17.8.06
thanks to haowen,i was reminded last night of the power of a prayer.
i sat down to pray sincerely to the Lord about what to do with the dance competition.my frens had agreed to join me,and this is a huge obstacle cleared.yet i knew things were not so easy.so i asked the Lord.and He answered me.
i didnt hear Him speak to me like a godly voice from above or anything like that.in fact,i didnt even consider parental objection or other problems if i were to join.
all that came to mind was my two p.sch frens who agreed to join me.and that was enough for me to make my decision.they are both not in the IP,so they will have to take Os.i cannot be selfish because of my own dream,and i nearly was.
because i was so desperate to fulfil a childhood dream,i nearly dragged my two gd frens down with me.they could've done badly in Os because of this.and im glad He reminded me of what is impt to me in my life.
my friends.
it was because of this simple reason that i passed down the msg this morning to let my frens know i appreciate their support,but this time this yr is not suitable for us to take part in big competitions.so hopefully will have another chance.
besides,i figured if we all have a passion for dancing,this one competition wouldnt matter.we dance for ourselves,not for public entertainment or recognition.we'd find many more chances to perform and live our dreams(:
although,come to think abt it,i am shortchanging my friends in a way.because i never exactly discussed this with them.i mean,they have agreed to join me,so in a way we're a grp le.which means whatever decision has to be made as a grp right?
right.
and i made a decision without consulting them.i just msged them to let them know we shld concentrate on our eoys.which is really my own opinion and judgement.because for all i know,they may really want to do this competition.
hmm..i will have to talk to them soon.
here,i'll just give a little history of me and these two frens.both of them were one of those who supported me alot when i first started writing in p5.they were one of those who would "fight" to read my latest chapter every morning i reach school.it was because of ppl like them that i grew in my passion for writing.
and one of them,yongern,i once danced with in a danceworks competition.she was bubbly and fun,and from what i know,she still is.the other,tracy,had a feud with me when i first joined her class.we had a period of "cold battle" and picked on each other all the time.she was a bad kid wannabe,but eventually we ended up as gd frens,till now.and she's a much better girl now.someone i'll be proud to call my fren.
so,i will never forfeit their future because of my dreams.because they are an impt part of my memory and childhood.they still are.among many others i treasure.like gillian,melissa and shani.
thanks girls.
IJ all the way(:
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here's sth i cut out from my grp blog with the fivers.it's sweet and really inspiring!
I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF…..you have to think before you speak to me!
I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF…..my presence ever makes you feel uncomfortable!
I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF…..you have to thank me for everything I do for you!
I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF…..you have to say sorry for everything that you don’t do!
I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF…..you have to ask me for favours!
I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF…..you think i would not be curious to know your new philosophy of life!
I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF…..you go by what I say and do not understand what I don’t say!
I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF…..you think that listening to your dreams would put me to sleep!
I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF…..you think that seeing you in pain, would not bring a tear to me!
I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF…..you think I do not remember the first time we met!
I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF…..you don’t see the thousand ways I try to make you happy!
I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF…..you don’t realize how your smile brightens up my day!
I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF…..you would rather keep quiet when you really wanna talk!
I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF…..you hesitate to ask me to stay back when you think we should be together!
I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF…..you take too much time to tell me what i mean to you!
and we ARE friends(:
tranquility ; 8/17/2006 09:17:00 pm.
