29.1.06
it was a seriously WEIRD dream.
these two divine beings approached me one day, n told me i'll be goin to heaven in XX days. i was required to pack everything that i need or wanted to take along (i can take ANYTHING i want *biggrin*).
so i told the news to EVERYONE. n they were all really sad n everything. me? i wuz absolutely thrilled!
i was a little nervous also. coz i know i'll NEVER return to Earth again, so i mustn't forget to bring anything. besides, i'll be spending an eternity in heaven, so muz bring loads of stuff.
so there i was, busy digging out stuffs in my room, takin as much stuff as i can (the angels said i could!) n i totally didnt feel sad or anything abt leavin.
then The Day came, n i was ascoted to this strange part of the town. there was this lift-like thing that radiated brilliantly dazzling beams of white light. it was the portal to heaven i think.
so anyway, everyone was like crying n stuff, but i was urgent to use the toilet, so i FLEW off to the nearest toilet (i had to cross this deserted meadow that was full of poisonous thorns!).
i really literally flew off to this toilet in a straw hut. after im done, i returned to the portal to say my final goodbyes.
thats when the weird thing happened.
there r these 3 guys there, i dunno two of them, but the third one is JOSHUA ANG. hhaha! it's really CRAZY!
so i went up to them n said, "Let's have a goodbye grp hug!!"
As if i know them!!
One of them looked at me, like, "Huh? Errpz..."
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The second one juz told me in the face, "You crazy ah."
And joshua ang?
Oh man he was such a meanie in that dream!!
He didnt even look at me when i spoke, then he juz turned his back on me n walked off with that qian bian look.
dammit.
that was so irritating larh.
haha.
so anyway, the angels called for me to leave le, n that was when the full situation hit me.
I WAS NEVER GONNA SEE MY FAMILY AGAIN!!
n i think i cried.
i panicked.
coz i had to leave le.
n i hadnt said my final words to my family.
"Daddy, mummy, even though i never told u, but im really happy to be your daughter. You've done a great job of bringing me up."
"Jamie, study hard, ok? And stop arguing with Joyce. Be nice to her."
"Joyce, be a good girl n listen to daddy n mummy, alright? Dajie is leaving now, i'll see ya soon, kz?"
The light grew fiercer n brighter, then suddenly i rolled off the bed n woke up painfully.
i wasnt crying, but i knew i was cryin in that dream.
it was so unbearably SAD.
i had no regreats to leave this world, but i totally cannot leave my family!
the dream made me realise that even though we will all eventually meet in His kingdom, i must still do my best treat my family well, so that i wont miss them if i ever leave earlier than them, or vice versa.
i know as christians we shldnt be afraid of death, but the longing for ur family members or frens is incredibly miserable.
i cant help but think of those who has lost their loved ones or close frens.
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i feel like cryin for them.
but i dont think they'll wanna talk abt it.
hmm.
i really hope to share their lonliness and pain, n understand how izzit for them. i keep thinkin of the tsunami victims. i hope to talk to one of them someday.
sighx...
i keep wonderin if this dream of mine is like a msg or sth. coz it's the first time i have such a vivid n HEAVENLY dream.
it's a beautiful dream, yet unbelievably depressing.
i have this empty dread inside me now.
like something really bad's gonna happen.
but maybe im juz imagining things.
i really dont wanna lose anyone in my life.
but i put my trust n faith in God.
what shld happen will happen.
n i'll obey His will willingly.
besides, nth in my life belongs to me. it's all rightfully His. n He has the right to take away anything at any time.
i juz pray that He reminds me constantly of the blessings i have, so that i'll treasure what i have. n embrace my life.
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tranquility ; 1/29/2006 02:13:00 pm.
