoz of the sermon last sunday.
Sth Pastor Li said made me think.
Why am i chosen to be a Christian?
He's chosen me to serve him, but im not sure in what area.
What is my purpose as His child?
I dun think im capable of spreadin the Word yet,
so what exactly am i meant to do?
I cant juz sit back n sing holy hymns all the time.
Yf ppl, if anyone reading this n have comments, pls tag kz?
Coz it's sth that's been bothering me for quite some time now.
Anywayz, really drained now...
still have golf lesson tmr morning n piano lesson in the aftnn.
Pleasant dreamz everyone~!!
tranquility ; 12/14/2005 11:03:00 pm.
