6.1.06
Since sch has started, i'll only probably be able to update this blog on a weekly basis. So here's my report on the first wk of yr'06:
There was a change in table formation in class yesterday, n due ot the change, some of us had to change table partners too. Which was fine with me, coz for me, i cant sit with someone for too long, one yr max. Long that that, i'll start noticing her bad points n after an extended period of time, i'll focus more n more on her bad points.
Which really puts a strain on our friendship. And it's completely NOT healthy. But still, it's juz sth abt me that cannot be changed. Im not sure if anyone's like me, but I cant get to know someone too well or get too close to him/her, lyk sitting with someone everyday for at least 7 hrs straight, for more than a yr.
Anyone understands wad im saying??
Im not unfriendly, seriously. I guess everyone needs a change of environment every now and then. Wouldnt you get tired if you sit with the same person for more than a yr? Im not saying my table partner is boring or anything.
Far from that, she's actually a v.interesting person. But i like to try sitting with different ppl, so i dont juz stick to one grp of frens.
And guess wad?
I got my wish :)
The new arrangement allowed me n my frens to sit in a group of seven, n all my buddies in class r all around me now!! Though im still sitting with the same person, the situation is improved by the fact that i've got another table partner on my left side now ^_^
She's really funny, hardworkin (you cant find her slackin for a minute in class!), n geniunely helpful. I was gonna take my maths retest this aftnn, so the whole day, whenever there was a break b/w lessons, she would urge me to revise n help me through the qns.
Thanks so much, Ding Jia!! However, i still have to say, i dont think i did well for the maths retest... but fear not!! I will keep on tryin n not waste your efforts ^^)
So anyway, im really happy in class now, coz where ever i turn, i can find a buddy to talk to.
Hmm... this reminds me...
I really take my hat off to my parents.
I've only faced one table partner for half a yr, n already im a little tired, but they have been with each other for nearly 20 yrs!!! And they're still so ever loving.
Many couples stay together till death, but the love is long gone. And some stay together only for the sake of the kidz.
I feel totally lucky to have parents who can tolerate each other n forgive one another becoz of sth called True Love.
But on the other hand, lookin at them, i wonder if i can be like them, stayin with my future other half forever. It's like a challenge for me!
I mean, juz look at how i feel towards my half yr table partner! Gosh. Wad if i get sick of my other half within a yr?!
This isnt really a fair conparison, is it? I dont think i shld compare like this, but honestly, i dont really think im up for anything like love yet.
Oh, yiu ming, if u're reading this, thanks again for the email, kz? You're totally right. Im not ready for a relationship yet. Im juz happy to have the yfers now =)
Ok, so i took my maths retest, and it was really BAAAD.
I was clear headed n could rmb all the formulas etc, but i juz cant seem to manage all the qns. I cant accept the excuse that NY is a very good sch, so it's ok if i do a little badly, coz compared to other students island wide, im still good.
That's crap.
It's precisely becoz NY is a very good sch, so i cant afford to fall behind my peers. If the standard in NY is high, i'll have to try n match up to it.
If not, how am i ever goin to get my Humans Scholarship in HCI?!?
YESS, ppl!
You heard that right.
Im aiming for the Humans Scholarship at the end of this yr.
Hmm not sure how it'll be given out, n dunno if i'll be good enough, but i'll juz do my very very very best ^ ^ it'll be soo cool to be able to major in sth like LITERATURE!!!
Yahooo!
I have a feeling im gonna love GP!!
So lookin forward to tmr's meeting with the daoshis n the other exco members! Also excited abt yf on sunday!
This week has been quite draining, partly coz im soo damn determined to do well this yr so im putting in a 100% effort for all i do, n partly becoz the project works n deadlines r coming in.
But now that maths retest is over, i can relax A LITTLE.
Yf is like my energy charger now. And He is my spiritual charger ^0^
See ya peeps on sunday then!!
tranquility ; 1/06/2006 10:15:00 pm.
