2.2.06
at home.
the so called career conference was at home. last night.
dad n i started talkin abt my interests n my future, as well as the possible paths i can take in my life.
he suggested for me to go the aussie for university, then head for america or england for my masters n phd.
i thought it wasnt a bad idea, since i've got a much better impression of aussie compared to other countries.
then we decided on the subjs i could take in jc. i told him abt my plans to get the Humans Scholarship, n he was very supportive, which made me really glad, coz all along i thought he was more in favour of me specialising in science or math.
so it's nearly decided that i will take bio, chem, math, lit, econs n chi in HCI. I dunno if thats the minimum, coz im not v.sure of the subj combination offered, but wadeva the case, those r the subjs im more willing to take up.
in any case, im juz really relieved that i've got that sorted out. it's been bugging my mind for some time now.
n dad highlighted some possible career choices to me. i thought the most interesting one is being a university lectuerer, or professor, in Lit.
dad said if im good, ppl all around the world will invite me for talks or do presentations, or conduct lessons. this way, i get to travel around the world while doin my job. AND i can still go on doin part time writing, becoz if i travel more, i gain more inspiration n my horizons r widened :D
Ok thats a bit too far.
Im still sec4 now.
but it's gd to be thinkin abt such things now.
so anyway.
i feel much light hearted now. with a direction in mind, i can put my trust n faith in the Lord to guide me in His will and wholeheartedly play my part to study hard, n leave the rest to Him.
it's much better this way, rather than guess n guess wad He wants for me, daydreaming my time away... much better to get real n juz LIVE my life well, the way He wants me to (:
Hmm... nowadayz everyone in class is feeling the stress, n the deadlines r startin to put a lid on everything.
but today, i get this feeling that im SUPPOSED to be stressed n drained like everyone else, but somehow, all the homework n pressure juz didnt get to me. n i feel strangely cheerful despite my heavy work schedule.
it's like there's this inner peace thingy inside me, n its totally neutralising all the negative vibes!
it's amazing n i juz know it's God helping me. it's such a wonderful feeling. like i know nth will ever go seriously wrong, becoz HE IS RIGHT THERE FOR ME ^.^
n even if things go wrong, i know He will give me strenght to overcome everything. so basically there's no fear or worry inside me right now.
it's cool. n even though i havent been a good Christian recently (reading bible daily etc.), i can still feel His presence n grace every day.
THAT'S how amazing His love is.
even though we neglect Him in our busy lives, He still finds time to continuously watch over us n guide us in our day.
so i find it very impt to give thanks to Him whenever i can, even if it's on the bus on the way home. n becoz i have lesser time for bible reading n quiet time, i treasure my free time even more, n every word that i read from the bible means a lot to me.
i try hard to rmb His words n apply it to my daily life, n often, when i converse with others, the words that they say remind me of wad i read in the bible. n im awed. coz most of them r not christians.
i realise that even though there r ppl who do not yet know God, they have at least once experienced the love of God or come across His words, it's juz that they do not know it.
so i feel that it's my responsibility as His child to help these ppl realise that they r constantly being surrounded by God's love, no matter how tough the situation is.
tranquility ; 2/02/2006 03:23:00 pm.
