1.1.06
thank you to those who believed in me... i will do my best and not disappoint you...
i still cant believe im in the exco now. it feels really weird. lyk, the change is too drastic. but i suppose there isnt really meant to be much change, except i've got responsibilities now.
maybe that's why i feel slightly troubled. Coz im not sure how much responsibility im supposed to take, n whether im up to it. As in, i dunno how im supposed to BEHAVE now. Does being in the exco mean i have to be a model Christian or sth? Know-all abt God n stuff?
Oh, im not regretting.
Seriously.
I still wanna do my part for yf. I juz haven figured out how.
:S
Maybe it takes time.
Michelle n yilun has already been in exco before, so im sure they're feelin, lyk, CHILL. Not sure if henry is feelin lyk me, though.
I need time to get my head around this.
Becoz honestly, i've never survived elections before. Oh, i've been nominated for posts in sch before, but i never get enough votes. So today wuz lyk a nightmare for me, while they counted the votes, coz it reminds me of the council election.
Sighz.
I wuz honestly shocked when zhixuan announced im in the committee!
I never expected it, coz despite everything sixuan said, n how much minnie believed in me, i juz didn't think the yfers would trust me enough to vote for me.
But - well - the results r out n it's over now.
I'll juz have to really do my best now.
Actually before the yf, i wuz readin the letter sixuan wrote to me, n she mentioned the Angel & Mortal game. It's a really neat game to get to know ppl better, n i suddenly wondered if it's possible to put this system in yf?
It's obvious there r ppl who r left out, especially the new comers, n im sure some of us have some deeply hidden probs which we really wanna share with ppl but cant seem to find the right person.
With an annoynomous angel, we would be able to help those who have probs n make new frens. It'll be strictly one to one n whether the angel chooses to disclose his/her identity is his/her choice.
But honestly, i dun think it's gonna work.
Coz knowing the guyz in yf, they'll probably turn this into some kindda joke n i dun think ppl will actually trust their angels enough to spill out their probs. And the angels might not take the mortals seriously either.
Oh well.
It was a thought.
But anyway, i wuz serious abt the bonds in yf. Sure, we go there n we have fun, but this makes our friendship quite shallow. As in, it doesnt go very deep, n we dun TRULY understand each other.
For me, i have minnie n sixuan, but i know there r some who dont really have an anchor in yf. Lyk, no real close frens? It's quite sad becoz i want yf to become a second home to everyone, juz lyk it is for me.
I hope to see it become a place of hope n love for everyone, n whenever they think of goin to yf on sunday, they'll think, "Oh good! I can ask XXX abt this prob of mine!" or "Yes! Time to forget my earthly worries n worship God with the yfers!" or "Excellent! Another time of bonding!"
To me, yf makes worshipping much for meaningful n fun, especially since i feel thankful n blessed whenever i look at my yf frens. But i alwayz rmb that there r those who dun really feel this way.
That's probably why they keep missing yf sessions.
I hoped that being in the committee is God's will for me, n i really hope he'll use me to close the gaps between the yfers, especially the current sec1s n the next batch who'll be joining us.
I think the older yfers r really our role models. They can be serious when worshipping, yet have fun in the real world, despite all the problems n frustrations.
This is the identity i was talkin abt.
Such that when i bring my sch frens or outside frens to yf, they'll go, "Wow! They're all like THAT."
It's lyk we're all different, yet similar at the same time. The positive attitude our seniors show towards life is an inspiration to us all. And i hope that us, being the younger ones, will take on this trait so that it'll shine through us n we can be a living testimony to God.
So anywa, im really thrilled to have the chance to work closely with the Dao Shis n michelle, henry n yilun.
Im hoping this yr, 2006, will show me more abt my purpose in being a Christian n what He means for me to do.
Amen.
Thanks once again, everyone!!
P.S Minnie and Sixuan, you have been incredible friends n i juz hope that this yr, no matter how frustrated i get or how sad i become due to earthly probs, you'll alwayz be with me. And vice versa!
P.P.S Those who are helping me proof read, erm, not to pressurise you, but school is startin soon, and im sure we all want to focus on our studies, so it'll be REALLY great if you can finish the proof reading by end of hol? It's ok if you haven't finish the whole thing. Juz stop whereva you are n email the script back to me by monday night. Thanks LOTS n LOTS ^_^
tranquility ; 1/01/2006 04:27:00 pm.
