26.6.06
new link, new look, new identity!! (i've yet to have time to work on that new look, but anyway...)from now on i'll be known as the blur, childish, cheer bear wannbe bio rep ^-^ doesnt that just sound absolutely exciting? wheeps. i think care bears is such a good idea, whoever produced these furry friends is a genius. if you go take a look at the website, it's really fantastic and teaches all the good values a kid shld know and have.
amazingly, and believe it or not, every one of us actually fit into one of those care bears in one way or another. i chose cheer bear, of course, coz i feel like all the other bears have a lot of responsibilities, like giving out wishes (Wish Bear), winning every sports game (Champ Bear) yadda yadda ya. so cheer bear is like the hippiest one i can agree on. besides, being cheerful is GOOD.
though care bears seem childish, but they carry and represent the goodness in this world, and people usually only ignore and shun things that reflect the ugliness in them right? so if we're not evil or totally hateful, why then shld we discriminate care bears just because they are cartoon characters? instead, shldnt we pay attention to the qualities of these cartoon characters and ask ourselves what goodness and precious values have we lost on the journey of growing up?
it's no longer a matter of childishness or not, but a matter of admittance and acceptance that we are no longer as perfect and beautiful as how God first created us to be, and the willingness to be reminded once again of how we shld behave and to change.
oh, to prove my point that everyone can be a care bear in reality, i have made a list of my friends and the corresponding care bear:
Bashful Heart Bear==> Pending
Bedtime Bear==> Pending
Champ Bear==> Uhh, michelle? except she's a girl(:
Cheer Bear==> Me
Daydream Bear ==> Lots of ppl, but a classic example might be jasmine?? :P
Do-Your-Best Bear==> Pending
Friend Bear==> Coco
Funshine Bear==> The Cousins, sixuan and minnie!!
Good Luck Bear==> Pending
Grumpy Bear==> Pending
Harmony Bear==> oh sinyee definitely
Laugh-A-Lot Bear==> Pamela!
Love-A-Lot Bear==> Lynn Ong
Secret Bear==> Everyone can keep a secret if they try, but i'll trust danxun the most to keep a secret.
Share Bear==> Dingjia my table partner. she's always sharing her sarcasm with me.
Surprise Bear==> Pending
Tenderheart Bear==> Pending
Trueheart Bear==> Lynn Ong again. honestly, i dont think i'll ever meet another person like this one here.
Wish Bear==> Lynn Ong. she once told me that her dream is not being a ____ but helping me achieve my dream of being a ____ is her dream. i'll always rmb that.
*DISCLAIMER*:If for any reason your name is not on the list, it does not mean Cheer Bear has forgotten you. The names here were randomly thought of, and does not reflect any preference of friends on Cheer Bear's part. Finally, this is a mere fun exercise and shld not be taken seriously. For more fun and quirky info abt each care bear, visit
http://www.care-bears.com/CareBears/html/about/index.htmlBe a Bear. Be a Friend.
tranquility ; 6/26/2006 06:04:00 pm.
22.6.06
im here to comment on the results of the latest courtesy survey conducted worldwide. abt 21 countries were surveyed i think, and guess wad singapore, we're the 5th most courteous country!!
from the back.
em. hello?? say please and thank you much, ppl?? like, wad the... how could we have gotten so low?! but then again, im not surprised, considering how many (or little) times i have seen ppl return lost wallets. yea, that was one of the judging criterias.
see, these survey ppl are really cute. they throw out a few dozen wallets out into the four corners of a country, and wait for a fixed period of time to see how many wallets return to them. smart right? except we're not smart enough to see through this joke and actually return the wallets.
another criteria is, they send ppl out onto the streets, and these ppl will be carrying a mountain of papers. then they'll purposefully spill them on the pavement, and go "oh, oh, oh! my papers! someone help me!". and of course, the catch is to see how many passerbys actually stop to help. and once again, we're not smart enough to understand the situation.
last judging criteria is whether shop assistants say thank you to ppl who patronise the shops. excuse me, isnt that basic service courtesy? do we need a survey result to tell us we have been doin poorly in this area?
gosh. obviously yes, because we ended up the bottom few. and who came in first? NEW YORK. (shldnt u be happy now, d?). oh wow. the most chaotic, most complicated, most under terrorist attack city is actually the most courteous place in the world!
whoo! i am just SO surprised. pls. what good issit being the Garden City? what use issit having the Most Beautiful Airport? what use is all these when we dont even know the basic courtesy of being a human??!
honestly, singapore. pls. just wakie wakie. stop being so stuck up and think u're the top of the world. u shld take a step outside every now and then to take a look at the outside world. u're kindda like a frog at the bottom of the well (literally translated from a chinese saying >.<)
anywayy. i was suprised that s.korea is one position behind us, though. i mean, check out the kdramas and their music scene. it's wayy happening k. u wouldnt believe the ppl there are even less courteous than us! and pls, ppl like rain? gosh, they present to us such a good image of korea, but the survey ruined everything. *stupid survey! blarhh!*
sigh... anyway, i believe there are still good and courteous singaporeans around here. and i'll choose to believe the survey ppl chose a bad time to conduct a survey, and happened to pick on the wrong sort of ppl, or maybe they went to the wrong places. u know, like, if you went to orchard road or sth, ppl wont give two hoots abt you and your papers, coz they'll be going "WHOO THE GREAT SINGAPORE SALE~!!".
so yea, survey ppl pls take note. ur results are NOT accurate. i mean, come on, if you tested the survey on my class, gosh, we'll SCORE im telling you.
FOUR-OH-SIX rules yea.
well, anyway, the results have been published, and we singaporeans are at shame now. but no fear, my fellow city mates, we'll just rmb our Ps and Qs from now on.
end of story.
good night.
tranquility ; 6/22/2006 11:23:00 pm.
21.6.06
computer is under virus attack. kindda sian with all these pop-ups already. sch reopening soon, trying to pia finish all my hmwk. and it seems like nearly the whole class is working on their maths, takin up tuition for that and revising like siao. i cant believe it. am i the only one not doin any work?? oh but im pleased to announce i have finished all bsp work, so im officially workin on all my projects now.hopefully can finish by weekends, then i can work on my upcoming math quizzes. (this is my shortest post EVER.)
tranquility ; 6/21/2006 08:48:00 pm.
18.6.06
went for yf outing today. was quite fun, especially on the bus. we laughed like nobody's business and talked abt EVERYTHING under the sun(: honestly, i used to be like really lonely on the bus when travelling in large grps, but today i felt so LOVED and ACCEPTED ^0^ ok im behaving like someone who seriously lacks security and has zero self confidence, but im really sick of being left alone in one corner. so im really thankful to the girls who chatted with me on the bus. ohh, but im worried we might have left some ppl out, it always happens! :(
anyway, when we arrived at east coast park, it was V.LATE ok. like, around 1pm? and we left the church at 12am.? so after lunch and all that dilly dally, we finally rented bikes and blades at around 1.30pm. it was darn expensive lah, the blades. $10 per hr. with NO CASHBACK. and the other rental shop rents blades at $6 for 2hrs!! but we didnt know that until after the outing ended. so anyway, me, coco and jamie went blading, tryin to catch up with minnie and gang, who were cycling as though they had never been free. they were FAST lar. ok, maybe we were slow. but point is, becoz we went slow, we actually spotted this filming crew filming for the next episode of Hey Hey Taxi~~ and we saw kim (zhong qing), that superhost guy, and CHEN XI from star idol. he's just as cute in person as on tv ^^) (and according to my fren, when we were eating at Mac, belinda and li teng were just outside, filming for the same show too! but i missed them. booo.)
so then we continued blading (me and jamie reluctantly. coco wasnt the slightest excited, coz she has met such high profile ppl before. lucky her!), and we were quite miffed when those pros kept whizzing past us on their blades, and they were so fast you can literally hear the
whoosh whoosh sound of the wheels. i tried to console myself by adding my own sound effects, so i said "whooshhhh... whooosh!!" while the pros disappeared into the distance -__________- and guess wad. just as we reached the jetty, it started drizzling, and omg, it was drama larr.
when i looked out at the sea, i could see all those big ships super clearly, budden somewhere ahead of us, the open sea was blurry and misty, like a huge thunderstorm was approaching. and true enough, it started drizzling, and everyone was like, wahhhhh!!! go back go back!!! best thing is, the sun was still shining and everything. eewww. rain in the sun. not my idea of a fab outing. so the three of us tried to race against the rain, coz it was catching up on us. but coco's feet started to hurt, so we stopped so she could take off her blades and she ran barefooted all the way back while we skated. three woots for coco!! i was commenting that she looked like some lady in damsel, heart broken and running in the rain. then i started narrating a storyline for an MV.
"she was broken hearted and tears poured down her face as it rained. then, she fell to the ground. too tired to continue running, she sat there and cried. suddenly, an umbrella appeared over her head and she looked up to see..."
"wahh jenny u're very imaginative hor."
heh. -.-" yea i got kindda carried away, but honestly, coco looked like she was shooting a MV or sth, running in the rain, carrying her blades. hah! anywayyyy... i shant comment further on wad happened the rest of the day, coz THE RAIN RUINED EVERYTHING. it ruined my spirits, it ruined my happy outing, and it wasted the money i paid for the blades. coz we couldnt continue skating. i was in such a sucky mood that i think everyone got the impression i had just gone for the most crummy outing EVER. but nonono. thats not true. i had fun on the bus, and meeting the celebs was incredible. oh, and of coz, chatting with coco abt her dreams and life was really inspiring and my fav kind of interaction ^-^ apparently, we are experiencing the same kindda of probs in life and facing the same career crisis (havin dreams but unable to pursue them).
so minnie, i just wanna say once again, that im sry if i appeared ratty and sian when yf parted. the outing WASNT a flop k. it was really good considering it's your first time organising an event like this(: so thanks for everything!
i really enjoyed church today, especially pastor li's sermon on what a good father is all abt. i shant say much here, but basically, there are 3 type of fathers: Lazy, busy, and wise. A wise father will not just point out and complain the shortcomings and mistakes of his children. A wise father will not blame his wife for any problem with the kids. A wise father will take time off to listen to his kiddos. becoz for them to listen to him and obey, he himself must first listen to what they have to say. this is called two way communication! And most imptly, a wise father will tell his children to love God more than anything else ^.^
and im proud to announce that my daddy is typeC, and he has been doing everything the pastor mentioned to be a good father. so to my dear daddy, i'll just like to say, thank you for being an earthly father that is pleasing to God's eyes, and I LOVE YOU!(:
LIFE JUST ROCKKS!!
tranquility ; 6/18/2006 05:52:00 pm.
17.6.06
whoo my day went as planned.! not.
-.- see, the biggest problem was, i decided not to go for that talk. secondly, today is sat, so there wasnt Teen Titans or Totally Spies!! my mistake. so anyway, i ended up with loads of free time, and managed to finish bsp sbq2, qn3. im gonna try and finish the last qn after this.
anyway, ytd i went to sci centre for that stupud Chem SIA report (lynn, you STILL havent sent me the photos and notes!:p) and on the way home, i was on bus 178, and at the first T-junction, i received a call from lynn, and she said, "Hahahaha JENNY, im next to you." I was like, huh, is she invisible or sth? coz there's an empty space next to me. then i figured she might be OUTSIDE the bus, so i turned my head and there she was.
right next to me in another bus!
this is the funniest inident in... dunno how many wks. and yes, i know it's not exactly hilarious, but i needed some slack time, so killing time here. anyway, someone's finally talkin to me on msn le. signing out now... byebye!
tranquility ; 6/17/2006 10:06:00 pm.
16.6.06
i can feel it... oh yes... that dark feeling that brings me gloom and despair... the feeling... of
school reopening. blehhhharrrhhh!! im almost startin to miss holidays already. i cant believe i've wasted 2 wks of it. it's like it never even started. everyday i get up around lunch time, mooch around the house till after lunch, then get started on work... except, i cant really rmb what i do everyday. it's as though the amt of work done does not equate to the amt of time i have. it's as though my time is falling short, somehow.
ohh i know. it must be the
time robber. gosh. i never though he existed. hmm... maybe i shld start makin a daily work plan for the last wk of holiday. yes. dats what i'll do. ok, let's start with tmr's plan:
=>Sleep at 11pm(tonight)
=>Wake up at 9am(latest)
=>Breakfast and slackin till 9.30am
=>Finish bsp source based test 2 (qn3) by 11am.
=>Watch Teen Titans and Totally Spies till 12am (^0^ cartoons with action heroes and magic are like incredibly fab in my world), have lunch meanwhile.
=>Finish bsp source based test 2 (qn4) by 1pm.
=>Attend talk at Suntec from 2pm-5pm(it's a talk related to pop culture and youths).
=>Shower, Dinner, slack time, till 7pm.
=>Cont with bsp sbq if not finished
=>8pm, work on Chem SIA report
=>After that, slack, blog, surf, and enjoy!(:
=>Lights out, 11pn
There! Looks good =) hopefully i'll stick to it. anyway, i have exciting news to announce!! okok, thing is, dad gave me another Talk last night, abt my interest and future career. i thought i told him im only interested in humanities and want to have nth to do with sci or maths. but apparently thats not enough for him, he wants me to have a specific area of interest, not just casual interest in those "fringe activities", as he calls it. like singing, dancing, writing etc etc.
so i went online to search for universities in sydney (im determined to go sydney becoz i promisede my friend in China that i'll see her there 2 yrs from now, when we both graduate from JC), and i found the website of UNSW.
it's wayy cool ok. after a long search based on area of interest and area of specialisation, i finally narrowed down my choices of courses fo these few: Media Arts (Digi Media, Photomedia, Timed-based art) and Media Communications (which include Media, Film, Theatre/ Music and Music Education).
And im SO excited!! omg. u wont believe this. UNSW allows students takin the Media and Communications course to learn and do productions in REAL ACTUAL STUDIOS. as in, real studios, like in radio stations, movie productions etc etc. thats SUCH a BIG attraction for me. i mean, whoa, seriously, i've dreamt of touching that fancy board with gazillion of buttons that DJs always mess around with. it's just so cool. and i'll get to do that in UNSW!!
consider me there already, friends! i can just see myself there, makin productions for assignments and earning credits. im so psyched that im actually inspired to work hard this holiday, startin from finishing my hmwk, then revising thoroughly for my maths quizzes. i repeat, Q-U-I-Z-Z-E-S. with a "S", which means plural. which means im goin to have more than one maths quiz when term3 comes.
but thats ok, i'll work hard for it, and make sure i get an average 8 for all. thats a big leap for me, since i've been failing every single maths quiz since start of the yr :( alright then, ganbatte JENNY!!
tranquility ; 6/16/2006 05:00:00 pm.
13.6.06
after a wk of home quarantine, i finally went out with jamie, sixuan and minnie to watch CARS. whoo it was awesome, as haowen said.
KA-CHOW!! it was dead funny. the show i mean. and touching as well. i cant believe i nearly gave it a miss becoz i had misconceptions abt it. it just goes to show you never know until you try. so anyway, sixuan and minnie were
late as usual. even though they live so near to J8. bahh.! hah yea so we ended up buying the 16.10 show tix, which was the original plan, but i thot watchin the 15.40 show would be better coz it'll end earlier. but no, coz sixuan needed time to buy "
popcorns popcorns, my popcorns!". haha! so yea, we bought the tix and headed to a gift shop to buy her friend stephanie a prezzie. then, finally realising we're running out of time, we headed to the neoprint shop. nth much happened there, except the two gorillas next to me and jamie were makin a hell lot of noise >.<
then when we were decorating the pics, sixuan was reminded once again of her
popcorns. so she was like MY POPCORNS MY POPCORNS! OMG IS THERE TIME FOR MY POPCORNS!!? T_TI swear sixuan is the craziest girl i know. tied in place with her darrling cousin minnie. hahas so me and sixuan headed over to the popcorn counter while minnie and jamie continued decorating. we waited at the empty counter for a pretty long time until someone finally came to take orders. sixuan bought this combo with the cow container, and she was like saying she loves cows. and then we talked abt Ma Mi Moo. ohh and did you know that show is a jap show? apparently so, coz the title of the show, MA MI MOO, is actually the first 3 syllabus of the jap language or sth. sixuan shld know, coz she learns jap.
so anyway, we went back to the neoprint shop, and waddaya know... the neos were only just printing. they came out of the slot, jamie grabbed them, and we whooshed to the entrance of the cinema.
the tickets, the tickets!! sixuan was screaming in hysteria.
here, here!! i screamed back, yanking out the tickets from my bag.
together, we scrambled down the stairs, and guess wad, i forgot to gave the tickets. so the lady was like, excuse me, where are your tickets? -_____-" we must've looked like a bunch of messy-haired idiots tryin to sneak into the cinema. but hello, it's not like i forgot to give! the lady just stood there when i passed and she didnt ask for any tickets, so i thot they'll be collecting the tix only when we reach the entrance of the hall. anyway.
yea the movie was good. and the two gorillas from the neoprint shop must've sneaked in with me and jamie, coz throughout the show they were chortling with laughter and screaming when Frankie the monster machine was chasing Lightning in the tractor field. honestly, our area in the threatre had gone haywire then @_@
oh well. jamie and i had to rush home after the movie coz i forgot to tell daddy we'll be goin out and returning for dinner. on bus 156, i slept all the way and told jamie to wake me up when we reach KAP. but of coz, 156 doesnt reach there, stupid. so i was woken up in sixth avenue, and we were like panicking for a split second, and i was like complaining and whining to nobody coz i just woke up.
we took bus 171 back home and we had to stand coz too many ppl. hahaha jamie was so funny larr. she was so desperate to get a seat, she was practically racing with some other random ppl to get to empty seats first. like, first someone gets up to leave, then you can see two or three ppl pushing their way past other passengers to get to the seat. jamie's face was like bloated with determination, but i pulled her back and told her nvm. if singaporeans have no sympathy to give a seat to a thriteen yr old, then no point vying with them for the seat. anyway, thanks jamie, i know you wanted to fight for that seat so i can sit down and sleep ^0^
so we stood all the way, and i noticed this causasian mother and her ten or eleven yr old son. she was telling him abt wad his form tchr said abt him not reading enough. and she was patiently analysing what he shld do and what he's doin wrong currently. and then she went on to tell him one of his classmates, Sheila, complimented him on his fabulous tennis skills. he looked really pleased and said proudly, "Ohh
that time! I wasnt even playin my best then. I was just like pow, pow, pow..."
then they talked abt marriage! like, whoa, singaporean parents wld just tell their kids, "You'll understand when you grow up." But no, this caucasian mum was like telling his son if she had married another man, he wouldnt be here and stuff. and then they dsicussed a rather philosophical qn abt marriage (couldnt hear what they were sayin at that point of time). and though the mum was visibly tired, coz she yawned and stuff, but she kept engaging her son in interesting topics, and he was really eager to talk abt things.
i thot this is really good for mum and son, coz this is called communication, and the son becomes more confident and thinks more through these talks with a grown up. maybe thats the difference between western countries and singapore? maybe thats why we're not creative enough? coz since young, we have been "shut up" by our parents, becoz they were too busy to talk, too tired to communicate with us, and any question we ask will have the same answer, "You'll know when you grow up."
Yeah, we do find out eventually, but not through parents, but through friends and the Internet, which is not the most reliable source of information. and they're complaining abt youths havin wrong moral values and screwing around? who were the ones who didnt curb the prob when they had a chance?
well, i think im lucky that my parents still listen to me when i have sth to say, and they're startin to give me advice on how my future bf shld be like. he shld be hardworking, equal IQ and EQ, good with housework, enjoy sports (not neccessarily good at them), understand the meaning of communication... blah blah blah.
in short, someone like my dad -.-"
hahaha! but honestly, i think my mum found herself a good catch. and vice versa. both of them were pretty popular in school in those days. so mum's been tryin to nurture me into a traditional girl, good at housework and organised around the hse. and dad's been training me to be independent and hardworking. to them, these are strong virtues that a girl shld have. ahh well. i think i forgot to mention to them that such a "virtuous" girl by their standards are not very much appreciated in the modern society. guys are lookin out for hot and chic babes who know how to have fun and take life easy. of coz, eventually, the guys still end up hooking up with a decent girl for life, but when's that? when they're old and working? thirty? forty?
but still, i believe in my parents, and i will train myself to be what they would think a girl shld be like. i dont care if the modern society doesnt appreciate traditions and culture. i have friends who can be considered as virtuous by modern standards, and i have seen them being thrown around by guys becoz they're not hot/glam/popular enough or sth.
they stink! the guys, i mean. i think that if a guy doesnt recognise how precious a "virtuous girl" is, then he's not a guy worth loving. my lovely girl frens, im proud to have you as my frens, becoz all of you hold the traditional values and morals that a girl shld have, and for that, i raise my glass of admiration to you.
CHEERS!
tranquility ; 6/13/2006 10:20:00 am.
9.6.06
Heyy look what i came across in blogthings(: this will help me in deciding what career i shld major in! oh and i did a couple more fun quizzes out of boredom ^-^
Your Scholastic Strength Is Inspiring Others |
You are great at developing a vision, and getting others to adopt your way of thinking.
You are talented at leading, balancing tasks, and helping people work together.
You should major in:
Counseling
Environmental studies
Law
Social work
Political science
Nursing |
Wahhaah this is funny!! lynn, u shld try this quiz. u love rings. i see them on your msn dp all the time! :D
| Your Dream Engagement Ring Has a Heart Diamond! |
You wear your heart on your sleeve, so of course you should also wear it on your ring.
A heart diamond is the perfect choice for highlighting your passionate disposition.
Only a true romantic can get away with wearing this ring. Luckily, that's you.
And only a true romantic can give you this ring, so make sure you find him...! |
Oooh yes, quite true. hmm but i wouldnt call myself choosy. more like, careful. and besides, there arent a lot of great guys in Singapore (sorry, no offence to anyone).
| Men See You As Choosy |
Men notice you light years before you notice them
You take a selective approach to dating, and you can afford to be picky
You aren't looking for a quick flirt - but a memorable encounter
It may take men a while to ask you out, but it's worth the wait |
Gosh. am i really? thats funny. coz in class, i hear ppl sayin im childish nearly all the time! heh(: guess i behave differently from how i think. and those ppl who say im kiddish dont know me well enough. anyway, all in the name of fun!
| You Are A Woman! |
Congratulations, you've made it to adulthood.
You're emotionally mature, responsible, and unlikely to act out.
You accept that life is hard - and do your best to keep things upbeat.
This makes you the perfect girlfriend... or even wife! |
Oh this must be the best quiz ever. haha. i tried jamie's name, and she's the 1970s hippie chick. and joyce is the 1950s DOLL!! HA. so hilarious.
| Your Inner Retro Girl Is |
1950s Domestic Diva |
OMG. yesyesyes. craps. jap n korean guys are so fab. i swear im seriously havin an overdose of kdramas and jap singers. arrhh curse this pop culture! but seriously, they're cute ppl(:
| You Should Date A Japanese Guy! |
You're an interesting blend of traditonal and modern
And a Japanese guy is likely to be on your wavelength
Maybe you'll show your love by dying your hair the same color
Or get married in a traditional white kimono! |
im not? u kiddin me? hmm yea, probably not. i mean, i think of doin crazy things, but most of the time i either lack courage to do it or my head gets in the way of my heart.
| You are No Drama Mama! |
No need for drama, you just chill out and don't let things bother you
You've got a peaceful, zen-like attitude... even when things get crazy
You're a pleasure to be around, and you have lots of friends to show for it
You don't need to be the center of attention, you're happy enough as is! |
tranquility ; 6/09/2006 02:40:00 pm.
8.6.06
ohh this is the most fab show EVER! *swoons* plsplspls. for those who are super free now in the june holidays, catch this show on channel U, every wkday, 7-8pm. if you love an unusual plot with beautiful setting and romantic characters, this is the show to watch!!
i cant comment much on the technical part, but it's basically abt music and a promise and a lie from a girl's childhood (the girl in the pic). and it's such an agonising yet beautiful story, if you can overlook all the minor irritating parts which i shan't comment here ;)
so anyway. im really happy abt one thing: i realise im becoming a more secure person. or perhaps more confident. i dont know. i just feel better abt who i am. like, for instance, i used to hate my christian name. seriously. i thought it was plain and common. like, puh-lease. JENNY. bleh. but now. omg. im not sayin im narcisstic and in love with myself or wadeva. im just startin to accept myself the way i look, talk, behave, think, and even starting to overlook the faults of others. am i
starting to be more christ-like? is this the doing of God? im quite sure it is. coz i've prayed abt becoming more sure abt myself and becoming more christ-like ever since... ever since i knew there was such a thing as "becoming more christ-like".
so anyway. i know probably a lot of ppl think im very confident before. but actually, that wasn't confidence. it was just bossiness with a loud voice. i figured out after many mths of observations and reflecting that ppl who usually talk and laugh super loud, talkin abt random stuffs and seem so bouncy and cheerful abt life
all the time, are the ones who really lack self confidence and inner security. they laugh off the bad things in life, they talk loudly and drown themselves in their social lives. it's their way of escaping reality, to escape the confrontation of their conscience, their "inner voice". these ppl cant bear to be by themselves, coz they dont want to think abt too many things, they're afraid. they cant sleep at night in total silence, without music. so point is, i was almost like that in the past. i call it "confidence on the surface", not true inner confidence.
a truly confident person will not showcase her confidence 24/7. she will cry sometimes, break down, and complain abt life. in other words, she will appear weak at times. but impt thing, she is able to pick herself up and continue with life. that's true confidence.
ok im done with that topic. in a nutshell, im just starting to know myself(:
another thing i realised: i seem to have a very naive and perfect idea of love. probably from all that reading and watching. you know, there was a time last yr that it seems as though having a bf is the in-thing. i was kindda depressed at that time, coz of the stupid thinkin that im probably never gd enough for anyone. but this yr, i started to think in a different way. i start to think that God has already arranged someone for me, whom i will meet in the future, but not right now. i dont give two hoots abt those showy guys down orchard, or those ego male-bimbos across my sch. becoz there will be someone for me.
im not sure if this thinkin is stupid. becoz there's no such thing as a perfect romance. but i just know, deep down inside, i will be different from those who kiss and hug around then breakup, and those who divorce soon after gettin married.
deep deep deep down inside, i know im going to be happy in future. is this what they call faith in God? perhaps. all i know is, im currently incredibly happy with my life.
so what if im a daddy's girl, spoilt and afraid of venturing into the future on my own? i dont care if ppl say i dont have a mind of my own, always listening to daddy and mummy. i dont care if they think im stupid and naive enough to be cheated. all i know is, i have been blessed by the Lord in every way, with a happy family, good friends (though not many), and a secure (though still foggy) future. this are the promises of Him in my life, and your life too, if you believe in Him.
everyone has his or her own fears. for me, my biggest fear is being left alone to fan for myself. to face the future by myself. the day will come, i know, but with the Lord by my side, everything will be ok. and besides, there's that special someone out there for me, and he'll take care of me if i ever have to live without my family in some foreign place.
that's a very innocent thought, isn't it?
but i like it.
tranquility ; 6/08/2006 09:44:00 pm.
i can already see how the 2nd wk of my hols will end. it will end in lonliness and hectic-ness (if there's such a word) that will be continued in the 3rd wk, and the subsequent wk and till the end of the holiday.
im currently stuck in a rushing-to-finish-up-the-first-wk-of-holidays-hmwk state of mind. every day is pia pia pia from the minute i wake up to well past midnight. ok maybe not really. i do take a break every now and then to watch tv.
... ...
ok fine i confess!! i take A LOT of breaks, ok? probably why i dont accomplish much in a day. but fact here is, i have tons of hmwk. i havent watched a single movie so far!! wad's happened to da vinci, pirates, x-men, over the hedge, and many more?! those were my holiday plans alright, but they're crashing now.
bummer.
ohh yea, d, i know u'll be interested in my results this sem. need a full detailed report here? ahhh... dats a secret. but i can tell you im somewhere average in the level, and i scraped past the Sec4 promotion criteria with an average percentage of 67.65, rounded off to be 68%.
WHOO.
it's not a fantastic achievement, i know. but im just happy to get past 65. haha. im so going to hate that number for life now. it brings me pain, stress, and countless sleepless nights.
anyway, bad news is, i recieved the results of my piano theory grade7 exam. yea. umm. well. i failed, ok? it's kindda hard to take, but i rushed through the syllabus becoz of the change-of-tchr situation which was quite complicated.
my ex-piano tchr was halfway through the syllabus, then i changed piano tchr, and then there simply wasnt enough time to teach, learn, practise, and revise. so my new tchr just did the first step and i did the third. we eliminated two steps of learning. which is WRONG.
kids, dont ever do that. always learn in FOUR STEPS. they never go wrong (:
so anyway, i failed that blasted exam, and im a little panicky now. dad kindda knows, i think. coz parents have this weird freaky way of knowing things. or maybe it's coz i spoke a wincy bit too loud across the dinner table with Jamie.
point is, how do i tell mum? i mean, i was prepared to fail, and she was prepared for it too, and we even wanted to withdraw from the exam. but still. i mean, come
on! i didnt expect it to really happen. i was actually feeling quite good abt the exam when i left the examination room. i could do every single qn, for heavens sake!
oh wells. the question now is: shld i just stop learning piano theory forever and just concentrate on the practical part (since theory is kindda useless at this stage, unless im thinkin of composing melodies, which im a loser at), OR register for next yr's theory exam and hope to do better (catch here is, the registration fee will be v.expensive, even more than this yr).
having a headache over this. and i still have to tell my tchr sooner or later. gosh what will he say? hmm. probably nth much. im not his brightest student anyway.
ohhohh. i just realised today that Hammie is like a LIZARD. really. she's so scrawny and... slithery. i was just holding her in my hands and she was like whooshing and scuttling here and then, and it struck me how she's like only a sack of bones and thin fur. hmm. i wonder if im under-feeding her. jamie would think so. gosh but i still love that little thing. i just keep
forgetting to change her food and water. i hope she doesnt die young. she's still got at least two more yrs to go.
oh right. one more exciting thing (the only exciting thing, in fact)! im officially opening a drawing competition for the characters in my eng and (upcoming) chi novel ^0^ interested friends can leave a msg on the taggie to inform me, and i'll lend you the book (if u havent read it) or describe to you how i want the characters to be like (this is for my chi one).
see, thing is, im intending to set up a blog that will help to market and publicise "The Magicator". it'll be like, a Jessie's Diary thing (she's the main character in my bk), and then there'll be an aunt agony column and ppl can actually write to Jessie abt probs and she'll reply. on the blog. there'll be a lot of other fun stuffs like polls and games. speaking of which, i need more ideas for this blog, and im recruiting ppl to join the committee to help me maintain and design the blog. it's just goin to be a humble attempt to popularise my bk, and im counting alot on friends to help me (:
now im really starting to understand the sayin... SO MUCH TO DO,
SO LITTLE TIME!
tranquility ; 6/08/2006 12:11:00 am.
6.6.06
oh yes im inspired(: im kindda workin on a chi novel now. it's called Pei2 Wo3 Rao4 Quan1 Quan1. abt a girl who went to china 3 times, and the first time she went back was when she was only four, and she met a little beggar boy and she gave him a lolly out of kindness. subsequently, every visit back to China brought her to that boy, except they dont recognise each other.
eventually she became part of a girls band that was competing for a record deal. upon her request, they went to china to find 2 potential hairstylists to be trained and sign contract with the record company so that they will always be in charge of styling the singers from this company. not surprisingly, one of them hair stylist is the beggar boy, and she finally realises.
sad thing is, this boy has grown up into a bad boy, and he does a lot of things outside. the girl tried everything to change him, and eventually nearly lost her life. after that did the boy understand.
BUT. waha this is the fun part. the girl found out right at the end that the real beggar boy was actually the other hair stylist, who has been keepin her company through the storms and giving her support while she battled and fought for the "fake" beggar boy ^.^
dats why the title is called Pei Wo Rao Quan Quan, it means Walk With Me In The Circle (of Love) in eng. and i think the plot is kindda strange but fun, coz it's a case of mistaken identity which ended up bringing a wayward boy back onto the path of righteousness! but of coz, eventually, the girl got together with the real beggar boy.
ahhh...
ok give me encouragement, ppl! im goin to finish this novel coz i think this plot is worth writing!
anywayy, got lots of holiday homework to finish up. wish me luck for that too!
tranquility ; 6/06/2006 03:46:00 pm.
5.6.06
my sincere apologies to those who have been waiting and wanting to see the pics from my china trip (or maybe no one is really waiting and wanting :p). my mum is still in china with joyce, and the cam is with her. so we'll all have to wait till 20th june to see the pics ^.^ they shld be quite lovely. especially the night sights at Wai Tan in Shanghai.
hmm... why not i amuse you first with a little encounter i had in wuxi? yes, i think i shall do that. it's an interesting experience, one that i will not care to have again. and if i ever see those ppl again, i will slap them so hard they fly to mexico (actually i dont have that courage ^0^ but im just using this to show how angry i am with them).
so, who is "them"?
"them" are the hair stylists in a salon in wuxi. me, jamei and joyce were walkin out of a shop in Nan Chan Si called Kawaii, when this boy approached us. he was dressed v.hiphoppishly and although obviously older than me, i'll still call him a boy.
he was promoting this salon that he worked for, and apparently, they are having a promotion period, offering a haircut at RMB30, which is S$6. i thot it was pretty good, and it so happens me and jamie both needed a haircut. so when he offered to give us a tour of the super high tech lookin shop, i agreed and we went in.
Mistake No.1.As we went in, we chatted and i revealed we were from Singapore on vacation.
Mistake No.2. (PRCs have this thing with foreigners apparently. they are what they call the "big fishes". you know. ppl with lots of money. which is, unfortunately, not true in my case becoz i left the hotel that day with onlt RMB300.)We were greeted warmly by the other hair stylists with all sorts of coloured hair and crazy hairstyles. this was a sign that this isnt a decent shop, but i decided to trust them and not judge a book by its cover and a shop by its people.
Mistake No.3. (my wuxi fren told me afterwards that young boys in coloured hair and crazy styles is a first sign that the shop is not decent -.-)Anyway, we were led to the second storey, which was quite empty, and told to sit down first and have a drink. we were all thirsty at that time and gladly took a seat.
Mistake No.4. (
in china, when they tell you to "sit down first and have a drink", it's an excuse to keep you in the shop for as long as possible so they can brainwash you into giving them business by pumping you with highly technical and professional sounding talks that are actually just a load of bull wind. But being innocent me, i took a seat and had a cup of water. before i knew it, a stylist was standing behind me and analysing my face shape and telling me which haircut would suit me better. whoo. putting aside all hatred and bad experience, he was one good lookin guy. honestly, i nearly choked on my water. he could be a movie star~!
bleh. too bad he turned out to be such a dirty flirt and not half as honest as an average conman. anyway, back to the story...
so he told me how he could improve my hair style and then asked if me and my sister would like to wash our hair. you know, with professional TLC. i thot it would be funny to give it a try, coz i thot a hairwash would cost RMB30 max. so we went for it.
Mistake No.5. (it's like fish and bait situation, except that i dont know it. they just kept leading me one step further and further, until i no longer know whether i wanted this in the first place and who started all these.)Good news is, i didn't make any more mistakes after that.
Coz there simply was no turning back.
I had sunk too deep into their little plot. And by the end of 4hrs in their rotten stinkin salon, i had choked up a debt of RMB1000+.
it's not like i wanted to. i swear i had no intention to do my hair. and to hell with a new hairstyle and new look. my hair looks exactly the same as before, except it's now filthy with rubbish chemicals that cost a bomb, and R-E-B-O-N-D-E-D. (hmm is there a spelling error?).
whoo.
after all those talks and styling.
gosh i was expecting something more glam n unexpected than THIS.
i mean, it's not bad lookin, but i got cheated alright.
so, i committed the 5 mistakes that no one shld EVER commit in china, and ended up paying a fortune for it. but good thing is, dad ganged up with his millionaire fren in wuxi and they forced the boss of the salon to cough up most of the money we paid, until we only had to pay RMB400 = S$80.
still alot. but what to do. my fault.
dad says im naive but he's just too kind to say im stupid. mum says i dont know how to reject ppl, so i got pushed around in the shop.
worse thing was, i had to cancel my appointment with my wuxi fren that aftnn due to that 4hrs hair treatment that stinks to high heavens. and i didn't get to meet my fren AT ALL for those 2 days i stayed in wuxi.
you can see why i hate those hooligans now. oh yea, and that suave hair stylist? he wanted my number but i didnt give him due to prior experience with bad boys. thats perhaps the only good thing i did. so he gave me his, and i was supposed to call him when i get back to Singapore.
AS IF.
i deleted your stupid number, you big fat liar from hell.
take that!!
*throws shoe*
so, to all my lovely innocent frens out there, i know many of you wouldn't make the same mistakes as me, but just take note from my experience.
DO NOT get involved with such ppl in china.
And ALWAYS judge a book by its cover and a shop by its people, in china.
Have a nice day! (:
tranquility ; 6/05/2006 10:03:00 am.
26.6.06
new link, new look, new identity!! (i've yet to have time to work on that new look, but anyway...)from now on i'll be known as the blur, childish, cheer bear wannbe bio rep ^-^ doesnt that just sound absolutely exciting? wheeps. i think care bears is such a good idea, whoever produced these furry friends is a genius. if you go take a look at the website, it's really fantastic and teaches all the good values a kid shld know and have.
amazingly, and believe it or not, every one of us actually fit into one of those care bears in one way or another. i chose cheer bear, of course, coz i feel like all the other bears have a lot of responsibilities, like giving out wishes (Wish Bear), winning every sports game (Champ Bear) yadda yadda ya. so cheer bear is like the hippiest one i can agree on. besides, being cheerful is GOOD.
though care bears seem childish, but they carry and represent the goodness in this world, and people usually only ignore and shun things that reflect the ugliness in them right? so if we're not evil or totally hateful, why then shld we discriminate care bears just because they are cartoon characters? instead, shldnt we pay attention to the qualities of these cartoon characters and ask ourselves what goodness and precious values have we lost on the journey of growing up?
it's no longer a matter of childishness or not, but a matter of admittance and acceptance that we are no longer as perfect and beautiful as how God first created us to be, and the willingness to be reminded once again of how we shld behave and to change.
oh, to prove my point that everyone can be a care bear in reality, i have made a list of my friends and the corresponding care bear:
Bashful Heart Bear==> Pending
Bedtime Bear==> Pending
Champ Bear==> Uhh, michelle? except she's a girl(:
Cheer Bear==> Me
Daydream Bear ==> Lots of ppl, but a classic example might be jasmine?? :P
Do-Your-Best Bear==> Pending
Friend Bear==> Coco
Funshine Bear==> The Cousins, sixuan and minnie!!
Good Luck Bear==> Pending
Grumpy Bear==> Pending
Harmony Bear==> oh sinyee definitely
Laugh-A-Lot Bear==> Pamela!
Love-A-Lot Bear==> Lynn Ong
Secret Bear==> Everyone can keep a secret if they try, but i'll trust danxun the most to keep a secret.
Share Bear==> Dingjia my table partner. she's always sharing her sarcasm with me.
Surprise Bear==> Pending
Tenderheart Bear==> Pending
Trueheart Bear==> Lynn Ong again. honestly, i dont think i'll ever meet another person like this one here.
Wish Bear==> Lynn Ong. she once told me that her dream is not being a ____ but helping me achieve my dream of being a ____ is her dream. i'll always rmb that.
*DISCLAIMER*:If for any reason your name is not on the list, it does not mean Cheer Bear has forgotten you. The names here were randomly thought of, and does not reflect any preference of friends on Cheer Bear's part. Finally, this is a mere fun exercise and shld not be taken seriously. For more fun and quirky info abt each care bear, visit
http://www.care-bears.com/CareBears/html/about/index.htmlBe a Bear. Be a Friend.
tranquility ; 6/26/2006 06:04:00 pm.
22.6.06
im here to comment on the results of the latest courtesy survey conducted worldwide. abt 21 countries were surveyed i think, and guess wad singapore, we're the 5th most courteous country!!
from the back.
em. hello?? say please and thank you much, ppl?? like, wad the... how could we have gotten so low?! but then again, im not surprised, considering how many (or little) times i have seen ppl return lost wallets. yea, that was one of the judging criterias.
see, these survey ppl are really cute. they throw out a few dozen wallets out into the four corners of a country, and wait for a fixed period of time to see how many wallets return to them. smart right? except we're not smart enough to see through this joke and actually return the wallets.
another criteria is, they send ppl out onto the streets, and these ppl will be carrying a mountain of papers. then they'll purposefully spill them on the pavement, and go "oh, oh, oh! my papers! someone help me!". and of course, the catch is to see how many passerbys actually stop to help. and once again, we're not smart enough to understand the situation.
last judging criteria is whether shop assistants say thank you to ppl who patronise the shops. excuse me, isnt that basic service courtesy? do we need a survey result to tell us we have been doin poorly in this area?
gosh. obviously yes, because we ended up the bottom few. and who came in first? NEW YORK. (shldnt u be happy now, d?). oh wow. the most chaotic, most complicated, most under terrorist attack city is actually the most courteous place in the world!
whoo! i am just SO surprised. pls. what good issit being the Garden City? what use issit having the Most Beautiful Airport? what use is all these when we dont even know the basic courtesy of being a human??!
honestly, singapore. pls. just wakie wakie. stop being so stuck up and think u're the top of the world. u shld take a step outside every now and then to take a look at the outside world. u're kindda like a frog at the bottom of the well (literally translated from a chinese saying >.<)
anywayy. i was suprised that s.korea is one position behind us, though. i mean, check out the kdramas and their music scene. it's wayy happening k. u wouldnt believe the ppl there are even less courteous than us! and pls, ppl like rain? gosh, they present to us such a good image of korea, but the survey ruined everything. *stupid survey! blarhh!*
sigh... anyway, i believe there are still good and courteous singaporeans around here. and i'll choose to believe the survey ppl chose a bad time to conduct a survey, and happened to pick on the wrong sort of ppl, or maybe they went to the wrong places. u know, like, if you went to orchard road or sth, ppl wont give two hoots abt you and your papers, coz they'll be going "WHOO THE GREAT SINGAPORE SALE~!!".
so yea, survey ppl pls take note. ur results are NOT accurate. i mean, come on, if you tested the survey on my class, gosh, we'll SCORE im telling you.
FOUR-OH-SIX rules yea.
well, anyway, the results have been published, and we singaporeans are at shame now. but no fear, my fellow city mates, we'll just rmb our Ps and Qs from now on.
end of story.
good night.
tranquility ; 6/22/2006 11:23:00 pm.
21.6.06
computer is under virus attack. kindda sian with all these pop-ups already. sch reopening soon, trying to pia finish all my hmwk. and it seems like nearly the whole class is working on their maths, takin up tuition for that and revising like siao. i cant believe it. am i the only one not doin any work?? oh but im pleased to announce i have finished all bsp work, so im officially workin on all my projects now.hopefully can finish by weekends, then i can work on my upcoming math quizzes. (this is my shortest post EVER.)
tranquility ; 6/21/2006 08:48:00 pm.
18.6.06
went for yf outing today. was quite fun, especially on the bus. we laughed like nobody's business and talked abt EVERYTHING under the sun(: honestly, i used to be like really lonely on the bus when travelling in large grps, but today i felt so LOVED and ACCEPTED ^0^ ok im behaving like someone who seriously lacks security and has zero self confidence, but im really sick of being left alone in one corner. so im really thankful to the girls who chatted with me on the bus. ohh, but im worried we might have left some ppl out, it always happens! :(
anyway, when we arrived at east coast park, it was V.LATE ok. like, around 1pm? and we left the church at 12am.? so after lunch and all that dilly dally, we finally rented bikes and blades at around 1.30pm. it was darn expensive lah, the blades. $10 per hr. with NO CASHBACK. and the other rental shop rents blades at $6 for 2hrs!! but we didnt know that until after the outing ended. so anyway, me, coco and jamie went blading, tryin to catch up with minnie and gang, who were cycling as though they had never been free. they were FAST lar. ok, maybe we were slow. but point is, becoz we went slow, we actually spotted this filming crew filming for the next episode of Hey Hey Taxi~~ and we saw kim (zhong qing), that superhost guy, and CHEN XI from star idol. he's just as cute in person as on tv ^^) (and according to my fren, when we were eating at Mac, belinda and li teng were just outside, filming for the same show too! but i missed them. booo.)
so then we continued blading (me and jamie reluctantly. coco wasnt the slightest excited, coz she has met such high profile ppl before. lucky her!), and we were quite miffed when those pros kept whizzing past us on their blades, and they were so fast you can literally hear the
whoosh whoosh sound of the wheels. i tried to console myself by adding my own sound effects, so i said "whooshhhh... whooosh!!" while the pros disappeared into the distance -__________- and guess wad. just as we reached the jetty, it started drizzling, and omg, it was drama larr.
when i looked out at the sea, i could see all those big ships super clearly, budden somewhere ahead of us, the open sea was blurry and misty, like a huge thunderstorm was approaching. and true enough, it started drizzling, and everyone was like, wahhhhh!!! go back go back!!! best thing is, the sun was still shining and everything. eewww. rain in the sun. not my idea of a fab outing. so the three of us tried to race against the rain, coz it was catching up on us. but coco's feet started to hurt, so we stopped so she could take off her blades and she ran barefooted all the way back while we skated. three woots for coco!! i was commenting that she looked like some lady in damsel, heart broken and running in the rain. then i started narrating a storyline for an MV.
"she was broken hearted and tears poured down her face as it rained. then, she fell to the ground. too tired to continue running, she sat there and cried. suddenly, an umbrella appeared over her head and she looked up to see..."
"wahh jenny u're very imaginative hor."
heh. -.-" yea i got kindda carried away, but honestly, coco looked like she was shooting a MV or sth, running in the rain, carrying her blades. hah! anywayyyy... i shant comment further on wad happened the rest of the day, coz THE RAIN RUINED EVERYTHING. it ruined my spirits, it ruined my happy outing, and it wasted the money i paid for the blades. coz we couldnt continue skating. i was in such a sucky mood that i think everyone got the impression i had just gone for the most crummy outing EVER. but nonono. thats not true. i had fun on the bus, and meeting the celebs was incredible. oh, and of coz, chatting with coco abt her dreams and life was really inspiring and my fav kind of interaction ^-^ apparently, we are experiencing the same kindda of probs in life and facing the same career crisis (havin dreams but unable to pursue them).
so minnie, i just wanna say once again, that im sry if i appeared ratty and sian when yf parted. the outing WASNT a flop k. it was really good considering it's your first time organising an event like this(: so thanks for everything!
i really enjoyed church today, especially pastor li's sermon on what a good father is all abt. i shant say much here, but basically, there are 3 type of fathers: Lazy, busy, and wise. A wise father will not just point out and complain the shortcomings and mistakes of his children. A wise father will not blame his wife for any problem with the kids. A wise father will take time off to listen to his kiddos. becoz for them to listen to him and obey, he himself must first listen to what they have to say. this is called two way communication! And most imptly, a wise father will tell his children to love God more than anything else ^.^
and im proud to announce that my daddy is typeC, and he has been doing everything the pastor mentioned to be a good father. so to my dear daddy, i'll just like to say, thank you for being an earthly father that is pleasing to God's eyes, and I LOVE YOU!(:
LIFE JUST ROCKKS!!
tranquility ; 6/18/2006 05:52:00 pm.
17.6.06
whoo my day went as planned.! not.
-.- see, the biggest problem was, i decided not to go for that talk. secondly, today is sat, so there wasnt Teen Titans or Totally Spies!! my mistake. so anyway, i ended up with loads of free time, and managed to finish bsp sbq2, qn3. im gonna try and finish the last qn after this.
anyway, ytd i went to sci centre for that stupud Chem SIA report (lynn, you STILL havent sent me the photos and notes!:p) and on the way home, i was on bus 178, and at the first T-junction, i received a call from lynn, and she said, "Hahahaha JENNY, im next to you." I was like, huh, is she invisible or sth? coz there's an empty space next to me. then i figured she might be OUTSIDE the bus, so i turned my head and there she was.
right next to me in another bus!
this is the funniest inident in... dunno how many wks. and yes, i know it's not exactly hilarious, but i needed some slack time, so killing time here. anyway, someone's finally talkin to me on msn le. signing out now... byebye!
tranquility ; 6/17/2006 10:06:00 pm.
16.6.06
i can feel it... oh yes... that dark feeling that brings me gloom and despair... the feeling... of
school reopening. blehhhharrrhhh!! im almost startin to miss holidays already. i cant believe i've wasted 2 wks of it. it's like it never even started. everyday i get up around lunch time, mooch around the house till after lunch, then get started on work... except, i cant really rmb what i do everyday. it's as though the amt of work done does not equate to the amt of time i have. it's as though my time is falling short, somehow.
ohh i know. it must be the
time robber. gosh. i never though he existed. hmm... maybe i shld start makin a daily work plan for the last wk of holiday. yes. dats what i'll do. ok, let's start with tmr's plan:
=>Sleep at 11pm(tonight)
=>Wake up at 9am(latest)
=>Breakfast and slackin till 9.30am
=>Finish bsp source based test 2 (qn3) by 11am.
=>Watch Teen Titans and Totally Spies till 12am (^0^ cartoons with action heroes and magic are like incredibly fab in my world), have lunch meanwhile.
=>Finish bsp source based test 2 (qn4) by 1pm.
=>Attend talk at Suntec from 2pm-5pm(it's a talk related to pop culture and youths).
=>Shower, Dinner, slack time, till 7pm.
=>Cont with bsp sbq if not finished
=>8pm, work on Chem SIA report
=>After that, slack, blog, surf, and enjoy!(:
=>Lights out, 11pn
There! Looks good =) hopefully i'll stick to it. anyway, i have exciting news to announce!! okok, thing is, dad gave me another Talk last night, abt my interest and future career. i thought i told him im only interested in humanities and want to have nth to do with sci or maths. but apparently thats not enough for him, he wants me to have a specific area of interest, not just casual interest in those "fringe activities", as he calls it. like singing, dancing, writing etc etc.
so i went online to search for universities in sydney (im determined to go sydney becoz i promisede my friend in China that i'll see her there 2 yrs from now, when we both graduate from JC), and i found the website of UNSW.
it's wayy cool ok. after a long search based on area of interest and area of specialisation, i finally narrowed down my choices of courses fo these few: Media Arts (Digi Media, Photomedia, Timed-based art) and Media Communications (which include Media, Film, Theatre/ Music and Music Education).
And im SO excited!! omg. u wont believe this. UNSW allows students takin the Media and Communications course to learn and do productions in REAL ACTUAL STUDIOS. as in, real studios, like in radio stations, movie productions etc etc. thats SUCH a BIG attraction for me. i mean, whoa, seriously, i've dreamt of touching that fancy board with gazillion of buttons that DJs always mess around with. it's just so cool. and i'll get to do that in UNSW!!
consider me there already, friends! i can just see myself there, makin productions for assignments and earning credits. im so psyched that im actually inspired to work hard this holiday, startin from finishing my hmwk, then revising thoroughly for my maths quizzes. i repeat, Q-U-I-Z-Z-E-S. with a "S", which means plural. which means im goin to have more than one maths quiz when term3 comes.
but thats ok, i'll work hard for it, and make sure i get an average 8 for all. thats a big leap for me, since i've been failing every single maths quiz since start of the yr :( alright then, ganbatte JENNY!!
tranquility ; 6/16/2006 05:00:00 pm.
13.6.06
after a wk of home quarantine, i finally went out with jamie, sixuan and minnie to watch CARS. whoo it was awesome, as haowen said.
KA-CHOW!! it was dead funny. the show i mean. and touching as well. i cant believe i nearly gave it a miss becoz i had misconceptions abt it. it just goes to show you never know until you try. so anyway, sixuan and minnie were
late as usual. even though they live so near to J8. bahh.! hah yea so we ended up buying the 16.10 show tix, which was the original plan, but i thot watchin the 15.40 show would be better coz it'll end earlier. but no, coz sixuan needed time to buy "
popcorns popcorns, my popcorns!". haha! so yea, we bought the tix and headed to a gift shop to buy her friend stephanie a prezzie. then, finally realising we're running out of time, we headed to the neoprint shop. nth much happened there, except the two gorillas next to me and jamie were makin a hell lot of noise >.<
then when we were decorating the pics, sixuan was reminded once again of her
popcorns. so she was like MY POPCORNS MY POPCORNS! OMG IS THERE TIME FOR MY POPCORNS!!? T_TI swear sixuan is the craziest girl i know. tied in place with her darrling cousin minnie. hahas so me and sixuan headed over to the popcorn counter while minnie and jamie continued decorating. we waited at the empty counter for a pretty long time until someone finally came to take orders. sixuan bought this combo with the cow container, and she was like saying she loves cows. and then we talked abt Ma Mi Moo. ohh and did you know that show is a jap show? apparently so, coz the title of the show, MA MI MOO, is actually the first 3 syllabus of the jap language or sth. sixuan shld know, coz she learns jap.
so anyway, we went back to the neoprint shop, and waddaya know... the neos were only just printing. they came out of the slot, jamie grabbed them, and we whooshed to the entrance of the cinema.
the tickets, the tickets!! sixuan was screaming in hysteria.
here, here!! i screamed back, yanking out the tickets from my bag.
together, we scrambled down the stairs, and guess wad, i forgot to gave the tickets. so the lady was like, excuse me, where are your tickets? -_____-" we must've looked like a bunch of messy-haired idiots tryin to sneak into the cinema. but hello, it's not like i forgot to give! the lady just stood there when i passed and she didnt ask for any tickets, so i thot they'll be collecting the tix only when we reach the entrance of the hall. anyway.
yea the movie was good. and the two gorillas from the neoprint shop must've sneaked in with me and jamie, coz throughout the show they were chortling with laughter and screaming when Frankie the monster machine was chasing Lightning in the tractor field. honestly, our area in the threatre had gone haywire then @_@
oh well. jamie and i had to rush home after the movie coz i forgot to tell daddy we'll be goin out and returning for dinner. on bus 156, i slept all the way and told jamie to wake me up when we reach KAP. but of coz, 156 doesnt reach there, stupid. so i was woken up in sixth avenue, and we were like panicking for a split second, and i was like complaining and whining to nobody coz i just woke up.
we took bus 171 back home and we had to stand coz too many ppl. hahaha jamie was so funny larr. she was so desperate to get a seat, she was practically racing with some other random ppl to get to empty seats first. like, first someone gets up to leave, then you can see two or three ppl pushing their way past other passengers to get to the seat. jamie's face was like bloated with determination, but i pulled her back and told her nvm. if singaporeans have no sympathy to give a seat to a thriteen yr old, then no point vying with them for the seat. anyway, thanks jamie, i know you wanted to fight for that seat so i can sit down and sleep ^0^
so we stood all the way, and i noticed this causasian mother and her ten or eleven yr old son. she was telling him abt wad his form tchr said abt him not reading enough. and she was patiently analysing what he shld do and what he's doin wrong currently. and then she went on to tell him one of his classmates, Sheila, complimented him on his fabulous tennis skills. he looked really pleased and said proudly, "Ohh
that time! I wasnt even playin my best then. I was just like pow, pow, pow..."
then they talked abt marriage! like, whoa, singaporean parents wld just tell their kids, "You'll understand when you grow up." But no, this caucasian mum was like telling his son if she had married another man, he wouldnt be here and stuff. and then they dsicussed a rather philosophical qn abt marriage (couldnt hear what they were sayin at that point of time). and though the mum was visibly tired, coz she yawned and stuff, but she kept engaging her son in interesting topics, and he was really eager to talk abt things.
i thot this is really good for mum and son, coz this is called communication, and the son becomes more confident and thinks more through these talks with a grown up. maybe thats the difference between western countries and singapore? maybe thats why we're not creative enough? coz since young, we have been "shut up" by our parents, becoz they were too busy to talk, too tired to communicate with us, and any question we ask will have the same answer, "You'll know when you grow up."
Yeah, we do find out eventually, but not through parents, but through friends and the Internet, which is not the most reliable source of information. and they're complaining abt youths havin wrong moral values and screwing around? who were the ones who didnt curb the prob when they had a chance?
well, i think im lucky that my parents still listen to me when i have sth to say, and they're startin to give me advice on how my future bf shld be like. he shld be hardworking, equal IQ and EQ, good with housework, enjoy sports (not neccessarily good at them), understand the meaning of communication... blah blah blah.
in short, someone like my dad -.-"
hahaha! but honestly, i think my mum found herself a good catch. and vice versa. both of them were pretty popular in school in those days. so mum's been tryin to nurture me into a traditional girl, good at housework and organised around the hse. and dad's been training me to be independent and hardworking. to them, these are strong virtues that a girl shld have. ahh well. i think i forgot to mention to them that such a "virtuous" girl by their standards are not very much appreciated in the modern society. guys are lookin out for hot and chic babes who know how to have fun and take life easy. of coz, eventually, the guys still end up hooking up with a decent girl for life, but when's that? when they're old and working? thirty? forty?
but still, i believe in my parents, and i will train myself to be what they would think a girl shld be like. i dont care if the modern society doesnt appreciate traditions and culture. i have friends who can be considered as virtuous by modern standards, and i have seen them being thrown around by guys becoz they're not hot/glam/popular enough or sth.
they stink! the guys, i mean. i think that if a guy doesnt recognise how precious a "virtuous girl" is, then he's not a guy worth loving. my lovely girl frens, im proud to have you as my frens, becoz all of you hold the traditional values and morals that a girl shld have, and for that, i raise my glass of admiration to you.
CHEERS!
tranquility ; 6/13/2006 10:20:00 am.
9.6.06
Heyy look what i came across in blogthings(: this will help me in deciding what career i shld major in! oh and i did a couple more fun quizzes out of boredom ^-^
Your Scholastic Strength Is Inspiring Others |
You are great at developing a vision, and getting others to adopt your way of thinking.
You are talented at leading, balancing tasks, and helping people work together.
You should major in:
Counseling
Environmental studies
Law
Social work
Political science
Nursing |
Wahhaah this is funny!! lynn, u shld try this quiz. u love rings. i see them on your msn dp all the time! :D
| Your Dream Engagement Ring Has a Heart Diamond! |
You wear your heart on your sleeve, so of course you should also wear it on your ring.
A heart diamond is the perfect choice for highlighting your passionate disposition.
Only a true romantic can get away with wearing this ring. Luckily, that's you.
And only a true romantic can give you this ring, so make sure you find him...! |
Oooh yes, quite true. hmm but i wouldnt call myself choosy. more like, careful. and besides, there arent a lot of great guys in Singapore (sorry, no offence to anyone).
| Men See You As Choosy |
Men notice you light years before you notice them
You take a selective approach to dating, and you can afford to be picky
You aren't looking for a quick flirt - but a memorable encounter
It may take men a while to ask you out, but it's worth the wait |
Gosh. am i really? thats funny. coz in class, i hear ppl sayin im childish nearly all the time! heh(: guess i behave differently from how i think. and those ppl who say im kiddish dont know me well enough. anyway, all in the name of fun!
| You Are A Woman! |
Congratulations, you've made it to adulthood.
You're emotionally mature, responsible, and unlikely to act out.
You accept that life is hard - and do your best to keep things upbeat.
This makes you the perfect girlfriend... or even wife! |
Oh this must be the best quiz ever. haha. i tried jamie's name, and she's the 1970s hippie chick. and joyce is the 1950s DOLL!! HA. so hilarious.
| Your Inner Retro Girl Is |
1950s Domestic Diva |
OMG. yesyesyes. craps. jap n korean guys are so fab. i swear im seriously havin an overdose of kdramas and jap singers. arrhh curse this pop culture! but seriously, they're cute ppl(:
| You Should Date A Japanese Guy! |
You're an interesting blend of traditonal and modern
And a Japanese guy is likely to be on your wavelength
Maybe you'll show your love by dying your hair the same color
Or get married in a traditional white kimono! |
im not? u kiddin me? hmm yea, probably not. i mean, i think of doin crazy things, but most of the time i either lack courage to do it or my head gets in the way of my heart.
| You are No Drama Mama! |
No need for drama, you just chill out and don't let things bother you
You've got a peaceful, zen-like attitude... even when things get crazy
You're a pleasure to be around, and you have lots of friends to show for it
You don't need to be the center of attention, you're happy enough as is! |
tranquility ; 6/09/2006 02:40:00 pm.
8.6.06
ohh this is the most fab show EVER! *swoons* plsplspls. for those who are super free now in the june holidays, catch this show on channel U, every wkday, 7-8pm. if you love an unusual plot with beautiful setting and romantic characters, this is the show to watch!!
i cant comment much on the technical part, but it's basically abt music and a promise and a lie from a girl's childhood (the girl in the pic). and it's such an agonising yet beautiful story, if you can overlook all the minor irritating parts which i shan't comment here ;)
so anyway. im really happy abt one thing: i realise im becoming a more secure person. or perhaps more confident. i dont know. i just feel better abt who i am. like, for instance, i used to hate my christian name. seriously. i thought it was plain and common. like, puh-lease. JENNY. bleh. but now. omg. im not sayin im narcisstic and in love with myself or wadeva. im just startin to accept myself the way i look, talk, behave, think, and even starting to overlook the faults of others. am i
starting to be more christ-like? is this the doing of God? im quite sure it is. coz i've prayed abt becoming more sure abt myself and becoming more christ-like ever since... ever since i knew there was such a thing as "becoming more christ-like".
so anyway. i know probably a lot of ppl think im very confident before. but actually, that wasn't confidence. it was just bossiness with a loud voice. i figured out after many mths of observations and reflecting that ppl who usually talk and laugh super loud, talkin abt random stuffs and seem so bouncy and cheerful abt life
all the time, are the ones who really lack self confidence and inner security. they laugh off the bad things in life, they talk loudly and drown themselves in their social lives. it's their way of escaping reality, to escape the confrontation of their conscience, their "inner voice". these ppl cant bear to be by themselves, coz they dont want to think abt too many things, they're afraid. they cant sleep at night in total silence, without music. so point is, i was almost like that in the past. i call it "confidence on the surface", not true inner confidence.
a truly confident person will not showcase her confidence 24/7. she will cry sometimes, break down, and complain abt life. in other words, she will appear weak at times. but impt thing, she is able to pick herself up and continue with life. that's true confidence.
ok im done with that topic. in a nutshell, im just starting to know myself(:
another thing i realised: i seem to have a very naive and perfect idea of love. probably from all that reading and watching. you know, there was a time last yr that it seems as though having a bf is the in-thing. i was kindda depressed at that time, coz of the stupid thinkin that im probably never gd enough for anyone. but this yr, i started to think in a different way. i start to think that God has already arranged someone for me, whom i will meet in the future, but not right now. i dont give two hoots abt those showy guys down orchard, or those ego male-bimbos across my sch. becoz there will be someone for me.
im not sure if this thinkin is stupid. becoz there's no such thing as a perfect romance. but i just know, deep down inside, i will be different from those who kiss and hug around then breakup, and those who divorce soon after gettin married.
deep deep deep down inside, i know im going to be happy in future. is this what they call faith in God? perhaps. all i know is, im currently incredibly happy with my life.
so what if im a daddy's girl, spoilt and afraid of venturing into the future on my own? i dont care if ppl say i dont have a mind of my own, always listening to daddy and mummy. i dont care if they think im stupid and naive enough to be cheated. all i know is, i have been blessed by the Lord in every way, with a happy family, good friends (though not many), and a secure (though still foggy) future. this are the promises of Him in my life, and your life too, if you believe in Him.
everyone has his or her own fears. for me, my biggest fear is being left alone to fan for myself. to face the future by myself. the day will come, i know, but with the Lord by my side, everything will be ok. and besides, there's that special someone out there for me, and he'll take care of me if i ever have to live without my family in some foreign place.
that's a very innocent thought, isn't it?
but i like it.
tranquility ; 6/08/2006 09:44:00 pm.
i can already see how the 2nd wk of my hols will end. it will end in lonliness and hectic-ness (if there's such a word) that will be continued in the 3rd wk, and the subsequent wk and till the end of the holiday.
im currently stuck in a rushing-to-finish-up-the-first-wk-of-holidays-hmwk state of mind. every day is pia pia pia from the minute i wake up to well past midnight. ok maybe not really. i do take a break every now and then to watch tv.
... ...
ok fine i confess!! i take A LOT of breaks, ok? probably why i dont accomplish much in a day. but fact here is, i have tons of hmwk. i havent watched a single movie so far!! wad's happened to da vinci, pirates, x-men, over the hedge, and many more?! those were my holiday plans alright, but they're crashing now.
bummer.
ohh yea, d, i know u'll be interested in my results this sem. need a full detailed report here? ahhh... dats a secret. but i can tell you im somewhere average in the level, and i scraped past the Sec4 promotion criteria with an average percentage of 67.65, rounded off to be 68%.
WHOO.
it's not a fantastic achievement, i know. but im just happy to get past 65. haha. im so going to hate that number for life now. it brings me pain, stress, and countless sleepless nights.
anyway, bad news is, i recieved the results of my piano theory grade7 exam. yea. umm. well. i failed, ok? it's kindda hard to take, but i rushed through the syllabus becoz of the change-of-tchr situation which was quite complicated.
my ex-piano tchr was halfway through the syllabus, then i changed piano tchr, and then there simply wasnt enough time to teach, learn, practise, and revise. so my new tchr just did the first step and i did the third. we eliminated two steps of learning. which is WRONG.
kids, dont ever do that. always learn in FOUR STEPS. they never go wrong (:
so anyway, i failed that blasted exam, and im a little panicky now. dad kindda knows, i think. coz parents have this weird freaky way of knowing things. or maybe it's coz i spoke a wincy bit too loud across the dinner table with Jamie.
point is, how do i tell mum? i mean, i was prepared to fail, and she was prepared for it too, and we even wanted to withdraw from the exam. but still. i mean, come
on! i didnt expect it to really happen. i was actually feeling quite good abt the exam when i left the examination room. i could do every single qn, for heavens sake!
oh wells. the question now is: shld i just stop learning piano theory forever and just concentrate on the practical part (since theory is kindda useless at this stage, unless im thinkin of composing melodies, which im a loser at), OR register for next yr's theory exam and hope to do better (catch here is, the registration fee will be v.expensive, even more than this yr).
having a headache over this. and i still have to tell my tchr sooner or later. gosh what will he say? hmm. probably nth much. im not his brightest student anyway.
ohhohh. i just realised today that Hammie is like a LIZARD. really. she's so scrawny and... slithery. i was just holding her in my hands and she was like whooshing and scuttling here and then, and it struck me how she's like only a sack of bones and thin fur. hmm. i wonder if im under-feeding her. jamie would think so. gosh but i still love that little thing. i just keep
forgetting to change her food and water. i hope she doesnt die young. she's still got at least two more yrs to go.
oh right. one more exciting thing (the only exciting thing, in fact)! im officially opening a drawing competition for the characters in my eng and (upcoming) chi novel ^0^ interested friends can leave a msg on the taggie to inform me, and i'll lend you the book (if u havent read it) or describe to you how i want the characters to be like (this is for my chi one).
see, thing is, im intending to set up a blog that will help to market and publicise "The Magicator". it'll be like, a Jessie's Diary thing (she's the main character in my bk), and then there'll be an aunt agony column and ppl can actually write to Jessie abt probs and she'll reply. on the blog. there'll be a lot of other fun stuffs like polls and games. speaking of which, i need more ideas for this blog, and im recruiting ppl to join the committee to help me maintain and design the blog. it's just goin to be a humble attempt to popularise my bk, and im counting alot on friends to help me (:
now im really starting to understand the sayin... SO MUCH TO DO,
SO LITTLE TIME!
tranquility ; 6/08/2006 12:11:00 am.
6.6.06
oh yes im inspired(: im kindda workin on a chi novel now. it's called Pei2 Wo3 Rao4 Quan1 Quan1. abt a girl who went to china 3 times, and the first time she went back was when she was only four, and she met a little beggar boy and she gave him a lolly out of kindness. subsequently, every visit back to China brought her to that boy, except they dont recognise each other.
eventually she became part of a girls band that was competing for a record deal. upon her request, they went to china to find 2 potential hairstylists to be trained and sign contract with the record company so that they will always be in charge of styling the singers from this company. not surprisingly, one of them hair stylist is the beggar boy, and she finally realises.
sad thing is, this boy has grown up into a bad boy, and he does a lot of things outside. the girl tried everything to change him, and eventually nearly lost her life. after that did the boy understand.
BUT. waha this is the fun part. the girl found out right at the end that the real beggar boy was actually the other hair stylist, who has been keepin her company through the storms and giving her support while she battled and fought for the "fake" beggar boy ^.^
dats why the title is called Pei Wo Rao Quan Quan, it means Walk With Me In The Circle (of Love) in eng. and i think the plot is kindda strange but fun, coz it's a case of mistaken identity which ended up bringing a wayward boy back onto the path of righteousness! but of coz, eventually, the girl got together with the real beggar boy.
ahhh...
ok give me encouragement, ppl! im goin to finish this novel coz i think this plot is worth writing!
anywayy, got lots of holiday homework to finish up. wish me luck for that too!
tranquility ; 6/06/2006 03:46:00 pm.
5.6.06
my sincere apologies to those who have been waiting and wanting to see the pics from my china trip (or maybe no one is really waiting and wanting :p). my mum is still in china with joyce, and the cam is with her. so we'll all have to wait till 20th june to see the pics ^.^ they shld be quite lovely. especially the night sights at Wai Tan in Shanghai.
hmm... why not i amuse you first with a little encounter i had in wuxi? yes, i think i shall do that. it's an interesting experience, one that i will not care to have again. and if i ever see those ppl again, i will slap them so hard they fly to mexico (actually i dont have that courage ^0^ but im just using this to show how angry i am with them).
so, who is "them"?
"them" are the hair stylists in a salon in wuxi. me, jamei and joyce were walkin out of a shop in Nan Chan Si called Kawaii, when this boy approached us. he was dressed v.hiphoppishly and although obviously older than me, i'll still call him a boy.
he was promoting this salon that he worked for, and apparently, they are having a promotion period, offering a haircut at RMB30, which is S$6. i thot it was pretty good, and it so happens me and jamie both needed a haircut. so when he offered to give us a tour of the super high tech lookin shop, i agreed and we went in.
Mistake No.1.As we went in, we chatted and i revealed we were from Singapore on vacation.
Mistake No.2. (PRCs have this thing with foreigners apparently. they are what they call the "big fishes". you know. ppl with lots of money. which is, unfortunately, not true in my case becoz i left the hotel that day with onlt RMB300.)We were greeted warmly by the other hair stylists with all sorts of coloured hair and crazy hairstyles. this was a sign that this isnt a decent shop, but i decided to trust them and not judge a book by its cover and a shop by its people.
Mistake No.3. (my wuxi fren told me afterwards that young boys in coloured hair and crazy styles is a first sign that the shop is not decent -.-)Anyway, we were led to the second storey, which was quite empty, and told to sit down first and have a drink. we were all thirsty at that time and gladly took a seat.
Mistake No.4. (
in china, when they tell you to "sit down first and have a drink", it's an excuse to keep you in the shop for as long as possible so they can brainwash you into giving them business by pumping you with highly technical and professional sounding talks that are actually just a load of bull wind. But being innocent me, i took a seat and had a cup of water. before i knew it, a stylist was standing behind me and analysing my face shape and telling me which haircut would suit me better. whoo. putting aside all hatred and bad experience, he was one good lookin guy. honestly, i nearly choked on my water. he could be a movie star~!
bleh. too bad he turned out to be such a dirty flirt and not half as honest as an average conman. anyway, back to the story...
so he told me how he could improve my hair style and then asked if me and my sister would like to wash our hair. you know, with professional TLC. i thot it would be funny to give it a try, coz i thot a hairwash would cost RMB30 max. so we went for it.
Mistake No.5. (it's like fish and bait situation, except that i dont know it. they just kept leading me one step further and further, until i no longer know whether i wanted this in the first place and who started all these.)Good news is, i didn't make any more mistakes after that.
Coz there simply was no turning back.
I had sunk too deep into their little plot. And by the end of 4hrs in their rotten stinkin salon, i had choked up a debt of RMB1000+.
it's not like i wanted to. i swear i had no intention to do my hair. and to hell with a new hairstyle and new look. my hair looks exactly the same as before, except it's now filthy with rubbish chemicals that cost a bomb, and R-E-B-O-N-D-E-D. (hmm is there a spelling error?).
whoo.
after all those talks and styling.
gosh i was expecting something more glam n unexpected than THIS.
i mean, it's not bad lookin, but i got cheated alright.
so, i committed the 5 mistakes that no one shld EVER commit in china, and ended up paying a fortune for it. but good thing is, dad ganged up with his millionaire fren in wuxi and they forced the boss of the salon to cough up most of the money we paid, until we only had to pay RMB400 = S$80.
still alot. but what to do. my fault.
dad says im naive but he's just too kind to say im stupid. mum says i dont know how to reject ppl, so i got pushed around in the shop.
worse thing was, i had to cancel my appointment with my wuxi fren that aftnn due to that 4hrs hair treatment that stinks to high heavens. and i didn't get to meet my fren AT ALL for those 2 days i stayed in wuxi.
you can see why i hate those hooligans now. oh yea, and that suave hair stylist? he wanted my number but i didnt give him due to prior experience with bad boys. thats perhaps the only good thing i did. so he gave me his, and i was supposed to call him when i get back to Singapore.
AS IF.
i deleted your stupid number, you big fat liar from hell.
take that!!
*throws shoe*
so, to all my lovely innocent frens out there, i know many of you wouldn't make the same mistakes as me, but just take note from my experience.
DO NOT get involved with such ppl in china.
And ALWAYS judge a book by its cover and a shop by its people, in china.
Have a nice day! (:
tranquility ; 6/05/2006 10:03:00 am.
ohh this is the most fab show EVER! *swoons* plsplspls. for those who are super free now in the june holidays, catch this show on channel U, every wkday, 7-8pm. if you love an unusual plot with beautiful setting and romantic characters, this is the show to watch!!
