17.1.06
To my mentees:
Sry if i cant call u girlz up n chat abt ur lives n stuff. I swear i'll talk to you on sunday kz? All the best for ur studies n everything else. Alwayz have faith in God n trust Him to make things right for you!
To yfers:
Some of you have this amazing ability to send me encouraging smses whenever im feeling down, without anyone telling you! And i know even though i sometimes talk a bit too much on msn, askin qns n seeking advise, all of you can bear with me v.well, n give me really good answers. Im really grateful n i hope to be able to do the same for you peeps ;) LOVEYOULOVEYOULOVEYOUALL!!!
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SOMETHING AMAZING HAPPENED LAST NIGHT!!!
I needed to find a speech, or craft my own, as part of a school project for Language Arts. I've been stressed by this problem for a long time liaox, but last night, while i was doin quiet time, the writer mentioned this speech called I Have A Dream, by Martin Luther!!
And it was, like, DINGG!
I juz KNEW God was helping me becoz the speech is abt racism n how we should get along well in God's love that kind.... it's SO PERFECT *screams* Wooohooo. So now i've one less reason to stress becoz of school :D
Of course, there r still a lot of things to stress abt, especially after today.
There's Chinese Project (topic not decided, grp members not finalised... NOTHING DONE YET!), Bio tasks (two of them!!), Physics SIA (review of a science article. this one is not so bad, coz i found a rather interesting article on the theory of a yoyo ^.^), Chem SIA (research on background, vision etc. of Jurong Island. it's like a pre-vist write up) n Lang. Arts Portofolio (this is like v.v.v.v.V.IMPT coz it determines whether i can get the humans scholarship. but it's a whole yr thing, so i can take thingz easy. FOR NOW).
And to top off all that stress with choc chips, i juz FAILED my bio quiz (4 out of 10. it's like the LOWEST score in class. n it's only a quiz!!), n i think i might have failed my maths RETEST too (coz my tchr had a Talk with me), PLUS, my maths quiz totally let me down too (5 out of 10).
Whoops.
It sounds like im so not fulfiling my role as a good student. But pls! Someone give me a break. I have to pick up somewhere from last yr right? Im trying, alright?
STOP - PUSHING - ME!!!!
It's not as if im completely letting God down by slacking or anything. Far from that, my dad has moved the comp into my room, which means no more internet access. So only time i can chat is when i surf the net for project info using mum's laptop.
And he has programmed the tv in such a way that it's permenently switched off.
So no more tv too.
^_^
Isn't that great? Now i can spend ALL my time STUDYING.
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I think im becoming delirious already.
Sighxx...
My only source of life now is my quiet time booklet... thats the only time i can find reassurance that im not alone n He is there for me.
Oh, of coz, n not forgettin the yfers.
All of you r so precious to me!!!
Im totally lookin forward to sunday now.
Sooo physically drained n mentally worn down already...
But good news is, becoz of all the stress n difficulties i face each day, i learn to put 100% of my trust in God, knowing that everything will work out at the end of the day. And you know what? It ALWAYZ does :)
Like on the first day of sch, i couldnt find my nametag, which is v.impt in my sch. I wuz worried sick, coz it's like first day of the yr, n i seriously dont wanna get scolded my tchr.
But He guided my day n i ended up purchasing a temporary nametag from my tchr (for 2 bucks) while i waited for my permenent one. BUT, i lost my temporary nametag this wk, n once again i trusted Him to make my day right.
He did, n no one realised i had no nametag on for the WHOLE day. and luckily, the next day, i found my temporary nametag (:
I know, it's like a v.simple thing, but i lose a lot of things, n God has alwayz helped me solved these little problems in life. And im v.grateful, even though it's nothing major.
There r several times when i had lack of sleep n suffered from pulsing headache the next day after sch. And when i reached home, i couldn't take a nap becoz i have piano lesson in an hr's time, so i had to practise n stuff.
I prayed for strength n eventually, im alwayz able to stumble through my activities without appearing too sianz n tired.
Oh well.
What can i say?
God is amazing =)
Right now, im praying that the maths department will give my grp the chance to organise a maths event for the lower sec students, then it can be counted as part of our project. If not, we'll have to do individual project works, like independent learning, which is very boring n sickening.
But i understand He has different plans for us, so if i ever have to do independent learning, i'll take it as a self challenge.
But honestly, i dont think i can take anymore stress :(
Also, im prayin for my upcoming piano performance at the music concert my piano tchr has organised. I still have a few more free tix to give out, so if anyone's interested, pls tell me asap kz?
It's this sunday, 22nd January, at Young Musicians Society (waterloo street). Time is 5.30.
Lastly, im praying for my grade 7 theory exam on march 11th. Hopefully i can manage my time well n study for it.
Wheww...
Feel better now, after spilling out my busy life.
Im not sure if anyone's leading this sort of hectic life, but if you are, jiayou kz? And you're not alone ^^)
tranquility ; 1/17/2006 03:22:00 pm.
