14.1.06
Today was sec1 closing ceremony. n as a PSGL, i got the most exciting job of all ======================> selling fun fair tickets
I got news from my PSGL vice-chair (Ling Huan) last night that im down for duty today. at 6.45 AM. in school. to sell fun fair tickets. She said i was her last resort or something. And no wonder.
I mean, 6.45 AM?! in school??
It's even earlier than normal sch dayz.
See, thing is, NY will be organising this major fun fair which is supposed to raise money for charity (wad else), n upgrading of sch. i.e repainting n maintaining the whole building.
And the fun fair is supposed to be on 1st JULY!!
So, um, excuse me? Why exactly am i selling tickets at 6.45 AM on saturday, 14th JANUARY?!? the fun fair is a good 6 mths away, pls...
Ok, im really not complaining, juz stating some facts. But of coz, i do feel grouchy abt losing my sleep, but i wuz supposed to go for cca walkathon anyway, at 6.30am till dunno when, so i figured selling tix would probably be way more exciting.
Besides, it'll be included in my PSGL portfolio, n right now, seeing that im so enthu abt gettin that scholarship, i reckon havin at least SOME credits in my portfolio would be useful.
And anyway, the whole selling tickets thing ended at 7.45 am for me n my partner, coz we both have stuff to do later on. For me, it's golf lesson.
We learnt how to use the WOOD. seriously. that's wad that type of club is called. it's bulky n fat, but unexpectedly LIGHT. i actually played relatively well with it, better than the past few lessons anyway.
Hmm... didn't really have any big time inspiring thoughts today, but i felt thankful that He made my heart willing to sell those tickets even though it was way early in the morning.
I was feeling pretty sucky abt this last night, then i did my daily quiet time, n although the verse was not directly linked to my problem, the prayer focus was v.useful.
For a willing heart.
So i did.
I prayed that God will give me a willing heart, so that no matter how tiring or sickening my work is, i'll still find joy from it. And by being enthusiastic no matter how draining the situation is, i can inspire those around me and spread the joy ^-^
I guess this is wad they mean by glorifying God?
So anyway, i didn't really need to force myself to be smiley while selling those tickets, coz smiling came naturally when i approached ppl n He shortened my "suffering" when the tchr in charge allowed me to go home after an hr of selling.
So i went home and slept for 2.5 hrs :)
Praise the Lord!!
Through my quiet time last night, i also realised that when we meet ppl in need, we shld trust the Lord to guide us n have faith that He will help us meet their needs. They are often "assignments" given to us by Him.
But i think that's provided we can see ppl's needs, if u know wad i mean. Coz from wad i observe, even as young Christians in the yf, the level of care n concern for ppl is still not there.
I wuz juz talkin to someone from yf two dayz ago, n i mentioned this to him.
Are ppl juz not interested in the lives of others, or they're being polite n not kpo?
Coz for me, when i chat with ppl im not familiar with, it's natural for me to start prodding into their lives. It might get a bit irritating, but i set my boundaries right n i alwayz make sure i ask in a polite way, NOT pushy.
So wad abt the yfers?
I don't think i've said this, coz it'll reflect quite badly on the yfers, but since we're on this issue, might as well say it.
When i first joined yf, i don't rmb much ppl talkin to me, except minnie, emily, grace etc. These r the more outgoin ones, i take it. But point is, even after that, no one came to ask for my msn acc or hp no., so that they can follow up with me (except the ones i mentioned earlier).
And now that i think of it, not many came forth to talk to me when i added them on msn. Most of them juz did self intro n stuff, if i said nothing, they'll juz shut up n go offline quietly.
It's quite annoying sometimes, perhaps coz i cant accept the fact that ppl juz dont like to talk. I mean, how can they NOT like to talk? It's a natural gift from the Lord!
Im being a bit unreasonable here, coz i do understand that some ppl juz like to be left alone, but if they juz shrink away n disappear, how do we bond as brothers n sisters in Christ?
I still get a bit heated up when i think abt this, coz sometimes it really feels like im the only one tryin to gel everyone together, n most of them juz don't care.
Occassionally when i feel confident enough, i'll ask the yfers abt their lives, but most of them have nothing better to say. They either give a one word answer, or juz one sentence of reply.
So what can i do?
I take it that they dont wanna talk, so i back off.
That's how it work.
If i were to come up with an explanation for this, it'll be TIME. everyone's juz waay too busy. isn't that right guyz? But wad abt those who r constantly online?
Or izzit becoz im still considered a New Kid in ur eyes? So no one really wants to talk to me? Or, really, izzit coz u ppl have NOTHING to talk abt?
Ok, angry liaox....
RRRAWWR.
wadeva.
I guess not everyone can talk so much, n it really takes a little sth to make us click. So if we dont have that factor, it's harder to start talkin in depth.
I genuinely hope that amongst you, you're constantly updating each other n sharing probs. It's fine if u dun wanna share with me, coz i know sharing probs depends on the other party (whether u're comfortable with him/her), but at least find a few close frenz in yf.
This way, we'll be able to connect with one another pretty fast n the bond will be stronger, coz we wont be made up of shallow stuff, but real solid foundation for our friendship.
So here, i juz wanna appeal to all yfers to reach out to anyone you can think of. If you think you've got that factor with some of them, then good for you. If not, juz keep trying till you can at least form a small circle in yf.
This enables us to include those who feel slightly left out, n all these small circles (i won't call them "cliques") will be connected to one another becoz of some ppl who have a wider social circle, then we'll be joined into one BIG circle :D
Yeahhh right.
Get real, jenny.
I guess my idea of a perfect yf won't come true so easily, coz nothing's really perfect. And i think the current yf is already really good. Or maybe it's juz becoz of those few who r more enthusiastic n warm.
Oh well.
Anyway.
Juz a thought.
I don't think i've got anything else to update on this blog, n im afraid it has already offence some ppl? not sure, coz im not v.tactful sometimes.
See ya peeps on sunday!
And JIAYOU to all Four Sixers!!
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tranquility ; 1/14/2006 06:46:00 pm.
