31.3.07
", to receive help, first learn to trust."morning today sucked.
the devil was against me.
dont even wanna talk abt it.
but the afternoon was heaps of fun!!
^0^
YG was outdoor games!
played all sorts of games in grps of 7 or 8.
learnt alot abt other ppl.
like... the pig actually has brains.
good ones too.
and...
the puppy is actually more mischevious and hyper than i thought she was XD
BURST MY WATER BALLOON.
boowahh...
oh comp time up le...
gtg now ):
SEEYA~
tranquility ; 3/31/2007 04:11:00 pm.
30.3.07
, "You need to be PEEing throughout the essay.!" point.evidence.elaboration.woots.
suki frenched me today.
such a darling.
hehh.
i was showering him today in the bathroom.
he was licking around, trying out the water and the shampoo.
then at one moment when my face was just next to his, he turned to lick me and my lips were partly open.
yea so u know what happened next.
but it lasted barely 0.1 sec so wasnt that disgusting ^-^
OOOH suki boy...
ahhhh~
no wonder they say the chances of a girl falling for her first kiss guy is higher than 90%.
if my puppy alone looks so much cuter and hugable after just a lick on the face, guess what'll happen if its actually a guy! XD
ok sorry abit sick.
in case u're lost, suki is my PUPPY.
as in, an actual puppy, like, a dog.
yea, so dont go thinking im a sickass(:
anyway!
i've finished 40 days of reading The Purpose Driven Life!
yay for me.
so d, u can come back now.
it wasnt as easy as i imagined.
but i prevailed and overcame temptation.
sleep was indeed luring and often i wanted to just collapse into bed and snooze.
but then i told myself to just pick up the book and read what was instored for me.
i admit on many days im merely scanning the pages and not actually absorbing anything.
that was very bad and i've made up my mind to re-read the book again during the term 2 holidays.
currently im reading Proverbs and it's proving to be an extremely insightful and interesting book.
i hope my daily QT continues because a strong relationship with God does make a difference.
anyway just invented a fun quiz for myself.
it's targeted at my nz friends this time.
next time i'll use it for sg friends ^-^
have fun reading(:
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Name five friends within 3 seconds:1.Stephany
2.Victoria
3.Peter
4.Jason
5.Vincent
Name an animal that would represent him/her:1. Hyper puppy.
Always frolicking around, laughing, talking and making friends with everyone!
bounce bounce bounce. never stays down for too long ^-^
2. Happy bunny.
Always looking prim and proper and cutish. makes ppl wanna pat her, literally!
3. Mole.
coz moles are blind and they're kindda cute in a funny way XD
4. PIG.
the word speaks for itself eh...
5. umm... chucky from rugrats?? o.O
HAHAHA. thats the most hilarious thing i ever thought of. i was watcing Rugrats one day and it dawned upon me how much my fav character chucky looks like vincent with his specs. of coz, the boy isnt as scaredy-cat and clumsy as the cartoon kid.
Describe how u got to know them:1. Ahhh the well known story of Bento... (bian dang, in chinese, meaning packed meal).
It all started one sunday when i went to Christchurch Chinese Church with my family.
It was our first time so everyone was very warm and welcoming.
Pastor Jack took me over to a girl by the window, after sunday service.
She was concentrating on her Bento and eating with alot of focus.
so i sat down and pastor jack started talking.
after he left, stephany and i started chatting.
and tada~
2. She was the one who brought me around school on my very first day in burnside.
She was introduced to me by stephany, as her "sister".
When i first saw this girl, i thought she was korean or sth.
hehh.
(oops running out of time, gotta cut short)
3. First met him at a badminton session on sunday.
He was wearing a red shirt.
thus ended up with the famous nickname:
Chuan Hong Se Yi Fu De!!
(the one who wears red shirt)
><"
dunno since when started talking to him abt my problems and now he's one of the first ppl i talk to whenever some crap comes up.
4. Youth Group New Yr BBQ Outing.
we had to sit in a circle to play icebreakers and he happened to sit down next to me.
he was extremely reserved and quiet (still is, actually, towards me at least) and i had to tell him my name first before he told me he's jason.
thereafter, i discovered his prowess in badminton and sciences and probably math, though i stubbornly refuse to admit this fact in his face.
coz i think i own him in math :P
5. Oh umm... well, this one came in the Twin Package.
hehh. he was with jason on the outing. so yea, got to know him later.
he too is a pro in badminton and sciences and probably math.
but he doesnt challenge me in anyway, so thats cool ^-^
tranquility ; 3/30/2007 03:56:00 pm.
26.3.07
", resist the music of the Pied Piper."
more design images!
pencil sketching part 2:
logo design:
yepp this is the only puny logo i've completed.
1 down, 19 more to go...
tranquility ; 3/26/2007 05:22:00 pm.
25.3.07
", omg TP has gone M-I-A!!?"
earth to TP, earth to TP...
come in, come in...
this is TP1,
do u read me?
(TP! is everything ok with u? dont scare me k!! email or send me an offline msn msg or STH. it's starting to feel like im being cut off from u.
oh i know!!
did ur comp crash?
that'll explain ur mysterious disappearance from the virtual world.)
ok anyway,
in case TP is fuming coz i havent yet send her the promised scanned images of my design work, here they are for everyone to see.
i spent a long time figuring out to get the scanner to work and in some cases, i had to scan 2 files and use photoshop to join them into one picture coz my design sketch book is A3, and my scanner can only can max A4 images.
plus i had to resize every other image with photoshop.
assignment 2.1 (Merit)
it's called the Circle, Sqaure, Triangle Problem.
we were given loads of such shapes and using them we have to add other elements to the basic shapes such that we got rather complex pictures such as these:
assignment 2.3 (Merit)
(yea the tchr assigns us work in non-chronological order)
for this one we had to choose 3 themes from a given list.
for each theme we choose, we have to draw 4 black and white designs using the concept of postivie and negative spaces.
and then from each grp of 4, we pick out the best one and enlarge it.
yes ENLARGE.
i had to painstakingly measure every inch and enlarge it.
haii.
oh btw the 3 themes i chose were Light, Nature and Computer respectively.
assignment 2.4
(from here onwards no grading coz tchr hasnt taken it back to grade)
this one eh...
it's basically a loooong one which went on for wks.
it comes in stages so everyone was like pia-ing the first stage for a wk.
then after we were done and feeling pleased, tchr walks in and says, "rightie oh, let's go on with STAGE TWO. by MONDAY."
=.="
STAGE 1:
very important part of the process, says tchr.
IDEAS AND DEVELOPMENT.
we had to draw mind map and think of all the silhouetted objects related to the chosen theme.
in my case, it was TRAVEL.
STAGE 2:
using the images drawn, select one to be the general shape and fill it up with silhouettes of smaller images related to the theme.
do this for two different themes.
in my case, TRAVEL and NATURE.
STAGE 3 (linear drawing):
select one theme and one image related to it.
fill it up with linear drawings of other stuffs related to it.
i chose TRAVEL.
as usual, the sides are chopped off.
but u can still see it's a plane.
right?
anyway the wings are my main focus.
i didnt know stick figures can look so awesome on linear drawings(:
oh the end of the plane is actually a boat and a train.
i love the boat.
but u cant see it properly.
hahh!
metamorphasis:
i spent a darn long time doing the stupid ballerina.
but the scanned image sucks.
u cant actually see her feet properly so she just looks like some weird, sharp, unproportional THING.
=,="
assignment 2.2 (logo designing):
another super long assignment.
currently working on it.
select a given theme (i picked ANIMATION) and do two A3 pages of pencil sketching of related objects.
i did pencil, pen and the computer mouse.
unfortunately time has run out for me so i'll upload the sketchings of the mouse next time.
also stage 2, in which i have to do 20 black and white logo designs.
i've only done one so far.
haii sad.
and omg.
the scanned image doesnt do my drawings justice!!
my sketching of the pencil looks better than that ><
i drew in all that detail below the rubber part and it looked better than what u see here on the screen >~<
STAGE 1:
tranquility ; 3/25/2007 11:31:00 am.
23.3.07
", billet doux."it means "a sweet note" in french, apparently.
note, as in, short letter.
thats what form tchr said.
quite cute i thought(:
sounds nice and posh.
anyway.
this wk has been pretty average.
sailed right past my eyes.
nth much to report either.
except dad's talk was brilliant today!
first time i heard my own dad lecture in a university(:
pretty cool actually.
yayy feel proud of him.
but gosh.
how can i ever meet up to his expectations?
other ppl's expectations of a professor's daughter?
The Purpose Driven Life says all these are not impt.
i shld be driven by God's purpose for me.
not the world's expectations of me.
so yea.
i'll meditate on that concept and try really hard not to shift my focus from christ.
tranquility ; 3/23/2007 05:03:00 pm.
22.3.07
", 'alright lets see... who's not here, raise up ur hand!! o.O'"SO HILARIOUS.
it seems like after every depressing stage i have, life will take a turn and become hugely interesting and funny.
so many lame stuffs happened today i dont know where to begin.
the header was spoken by Mr West, my media studies tchr.
it's like, the school arranges for freshmans to be runners and go to every class halfway through every lesson to collect pink slips of paper that records who has been absent.
so today, the runner on duty came to our media class and Mr West hurriedly searched for his pink slip.
apparently he hasnt yet taken attendence so he doesnt know who's absent.
so he was like peering at the name list.
and i think he was trying to save time coz the runner was waiting by the door.
so he absently said (while looking at the name list): "ok lets see... who's not here, raise up your hand..."
and everyone went UHHHH.... =.=
HAHAHAHA.
ok not sure if u got the joke and saw the incredibly large degree of humour in that statement...
but still(:
IT WAS FUNNY at that time.
whatelse!
ohyes i invented a song just now coz i realised im wearing orange all over.
it goes like this:
I'm a little Carrot,
Long and SLIM!!
Here are my tippy toes (cue: stand on toes like ballerina with arms stretched upward over head),
Here are my SPROUTS (spread hands out like the leafy top part of a carrot).
When u pull me out of the soil,
Hear me shout!
Cut me up and eat me for dinner~~~
LALALALA^0^
okyea abit sick, the last part ><><" hmm ok... school is fine. dad'll be meeting subj tchrs next tues. im confident nth can go wrong. my tchrs all love me. yea really. im sure Mr Gardiner, my design tchr, is only joking whenever he says, "No...i dont want to talk to u o.O " when i raise up my hand to ask him sth. = = " yepp ok v.late le! i would like to blog more abt my so-so life here. but Dreamland calls!
oyasuminasai everyone~ ^-^
tranquility ; 3/22/2007 06:04:00 pm.
20.3.07
", the world is a bad bad place.?"
my babysitting job interview was screwed.
mum went with me and basically lost it when i told her my job would require me to spend the night at michelle hall's hse on fri/sat nights. (the employer).
so she insisted on talking to the woman...
blahblahblah.
in a nutshell, mum made me out to be a dependent, unexperienced daddy's girl who cant leave home for too long.
so yea.
she blew it.
not me.
but it's alright.
i was annoyed for an hr or so.
but since today is her bday, and i know she was only concerned for me (too concerned, maybe, but still), i shall forget abt this whole thing.
i'll just look harder for another part time job.
and who knows, maybe mich STILL wants to hire me after that drama episode ^_^
ok funny highlight of the day!!
the family went to a chinese restuarant to have dinner to celebrate mum's bday.
jamie and i finished eating and were bored so went outside to take pics.
we looked up and saw the starry night sky and got excited.
in sg we never got to see a clear night sky with twinkle twinkle little stars.
so u can imagine how thrilled we were by the idea of capturing the beautiful scene with our camera!
so i held up the camera to the sky, zoomed in to the max...
then jamie held up her hand in front and the camera screen went blank.
so i said, "move away ur hand!! i cant see anything!!"
i waited for a few seconds.
the screen remained blank.
"I SAID MOVE AWAY YOUR HAND!!"
"i have!"
i looked away from the screen.
jamie was standing a metre away from me, staring at me in a puzzled way.
"oh."
apparently the sky was waaay too dark and whatever for the cam to capture anything.
=.="
tranquility ; 3/20/2007 04:41:00 pm.
19.3.07
", ROBOTS INVASION, by Assoc. Prof Chen Xiaoqi, this friday at 5pm, C3, Canterbury Univ."TWO super funny highlights today:
(after media studies, vic and jenny walking to locker, discussing whether they shld choose their careers according to their interest, or by how much money they can earn.
and at a certain point of their conversation, somehow they sidetracked to their interests)
victoria: i feel like i learn abit of everything... but dont do very well in any of them.
(the girls walk past block F, the senior block, where the lockers of yr13 students are located)
jenny: (interrupts) yea me too!! =0=
victoria: like i learnt dance, and i wasnt very good... and piano too. i suppose if i practised lots and lots and LOTS in the past, i would be as good as peter wu now...
jenny: nobody can be as good as peter...
someone from behind: BOORAWWRR!!!
girls: (scream and freak out)
it was peter wu.
=___="
~~~~~~~~~~~NUMBER TWO HIGHLIGHT:
i was surfing blogskins.com, checking out the skin of the day.
it's a really cute design, clouds and a kiddish looking character, that kindda stuff.
then i clicked to preview it.
and at the navigations column, i noticed the disclaimer.
1)do not spam
2)do not sthsth (cant rmb. but it's sth quite typical)
3)hate me then press alt F4
4) sthsthsth.
and i was like.
OOH cool!!
whats alt F4???!
never seen anyone put that in a disclaimer before.
will sth pop up??
like a secret bitch msg??
yayy i wanna try!!
so i pressed down on the ALT button, searched the keyboard for F4, found it, happily jammed it down, looked up....
EHHH!!!
WHERE'S THE BLOGSKIN WINDOW??!!
>"<
yea ok thats all for today folks!(:
tranquility ; 3/19/2007 05:20:00 pm.
17.3.07
", I SHALL NOT CONFORM. ohmann who am i trying to kid..."tennis was ok.
dance was ok.
dinner was ok.
the entire day was ok.
as in, nth unexpected happened.
it was expected that he wouldnt turn up.
expected (and prayed for) that it wouldnt rain or be too hot.
expected that the dance would be cool and fun to learn.
expected that dinner would be good.
hmm but i guess if i think hard enough, there are unexpected thoughts that jumped to my mind today.
like during dance, i realise u can actually learn alot abt someone from the way he/she behaves in front of a grp and his/her attitude towards things.
and i mean that in a negative way.
why are the ppl around me starting to seem so imperfect and unlike what i thought they were...?
i know everyone is imperfect.
i just detest myself for trusting and believing in the goodness of ppl so easily.
and also seeing their dark side so easily.
i'd rather be a fool till the end of my life, believing the world is beautiful and everyone has a heart of gold.
but no.
i get taken in for a short while, then reality comes in slowly and i see through the disguise of all things.
yet i continue to choose to play the fool.
smile and pretend i still think the world's beautiful and we're all angels.
i wonder why.
maybe ignoring the ugly things in life will help me see what i want to see.
maybe repeatedly telling myself "we're all imperfect and sinful human beings" will stop me from being bothered by the true nature of my friends here.
maybe doing QT everyday will help me love all of them despite them being who they are (this has worked before for me).
maybe one day God will let me know why so many young christians are not portraying christ-like characteristics.
and they're not even trying.
i guess i've been blessed with so many nice friends that i've forgotten how it feels like to meet "unlovable ppl", as the bible calls them.
but problem is, only i seem to find some ppl unlovable... the rest of the world seems to think they are genuinely sweet.
so whatever.
it's just crummy jenny's problem.
gosh i just hate long, silent and depressing nights...
tranquility ; 3/17/2007 02:54:00 pm.
16.3.07
", i am me;shaped by Him."yayy im happy coz it's friday(:
ohh but boo...
feeling weird coz the night is long and silent and depressing ):
woots.
got excellence for classical studies practice qns 1.
the first practice paper we did this yr.
considering classical studies is a completely new subject to me, im really happy with my excellence(:
ohoh and math common test 1 got top mark in class^-^
but it was easy peas.
differentiation and algebra.
wasnt too happy with my marks though.
couldnt do 3 qns and 2 were easy ones.
><
hmm what else...
tennis and dance tmr.
andand.
farewell party for dad's colleagues tmr night.
hehh ok just got off msn with someone.
was telling her sth and now i feel like i can finally let go off the past lo~
new place, new ppl.
time to move on!
^-^
so anyway, for all ye faithful patronisers of this blog, one day i may just be nice and let u know what is the so called "dark secret" thats going on in my life here in christchurch.
but for now, just know that it's nth terribly bad and depressing.
(:
yepp a good news since i came here would be:
after 30days of reading A Purpose Driven Life,
i was finally enlightened last night and im very sure now that im on the right track to fulfilling God's purpose for me.
so even though dad and mum are worried for my future (next yr, to be precise, coz they're hoping i can go univ then), im not too concerned.
im just gonna do my best in school now
coz school is such a fantastic way of distracting myself from the temptations and all the screwed up things in this world.
hip hip hurray for school...!! \^0^/
(yea i think im nuts)
ohoh 11pm le!!
bedtime (even though it's friday night =.=)
gosh i just realised holidays for u guys in sg are nearly over!!
treasure the remaining weekend k!
and all the best for term 2 ^0^
tranquility ; 3/16/2007 04:13:00 pm.
15.3.07
", looking into the mirror;what do i see.?"im so disappointed in you?
yes i am.
i thought u were different.
but why did u have to go running around saying and doings stuffs behind my back?
ruining my friendship with other ppl?
she's one of my closest friends here.
i tell her everything and i trust her.
did u think what u said was a funny joke?
it wasnt.
u made her really pissed.
and im pissed now too.
how could u?
were u really that desperate to know what she knows?
she's a good friend and u're making things hard for her.
i wish i can make u apologise.
i probably shld give u a chance to explain.
but u dont know that i know what happened.
so it's hard to breach the topic.
but anyway.
she doesnt lie either.
so i suppose u know everything now.
but like TP says, the pressure is on u, not me.
so to heck with everything.
we're still friends.
but now im confused abt u too.
i dont understand why u seem like two different ppl to me and to others.
plus i have no idea whats going on in ur mind now.
maybe u're more than what i think u are.
that's sad.
tranquility ; 3/15/2007 04:50:00 pm.
14.3.07
", i can walk on the water;trusting in Your power."yayy im back from emo holiday(:
hmm...yea im fine now.
the storm is over.
or rather, i've gotten used to it already!
hehh ok sooo.
lots of stuffs happened over the past few days.
nth of great importance though.
hmm...except im finding out more abt the YG and how it really is.
like the ppl in YG.
yea...
some not so pleasant.
but well concealed.
i was fooled into thinking this YG is different.
holier and more united.
i guess every church has it's differences and shortcomings.
but no matter!
i shall work for God to build up the church and do what i can to change things(:
for it is His purpose for us to make a difference in this world!!
^0^
wheee msgs to ppl AGAIN:
TP:EMAIL RELAY!!!
woots.
was fun while it lasted ^0^
sorry i had to stop the chain.
math test tmr. i'll write u again during weekends!
d:u've disappeared again!
are u even reading this?
is getting into Harvard that difficult?
dad is pushing me to get a scholarship for next yr.
guess i will see u pretty soon(:
peizhi:vice monitress wor...
hehh all the best for ur duties and responsibilities!
always knew u had it in u(:
huifang:jiayou oh!!
and lighten up(:
things arent always as bad as they seem.
and stop thinking badly of urself!!
u're a great person ^.^
sixuan:thanks for tagging time and again(:
u're one of the few from YF who constantly reminds me u're there for me.
ganbatte for everything lo~
alicia:u too!!
biggest fan and supporter of The Magicator(:
im pia-ing bk2 now!
thanks for the encouraging words ^-^
momo:yayy so cool~
feels good to know that someone doesnt think im a stupid pig!
hehh.
have u killed that giant poisonous spider yet?
eeew...gross!!
pighead:i swear im gonna kill u for that lousy txt4000 joke!!
gosh... u had stephany hell laughing at me for AGES.
grrr.
IM NOT A BAI CHI!! >~<
xia zi:u are seriously one mysterious guy.
ur msn nick is never happy.
it's always depressing.
i really hope u'll come to the camp even though u have ur own reasons for not going.
things will never work out if u keep on doing them ur way and refusing to let God lead the way.
doraemon:i understand now why u say u're not v.well like in church.
it's not ur problem.
it's theirs.
they have no right to be so mean.
i wish i can smack some of them.
i've heard jokes abt u, and i wish i have the courage to stand up for my friend.
but i can only walk away.
im sorry im such a wimp.
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the stars are fading and so is the heart.is it because one has gotten used to the dark?or has one seen the light and hopes for a change?drifting, drifting...someone else in this world will see the stars.but who will catch the heart?
tranquility ; 3/14/2007 03:19:00 pm.
8.3.07
", it's not what it seems."im here to declare something once and for all.
IAMNOTINLOVE.hmm yea that was eye catching enough.
ok i know the poems and 暧昧hidden messages are kindda strange, and everyone reading (yes you too, jamie) are guessing stuffs.
i am not a shallow despo kid who is insanely in love with anyone.
i am well focused on my studies, trying to do my best to please my parents, do my daily Quiet Time, and not get distracted by the temptations of this world.
you're probably thinking i've changed (or am changing) because the ang moh culture is like this and like that.
but no.
im interacting and socialising with asians who share the same values and beliefs as anyone in hcmc yf and my clique in ny.
i am still the same kid.
the kid with feelings.
some of what i have written are very personal stuffs and i am forced to use nicknames and sometimes just a general "You" to protect the identity of the actual character and also avoid unnecessary questions from readers.
im really glad there are ppl reading abt my life here in nz.
i feel responsible for updating you nice ppl and so i try to post as frequently as possible.
but i beg for your understanding and be sensitive towards what im feeling too.
the first part of the my posts are always daily stuffs and usually nothing serious.
the last section is what i call my emo space.
where i write irrationally and on impulses whenever im emo-ing.
so pls read and forget when it comes to that particular section.
or better still, just skip it.
you may not know it,
but as much as ur tags please me,
it's disturbing when you ask too personal questions
that even i cant answer.
so pls,
dont judge me.
dont guess and imagine whats happening to me.
dont even tell me what not to do.
you've got no idea whats happening.
dont read my posts with all kinds of opinions in your mind which u think are better than how im handling stuffs now.
dont read my posts while thinking
this is so lame, so stupid, so childish.
dont read my posts while thinking of me as the girl u last saw.
i am still the same jenny, yet i have changed.
truth is, no on really knows what im going through.
my posts are just a small percentage of what is actually going on.
我的内心世界是无法以言语来形容的.
im sorry, im not pissed.
i am just really confused about what im going through now too.
i cant answer any questions and the inner jenny doesnt want to be interrogated.
it's all very strange for me too and im trying to slowly sort out my thoughts.
------------------------
Jamie,i know you're very concerned abt me.
dont worry, im fine.
you know me,
jenny always butts her way out of all kinds of nonsense no matter what.
im sorry im not telling you certain stuffs.
we've always shared all our secrets and thoughts.
but this time it's different.
and the time isnt right to tell you yet.
it's nth serious, you might even find it absurdly childish and stupid.
but still, it's weird for me and i'll like some time to let things settle down.
i've gotten to a stage in life whereby i have to seriously start thinking abt life.
whereas u're still in ur early teens.
i know u'll understand that there are some things i cannot even tell you.
Stephany,it's really great that we're taking the same boat together.
and im glad u're here to share all these crap with me.
ganbatte for ur YKW.
and get well soon u lamo.
YY,it's so not cool that im on the boat and u're on the shore.
you can only hear me if i yell really loud.
but you never turn your head away when i do.
thanks for that.
Vic,the newest and cutest friend i've made in christchurch.
thanks for listening and accompanying me in school.
it's awesome that u've sorted out ur thoughts and feelings.
now it's my turn.
Xia Zi,you promised you wouldnt beat yourself up.
i'll hold you to that.
dont ever let me see depressing msn nicks no more.
seeya on saturday.
Lucier,get the message will ya.
i dont like you.
i had no intention of even befriending you.
but now that we are friends,
it's not in my nature to ignore you.
so pls just stop on your own accord.
tranquility ; 3/08/2007 11:53:00 am.
7.3.07
", i brought Death upon them while they were mating.?><"
hahh thats the highlight of today.
SO HILARIOUS.
i came home and found 2 flies stacked on top of one another on my dining table...
i was like, "huh?? WHATS THAT."
then realisation dawned upon urs truly...
and the first thing my reaction was:
WHERE'S THE FLY SWAT??!
i found it.
crept up to those 2 oblivious creatures (obviously too immersed in pleasure or sth to notice my existence =.=)
and WHAM.
they're squashed as lemonades.
funny thing is.
half an hr later, another couple was on almost the exact same spot on the table.
WHAM.
squashed.
woohoo~
killed four flies with two stones (or swats, in this case)!!
erpps...
ok i think im cruel.
they were gonna have puny baby flies ):
haha dad was commenting this morning that the flies in our hse seem to be getting smaller in size.
as i was pondering what this means, he went on to say:
"i think the baby flies are hatching!"
yea so apparently he wasnt being lame.
it IS the mating season for flies.
goodness.
or is my hse so filthy that it's the perfect place for breeding all yr round?
>~<
tranquility ; 3/07/2007 02:52:00 pm.
5.3.07
", walk beside me."HELLO.
monday(:
the slackest day of the wk.
for me at least.
made friends with a few ppl in vicky's gang.
there's joy and another girl's whose name i never quite caught.
and then there's theresa of grace's grp.
she's from malaysia.
hmm yea so i felt confident enough to join vicky's gang for lunch today.
wasnt too bad~~
ppl like annie and jasmine were very welcoming and included me as much as possible.
and the grp didnt seem too clique-ish or isolated at all.
it was pretty good and i think i can get used to it(:
AHHH i finished those 2 stupid designs.
BUT the assignment was extended today and now i have to do ANOTHER 2 similar ones...
plus i need to draw 2 strips of drawing showing 2 metamorphasis.
like a caterpillar turning into a butterfly.
or tadpole turning into frog.
that kindda thing.
except it doesnt have to make sense.
all these by next monday!!?
gahhh.
i'll be doing design for every single study period and home study for this entire wk...
ohgoody.
nowadays all the homework i ever get is design and classical studies?
yea.
dad's gonna be so glad if he ever knows...
hehh was in a hilariously good mood ytd and today and i think will continue to be for the rest of this week.
ehhh... whats the reason for this strange joy u ask?
HA HA.
thou shall not know...
^0^
so anyway!
glad that jamie's txt2000 is being used.
open up k girl!
im sure u'll start babbling and being urself soon in YG and school(:
then everyone will know u're actually a super lame and drama kid, not quiet and shy like they think! ><
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today we made conversation for the first time.it was v.short, random and basically crap.u dont seem to find it very significant.but to me, it is.040307.i'll always rmb.
tranquility ; 3/05/2007 02:45:00 pm.
4.3.07
", dont exasperate your children."sermon was good today.
pastor jack talked abt building a christian family.
it's a series of talks and today is the second talk.
What Is A Christian Family?
Basically:
1) God is first.
2) Dad is respected.
3) Mum is loved.
4) Children are nurtured.
5) Grace
6) Gratitude
7) Generiosity (spelling error?).
i think my family is more or less a christian family.
like, we have almost all the listed elements, except i dont think we put God in the first place.
hmm..yea, we've got to work on that.
i felt like pastor jack was talking abt my family, somehow?
like he gave an example of dads dragging their families halfway round the world for their jobs.
it's an example of NOT putting God in first place, but their WORK in first place.
was i thinking too much or does that sound like my dad?
i guess im still trying to figure out what im doing here across the pacific.
if, like what dad claims, God really meant for us to be here, im sure He will lead me into His purpose for me here in christchurch..
and speaking of dad, i was annoyed with him on friday night coz he ganged up with mum to nag me abt responsibility, treasuring my youth, aiming high (i.e. get a bloody scholarship and go to america) ETC ETC.
im not saying im not listening.
it's just that i dont think they know me well enough to be telling me all that.
dad's so busy being a professor and mum only cares abt the state of my room.
do they know hows school for me now? good or bad?
do they know if i fancy anyone?
do they know if i like the idea of getting a scholarship?
do they know the real reason why im playing along and working towards a scholarship?
do they know how it is for me to come to a new place and meet new ppl?
no.
they dont.
so whatever.
you two just keep on talking like u know it all.
and i dont think pastor jack's sermon got through ur thick head.
CHILDREN ARE NURTURED.
yes, we are.
but he also mentioned the verse in ephesians.
"fathers, dont exasperate your children..."
i rmb another verse in ephesians which tells children to honour their parents.
so i will, and i'll listen and obey you and mum.
but im really disappointed.
u're so full of yourself and what u've accomplished that even such an obvious msg didnt get through to you.
the men just dont get it.
boys too.
SO ANYWAY(:
abt the blog publicising thing, i've come to a clever (hopefully) decision.
i wont let any of my nz frens know my blog url unless they ask abt it.
as in, i wont be initiative in letting them know.
becoz i think as much as i write abt them here, it's actually nth bad?
like i dont gossip here or badmouth?
i think? ><
pls let me know if i do, k.
coz i really want this to be a clean and holy blog.
hmm...whatelse.
xia zi asked me what i thought abt the YG.
i said i think it's not all that it seems and there are 2 sides to everyone in YG, as far as what im discovering these days.
he agrees and asks me what i think abt him.
jamie nagged me to get off msn so he said we'll talk today in badminton.
gahh.
how shld i tell him... i dont even know why i said what i said.
like, he's a really nice kid, but when u're asked to describe someone and all u can say is, "hmm...ohyea, he/she is nice!"
then sth's wrong.
coz "nice" is just a vague word.
it doesnt have personality.
yet everyone has a story and personality.
so what i think im trying to say is.
when someone becomes too nice and shows no personality, he/she becomes a rather mysterious character?
like u know deep under, they've got their own secrets and troubles too.
but they just dont show it, or they ignore it by burying it so well.
ahh whatever.
i'll deal with xia zi when the time comes.
mm... sunny boy doesnt look too happy today.
seated far away from pighead.
wonder what happened.
ok lunching now.
Mcdonald for dinner!!
yayy ^0^
tranquility ; 3/04/2007 07:09:00 am.
3.3.07
", dont you get it.?"had YG and dance just now..
sooo tired @_@
hehh but it was fun.
coz finally YG had a decent attendence.
lots of ppl turned up, including those who said they might not i.e. doraemon, superman and xia zi.
(*note: doraemon=josh)
so anyway, dance was pretty cool.
embarked on a new dance journey.
this song is rather egyptian and harder than the first one!
challenging(:
jamie decided she wants to play bball with the guys rather than continue in dance.
=.="
traitor.
she refuses to believe me when i say she has slimmed down because of dance, and not the occassion hoop shootings.
WHATEVER LA JIAN MEI.
ohoh i prepared a dish for dinner later, and i bought a huge packet of chips on the way home from church!
gosh chips here come in large quantities.
$1.40 for a large packet.
which is like... 3 times of singapore Mac's large fries??
so yea... chips are cheap here.
hey that rhymed(:
argghhh...
DESIGN.
ideas ideas... Oh pls come to me...
im SO stuck and i need to hand in 2 designs on monday?
gahhh.
so gonna die.
at this rate, it'll be a miracle if i even get Achieved.
forget Excellence and Merit.
ok there's an issue i'll like to discuss with everyone.
(imagine we're in a meeting room, seated around a long table, serious expressions and hands holded professionally. hmmm....)
me: since coming to christchurch, i have made some friends in church and school. and many of them, i realise, own blogs. and they have kindly given me their blog url. and i think it is only right if i give them mine too.
BUT. i feel like this blog is a private space for me to communicate with u peeps in SG and would it be weird for u guys if nz ppl started tagging and reading the same stuffs im supposed to be sharing with you?
PLUS i actually talk abt my church and sch frens on this blog.. so like, even though i've nicknamed almost everyone, it's still not very nice to let them read abt themselves? ><
pls vote on the taggie!
thanks~
oh but i think one of my nz churchies might be reading this now!
HELLO stephanie(:
did u find my blog from jamie's links?
hehh.
sorry i didnt mean to ban you from here.
just havent made up my mind if i want to publicise my blog yet :P
dont let anyone else know my blog yet k!
thanks ^-^
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i believe in this friendship.i believe we can sail through this drizzle.i know it isnt just me.i know u know it too.i will be brave and happy.i will pray for you.
tranquility ; 3/03/2007 02:14:00 pm.
2.3.07
", in self denial."jamie are i were playing stupid just now.
we were eating Arnotts Tiny Teddy and imitating each facial expression as we ate the choc teddies ><
SO LAME.
did this blogthing test which i found on tiffany's blog.
the results are seriously screwed.
me? a peacemaker??
ho ho ho...
| You Are 9: The Peacemaker |
You are emotionally stable and willing to find common ground with others.
Your friends and family often look to you to be the mediator when there is conflict.
You are easy going and accepting. You take things as they come.
Avoding conflict at all costs, you're content when things are calm. |
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i cant believe u really did it..
is it because of bratty me?
now it just feels weird.
is this the end or has it never started?
the virtual and real you are 2 different ppl
pls shed off your disguise?
tranquility ; 3/02/2007 10:51:00 am.
1.3.07
", life minus love equals zero."no i am not referring to bgr love like what someone thinks.
i've been reading the purpose driven life and this is a quote from the chapter ytd.
love is universal.
the love im referring to here is love for our fellow human beings.
so someone pls stop thinking im head over heels in love with anyone =.=
anyway.
suki had his first puppy class just now!
his classmates were... interesting.
ahem.
yarr, but i feel pretty good abt darling suki now(:
hehh.
reckon he's gonna be a brilliant and adorable dog in 7mths time!
whee.
oh but suki's a wimp.
seriously.
he was scared silly by puppies smaller in size and younger in age.
sighh...
i guess this runs in the family...
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YYY, pls dont do what u're gonna do..
i'll go into serious depression?
yea but too bad.
no way of telling u that.
tranquility ; 3/01/2007 05:19:00 pm.
31.3.07
", to receive help, first learn to trust."morning today sucked.
the devil was against me.
dont even wanna talk abt it.
but the afternoon was heaps of fun!!
^0^
YG was outdoor games!
played all sorts of games in grps of 7 or 8.
learnt alot abt other ppl.
like... the pig actually has brains.
good ones too.
and...
the puppy is actually more mischevious and hyper than i thought she was XD
BURST MY WATER BALLOON.
boowahh...
oh comp time up le...
gtg now ):
SEEYA~
tranquility ; 3/31/2007 04:11:00 pm.
30.3.07
, "You need to be PEEing throughout the essay.!" point.evidence.elaboration.woots.
suki frenched me today.
such a darling.
hehh.
i was showering him today in the bathroom.
he was licking around, trying out the water and the shampoo.
then at one moment when my face was just next to his, he turned to lick me and my lips were partly open.
yea so u know what happened next.
but it lasted barely 0.1 sec so wasnt that disgusting ^-^
OOOH suki boy...
ahhhh~
no wonder they say the chances of a girl falling for her first kiss guy is higher than 90%.
if my puppy alone looks so much cuter and hugable after just a lick on the face, guess what'll happen if its actually a guy! XD
ok sorry abit sick.
in case u're lost, suki is my PUPPY.
as in, an actual puppy, like, a dog.
yea, so dont go thinking im a sickass(:
anyway!
i've finished 40 days of reading The Purpose Driven Life!
yay for me.
so d, u can come back now.
it wasnt as easy as i imagined.
but i prevailed and overcame temptation.
sleep was indeed luring and often i wanted to just collapse into bed and snooze.
but then i told myself to just pick up the book and read what was instored for me.
i admit on many days im merely scanning the pages and not actually absorbing anything.
that was very bad and i've made up my mind to re-read the book again during the term 2 holidays.
currently im reading Proverbs and it's proving to be an extremely insightful and interesting book.
i hope my daily QT continues because a strong relationship with God does make a difference.
anyway just invented a fun quiz for myself.
it's targeted at my nz friends this time.
next time i'll use it for sg friends ^-^
have fun reading(:
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Name five friends within 3 seconds:1.Stephany
2.Victoria
3.Peter
4.Jason
5.Vincent
Name an animal that would represent him/her:1. Hyper puppy.
Always frolicking around, laughing, talking and making friends with everyone!
bounce bounce bounce. never stays down for too long ^-^
2. Happy bunny.
Always looking prim and proper and cutish. makes ppl wanna pat her, literally!
3. Mole.
coz moles are blind and they're kindda cute in a funny way XD
4. PIG.
the word speaks for itself eh...
5. umm... chucky from rugrats?? o.O
HAHAHA. thats the most hilarious thing i ever thought of. i was watcing Rugrats one day and it dawned upon me how much my fav character chucky looks like vincent with his specs. of coz, the boy isnt as scaredy-cat and clumsy as the cartoon kid.
Describe how u got to know them:1. Ahhh the well known story of Bento... (bian dang, in chinese, meaning packed meal).
It all started one sunday when i went to Christchurch Chinese Church with my family.
It was our first time so everyone was very warm and welcoming.
Pastor Jack took me over to a girl by the window, after sunday service.
She was concentrating on her Bento and eating with alot of focus.
so i sat down and pastor jack started talking.
after he left, stephany and i started chatting.
and tada~
2. She was the one who brought me around school on my very first day in burnside.
She was introduced to me by stephany, as her "sister".
When i first saw this girl, i thought she was korean or sth.
hehh.
(oops running out of time, gotta cut short)
3. First met him at a badminton session on sunday.
He was wearing a red shirt.
thus ended up with the famous nickname:
Chuan Hong Se Yi Fu De!!
(the one who wears red shirt)
><"
dunno since when started talking to him abt my problems and now he's one of the first ppl i talk to whenever some crap comes up.
4. Youth Group New Yr BBQ Outing.
we had to sit in a circle to play icebreakers and he happened to sit down next to me.
he was extremely reserved and quiet (still is, actually, towards me at least) and i had to tell him my name first before he told me he's jason.
thereafter, i discovered his prowess in badminton and sciences and probably math, though i stubbornly refuse to admit this fact in his face.
coz i think i own him in math :P
5. Oh umm... well, this one came in the Twin Package.
hehh. he was with jason on the outing. so yea, got to know him later.
he too is a pro in badminton and sciences and probably math.
but he doesnt challenge me in anyway, so thats cool ^-^
tranquility ; 3/30/2007 03:56:00 pm.
26.3.07
", resist the music of the Pied Piper."
more design images!
pencil sketching part 2:
logo design:
yepp this is the only puny logo i've completed.
1 down, 19 more to go...
tranquility ; 3/26/2007 05:22:00 pm.
25.3.07
", omg TP has gone M-I-A!!?"
earth to TP, earth to TP...
come in, come in...
this is TP1,
do u read me?
(TP! is everything ok with u? dont scare me k!! email or send me an offline msn msg or STH. it's starting to feel like im being cut off from u.
oh i know!!
did ur comp crash?
that'll explain ur mysterious disappearance from the virtual world.)
ok anyway,
in case TP is fuming coz i havent yet send her the promised scanned images of my design work, here they are for everyone to see.
i spent a long time figuring out to get the scanner to work and in some cases, i had to scan 2 files and use photoshop to join them into one picture coz my design sketch book is A3, and my scanner can only can max A4 images.
plus i had to resize every other image with photoshop.
assignment 2.1 (Merit)
it's called the Circle, Sqaure, Triangle Problem.
we were given loads of such shapes and using them we have to add other elements to the basic shapes such that we got rather complex pictures such as these:
assignment 2.3 (Merit)
(yea the tchr assigns us work in non-chronological order)
for this one we had to choose 3 themes from a given list.
for each theme we choose, we have to draw 4 black and white designs using the concept of postivie and negative spaces.
and then from each grp of 4, we pick out the best one and enlarge it.
yes ENLARGE.
i had to painstakingly measure every inch and enlarge it.
haii.
oh btw the 3 themes i chose were Light, Nature and Computer respectively.
assignment 2.4
(from here onwards no grading coz tchr hasnt taken it back to grade)
this one eh...
it's basically a loooong one which went on for wks.
it comes in stages so everyone was like pia-ing the first stage for a wk.
then after we were done and feeling pleased, tchr walks in and says, "rightie oh, let's go on with STAGE TWO. by MONDAY."
=.="
STAGE 1:
very important part of the process, says tchr.
IDEAS AND DEVELOPMENT.
we had to draw mind map and think of all the silhouetted objects related to the chosen theme.
in my case, it was TRAVEL.
STAGE 2:
using the images drawn, select one to be the general shape and fill it up with silhouettes of smaller images related to the theme.
do this for two different themes.
in my case, TRAVEL and NATURE.
STAGE 3 (linear drawing):
select one theme and one image related to it.
fill it up with linear drawings of other stuffs related to it.
i chose TRAVEL.
as usual, the sides are chopped off.
but u can still see it's a plane.
right?
anyway the wings are my main focus.
i didnt know stick figures can look so awesome on linear drawings(:
oh the end of the plane is actually a boat and a train.
i love the boat.
but u cant see it properly.
hahh!
metamorphasis:
i spent a darn long time doing the stupid ballerina.
but the scanned image sucks.
u cant actually see her feet properly so she just looks like some weird, sharp, unproportional THING.
=,="
assignment 2.2 (logo designing):
another super long assignment.
currently working on it.
select a given theme (i picked ANIMATION) and do two A3 pages of pencil sketching of related objects.
i did pencil, pen and the computer mouse.
unfortunately time has run out for me so i'll upload the sketchings of the mouse next time.
also stage 2, in which i have to do 20 black and white logo designs.
i've only done one so far.
haii sad.
and omg.
the scanned image doesnt do my drawings justice!!
my sketching of the pencil looks better than that ><
i drew in all that detail below the rubber part and it looked better than what u see here on the screen >~<
STAGE 1:
tranquility ; 3/25/2007 11:31:00 am.
23.3.07
", billet doux."it means "a sweet note" in french, apparently.
note, as in, short letter.
thats what form tchr said.
quite cute i thought(:
sounds nice and posh.
anyway.
this wk has been pretty average.
sailed right past my eyes.
nth much to report either.
except dad's talk was brilliant today!
first time i heard my own dad lecture in a university(:
pretty cool actually.
yayy feel proud of him.
but gosh.
how can i ever meet up to his expectations?
other ppl's expectations of a professor's daughter?
The Purpose Driven Life says all these are not impt.
i shld be driven by God's purpose for me.
not the world's expectations of me.
so yea.
i'll meditate on that concept and try really hard not to shift my focus from christ.
tranquility ; 3/23/2007 05:03:00 pm.
22.3.07
", 'alright lets see... who's not here, raise up ur hand!! o.O'"SO HILARIOUS.
it seems like after every depressing stage i have, life will take a turn and become hugely interesting and funny.
so many lame stuffs happened today i dont know where to begin.
the header was spoken by Mr West, my media studies tchr.
it's like, the school arranges for freshmans to be runners and go to every class halfway through every lesson to collect pink slips of paper that records who has been absent.
so today, the runner on duty came to our media class and Mr West hurriedly searched for his pink slip.
apparently he hasnt yet taken attendence so he doesnt know who's absent.
so he was like peering at the name list.
and i think he was trying to save time coz the runner was waiting by the door.
so he absently said (while looking at the name list): "ok lets see... who's not here, raise up your hand..."
and everyone went UHHHH.... =.=
HAHAHAHA.
ok not sure if u got the joke and saw the incredibly large degree of humour in that statement...
but still(:
IT WAS FUNNY at that time.
whatelse!
ohyes i invented a song just now coz i realised im wearing orange all over.
it goes like this:
I'm a little Carrot,
Long and SLIM!!
Here are my tippy toes (cue: stand on toes like ballerina with arms stretched upward over head),
Here are my SPROUTS (spread hands out like the leafy top part of a carrot).
When u pull me out of the soil,
Hear me shout!
Cut me up and eat me for dinner~~~
LALALALA^0^
okyea abit sick, the last part ><><" hmm ok... school is fine. dad'll be meeting subj tchrs next tues. im confident nth can go wrong. my tchrs all love me. yea really. im sure Mr Gardiner, my design tchr, is only joking whenever he says, "No...i dont want to talk to u o.O " when i raise up my hand to ask him sth. = = " yepp ok v.late le! i would like to blog more abt my so-so life here. but Dreamland calls!
oyasuminasai everyone~ ^-^
tranquility ; 3/22/2007 06:04:00 pm.
20.3.07
", the world is a bad bad place.?"
my babysitting job interview was screwed.
mum went with me and basically lost it when i told her my job would require me to spend the night at michelle hall's hse on fri/sat nights. (the employer).
so she insisted on talking to the woman...
blahblahblah.
in a nutshell, mum made me out to be a dependent, unexperienced daddy's girl who cant leave home for too long.
so yea.
she blew it.
not me.
but it's alright.
i was annoyed for an hr or so.
but since today is her bday, and i know she was only concerned for me (too concerned, maybe, but still), i shall forget abt this whole thing.
i'll just look harder for another part time job.
and who knows, maybe mich STILL wants to hire me after that drama episode ^_^
ok funny highlight of the day!!
the family went to a chinese restuarant to have dinner to celebrate mum's bday.
jamie and i finished eating and were bored so went outside to take pics.
we looked up and saw the starry night sky and got excited.
in sg we never got to see a clear night sky with twinkle twinkle little stars.
so u can imagine how thrilled we were by the idea of capturing the beautiful scene with our camera!
so i held up the camera to the sky, zoomed in to the max...
then jamie held up her hand in front and the camera screen went blank.
so i said, "move away ur hand!! i cant see anything!!"
i waited for a few seconds.
the screen remained blank.
"I SAID MOVE AWAY YOUR HAND!!"
"i have!"
i looked away from the screen.
jamie was standing a metre away from me, staring at me in a puzzled way.
"oh."
apparently the sky was waaay too dark and whatever for the cam to capture anything.
=.="
tranquility ; 3/20/2007 04:41:00 pm.
19.3.07
", ROBOTS INVASION, by Assoc. Prof Chen Xiaoqi, this friday at 5pm, C3, Canterbury Univ."TWO super funny highlights today:
(after media studies, vic and jenny walking to locker, discussing whether they shld choose their careers according to their interest, or by how much money they can earn.
and at a certain point of their conversation, somehow they sidetracked to their interests)
victoria: i feel like i learn abit of everything... but dont do very well in any of them.
(the girls walk past block F, the senior block, where the lockers of yr13 students are located)
jenny: (interrupts) yea me too!! =0=
victoria: like i learnt dance, and i wasnt very good... and piano too. i suppose if i practised lots and lots and LOTS in the past, i would be as good as peter wu now...
jenny: nobody can be as good as peter...
someone from behind: BOORAWWRR!!!
girls: (scream and freak out)
it was peter wu.
=___="
~~~~~~~~~~~NUMBER TWO HIGHLIGHT:
i was surfing blogskins.com, checking out the skin of the day.
it's a really cute design, clouds and a kiddish looking character, that kindda stuff.
then i clicked to preview it.
and at the navigations column, i noticed the disclaimer.
1)do not spam
2)do not sthsth (cant rmb. but it's sth quite typical)
3)hate me then press alt F4
4) sthsthsth.
and i was like.
OOH cool!!
whats alt F4???!
never seen anyone put that in a disclaimer before.
will sth pop up??
like a secret bitch msg??
yayy i wanna try!!
so i pressed down on the ALT button, searched the keyboard for F4, found it, happily jammed it down, looked up....
EHHH!!!
WHERE'S THE BLOGSKIN WINDOW??!!
>"<
yea ok thats all for today folks!(:
tranquility ; 3/19/2007 05:20:00 pm.
17.3.07
", I SHALL NOT CONFORM. ohmann who am i trying to kid..."tennis was ok.
dance was ok.
dinner was ok.
the entire day was ok.
as in, nth unexpected happened.
it was expected that he wouldnt turn up.
expected (and prayed for) that it wouldnt rain or be too hot.
expected that the dance would be cool and fun to learn.
expected that dinner would be good.
hmm but i guess if i think hard enough, there are unexpected thoughts that jumped to my mind today.
like during dance, i realise u can actually learn alot abt someone from the way he/she behaves in front of a grp and his/her attitude towards things.
and i mean that in a negative way.
why are the ppl around me starting to seem so imperfect and unlike what i thought they were...?
i know everyone is imperfect.
i just detest myself for trusting and believing in the goodness of ppl so easily.
and also seeing their dark side so easily.
i'd rather be a fool till the end of my life, believing the world is beautiful and everyone has a heart of gold.
but no.
i get taken in for a short while, then reality comes in slowly and i see through the disguise of all things.
yet i continue to choose to play the fool.
smile and pretend i still think the world's beautiful and we're all angels.
i wonder why.
maybe ignoring the ugly things in life will help me see what i want to see.
maybe repeatedly telling myself "we're all imperfect and sinful human beings" will stop me from being bothered by the true nature of my friends here.
maybe doing QT everyday will help me love all of them despite them being who they are (this has worked before for me).
maybe one day God will let me know why so many young christians are not portraying christ-like characteristics.
and they're not even trying.
i guess i've been blessed with so many nice friends that i've forgotten how it feels like to meet "unlovable ppl", as the bible calls them.
but problem is, only i seem to find some ppl unlovable... the rest of the world seems to think they are genuinely sweet.
so whatever.
it's just crummy jenny's problem.
gosh i just hate long, silent and depressing nights...
tranquility ; 3/17/2007 02:54:00 pm.
16.3.07
", i am me;shaped by Him."yayy im happy coz it's friday(:
ohh but boo...
feeling weird coz the night is long and silent and depressing ):
woots.
got excellence for classical studies practice qns 1.
the first practice paper we did this yr.
considering classical studies is a completely new subject to me, im really happy with my excellence(:
ohoh and math common test 1 got top mark in class^-^
but it was easy peas.
differentiation and algebra.
wasnt too happy with my marks though.
couldnt do 3 qns and 2 were easy ones.
><
hmm what else...
tennis and dance tmr.
andand.
farewell party for dad's colleagues tmr night.
hehh ok just got off msn with someone.
was telling her sth and now i feel like i can finally let go off the past lo~
new place, new ppl.
time to move on!
^-^
so anyway, for all ye faithful patronisers of this blog, one day i may just be nice and let u know what is the so called "dark secret" thats going on in my life here in christchurch.
but for now, just know that it's nth terribly bad and depressing.
(:
yepp a good news since i came here would be:
after 30days of reading A Purpose Driven Life,
i was finally enlightened last night and im very sure now that im on the right track to fulfilling God's purpose for me.
so even though dad and mum are worried for my future (next yr, to be precise, coz they're hoping i can go univ then), im not too concerned.
im just gonna do my best in school now
coz school is such a fantastic way of distracting myself from the temptations and all the screwed up things in this world.
hip hip hurray for school...!! \^0^/
(yea i think im nuts)
ohoh 11pm le!!
bedtime (even though it's friday night =.=)
gosh i just realised holidays for u guys in sg are nearly over!!
treasure the remaining weekend k!
and all the best for term 2 ^0^
tranquility ; 3/16/2007 04:13:00 pm.
15.3.07
", looking into the mirror;what do i see.?"im so disappointed in you?
yes i am.
i thought u were different.
but why did u have to go running around saying and doings stuffs behind my back?
ruining my friendship with other ppl?
she's one of my closest friends here.
i tell her everything and i trust her.
did u think what u said was a funny joke?
it wasnt.
u made her really pissed.
and im pissed now too.
how could u?
were u really that desperate to know what she knows?
she's a good friend and u're making things hard for her.
i wish i can make u apologise.
i probably shld give u a chance to explain.
but u dont know that i know what happened.
so it's hard to breach the topic.
but anyway.
she doesnt lie either.
so i suppose u know everything now.
but like TP says, the pressure is on u, not me.
so to heck with everything.
we're still friends.
but now im confused abt u too.
i dont understand why u seem like two different ppl to me and to others.
plus i have no idea whats going on in ur mind now.
maybe u're more than what i think u are.
that's sad.
tranquility ; 3/15/2007 04:50:00 pm.
14.3.07
", i can walk on the water;trusting in Your power."yayy im back from emo holiday(:
hmm...yea im fine now.
the storm is over.
or rather, i've gotten used to it already!
hehh ok sooo.
lots of stuffs happened over the past few days.
nth of great importance though.
hmm...except im finding out more abt the YG and how it really is.
like the ppl in YG.
yea...
some not so pleasant.
but well concealed.
i was fooled into thinking this YG is different.
holier and more united.
i guess every church has it's differences and shortcomings.
but no matter!
i shall work for God to build up the church and do what i can to change things(:
for it is His purpose for us to make a difference in this world!!
^0^
wheee msgs to ppl AGAIN:
TP:EMAIL RELAY!!!
woots.
was fun while it lasted ^0^
sorry i had to stop the chain.
math test tmr. i'll write u again during weekends!
d:u've disappeared again!
are u even reading this?
is getting into Harvard that difficult?
dad is pushing me to get a scholarship for next yr.
guess i will see u pretty soon(:
peizhi:vice monitress wor...
hehh all the best for ur duties and responsibilities!
always knew u had it in u(:
huifang:jiayou oh!!
and lighten up(:
things arent always as bad as they seem.
and stop thinking badly of urself!!
u're a great person ^.^
sixuan:thanks for tagging time and again(:
u're one of the few from YF who constantly reminds me u're there for me.
ganbatte for everything lo~
alicia:u too!!
biggest fan and supporter of The Magicator(:
im pia-ing bk2 now!
thanks for the encouraging words ^-^
momo:yayy so cool~
feels good to know that someone doesnt think im a stupid pig!
hehh.
have u killed that giant poisonous spider yet?
eeew...gross!!
pighead:i swear im gonna kill u for that lousy txt4000 joke!!
gosh... u had stephany hell laughing at me for AGES.
grrr.
IM NOT A BAI CHI!! >~<
xia zi:u are seriously one mysterious guy.
ur msn nick is never happy.
it's always depressing.
i really hope u'll come to the camp even though u have ur own reasons for not going.
things will never work out if u keep on doing them ur way and refusing to let God lead the way.
doraemon:i understand now why u say u're not v.well like in church.
it's not ur problem.
it's theirs.
they have no right to be so mean.
i wish i can smack some of them.
i've heard jokes abt u, and i wish i have the courage to stand up for my friend.
but i can only walk away.
im sorry im such a wimp.
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the stars are fading and so is the heart.is it because one has gotten used to the dark?or has one seen the light and hopes for a change?drifting, drifting...someone else in this world will see the stars.but who will catch the heart?
tranquility ; 3/14/2007 03:19:00 pm.
8.3.07
", it's not what it seems."im here to declare something once and for all.
IAMNOTINLOVE.hmm yea that was eye catching enough.
ok i know the poems and 暧昧hidden messages are kindda strange, and everyone reading (yes you too, jamie) are guessing stuffs.
i am not a shallow despo kid who is insanely in love with anyone.
i am well focused on my studies, trying to do my best to please my parents, do my daily Quiet Time, and not get distracted by the temptations of this world.
you're probably thinking i've changed (or am changing) because the ang moh culture is like this and like that.
but no.
im interacting and socialising with asians who share the same values and beliefs as anyone in hcmc yf and my clique in ny.
i am still the same kid.
the kid with feelings.
some of what i have written are very personal stuffs and i am forced to use nicknames and sometimes just a general "You" to protect the identity of the actual character and also avoid unnecessary questions from readers.
im really glad there are ppl reading abt my life here in nz.
i feel responsible for updating you nice ppl and so i try to post as frequently as possible.
but i beg for your understanding and be sensitive towards what im feeling too.
the first part of the my posts are always daily stuffs and usually nothing serious.
the last section is what i call my emo space.
where i write irrationally and on impulses whenever im emo-ing.
so pls read and forget when it comes to that particular section.
or better still, just skip it.
you may not know it,
but as much as ur tags please me,
it's disturbing when you ask too personal questions
that even i cant answer.
so pls,
dont judge me.
dont guess and imagine whats happening to me.
dont even tell me what not to do.
you've got no idea whats happening.
dont read my posts with all kinds of opinions in your mind which u think are better than how im handling stuffs now.
dont read my posts while thinking
this is so lame, so stupid, so childish.
dont read my posts while thinking of me as the girl u last saw.
i am still the same jenny, yet i have changed.
truth is, no on really knows what im going through.
my posts are just a small percentage of what is actually going on.
我的内心世界是无法以言语来形容的.
im sorry, im not pissed.
i am just really confused about what im going through now too.
i cant answer any questions and the inner jenny doesnt want to be interrogated.
it's all very strange for me too and im trying to slowly sort out my thoughts.
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Jamie,i know you're very concerned abt me.
dont worry, im fine.
you know me,
jenny always butts her way out of all kinds of nonsense no matter what.
im sorry im not telling you certain stuffs.
we've always shared all our secrets and thoughts.
but this time it's different.
and the time isnt right to tell you yet.
it's nth serious, you might even find it absurdly childish and stupid.
but still, it's weird for me and i'll like some time to let things settle down.
i've gotten to a stage in life whereby i have to seriously start thinking abt life.
whereas u're still in ur early teens.
i know u'll understand that there are some things i cannot even tell you.
Stephany,it's really great that we're taking the same boat together.
and im glad u're here to share all these crap with me.
ganbatte for ur YKW.
and get well soon u lamo.
YY,it's so not cool that im on the boat and u're on the shore.
you can only hear me if i yell really loud.
but you never turn your head away when i do.
thanks for that.
Vic,the newest and cutest friend i've made in christchurch.
thanks for listening and accompanying me in school.
it's awesome that u've sorted out ur thoughts and feelings.
now it's my turn.
Xia Zi,you promised you wouldnt beat yourself up.
i'll hold you to that.
dont ever let me see depressing msn nicks no more.
seeya on saturday.
Lucier,get the message will ya.
i dont like you.
i had no intention of even befriending you.
but now that we are friends,
it's not in my nature to ignore you.
so pls just stop on your own accord.
tranquility ; 3/08/2007 11:53:00 am.
7.3.07
", i brought Death upon them while they were mating.?><"
hahh thats the highlight of today.
SO HILARIOUS.
i came home and found 2 flies stacked on top of one another on my dining table...
i was like, "huh?? WHATS THAT."
then realisation dawned upon urs truly...
and the first thing my reaction was:
WHERE'S THE FLY SWAT??!
i found it.
crept up to those 2 oblivious creatures (obviously too immersed in pleasure or sth to notice my existence =.=)
and WHAM.
they're squashed as lemonades.
funny thing is.
half an hr later, another couple was on almost the exact same spot on the table.
WHAM.
squashed.
woohoo~
killed four flies with two stones (or swats, in this case)!!
erpps...
ok i think im cruel.
they were gonna have puny baby flies ):
haha dad was commenting this morning that the flies in our hse seem to be getting smaller in size.
as i was pondering what this means, he went on to say:
"i think the baby flies are hatching!"
yea so apparently he wasnt being lame.
it IS the mating season for flies.
goodness.
or is my hse so filthy that it's the perfect place for breeding all yr round?
>~<
tranquility ; 3/07/2007 02:52:00 pm.
5.3.07
", walk beside me."HELLO.
monday(:
the slackest day of the wk.
for me at least.
made friends with a few ppl in vicky's gang.
there's joy and another girl's whose name i never quite caught.
and then there's theresa of grace's grp.
she's from malaysia.
hmm yea so i felt confident enough to join vicky's gang for lunch today.
wasnt too bad~~
ppl like annie and jasmine were very welcoming and included me as much as possible.
and the grp didnt seem too clique-ish or isolated at all.
it was pretty good and i think i can get used to it(:
AHHH i finished those 2 stupid designs.
BUT the assignment was extended today and now i have to do ANOTHER 2 similar ones...
plus i need to draw 2 strips of drawing showing 2 metamorphasis.
like a caterpillar turning into a butterfly.
or tadpole turning into frog.
that kindda thing.
except it doesnt have to make sense.
all these by next monday!!?
gahhh.
i'll be doing design for every single study period and home study for this entire wk...
ohgoody.
nowadays all the homework i ever get is design and classical studies?
yea.
dad's gonna be so glad if he ever knows...
hehh was in a hilariously good mood ytd and today and i think will continue to be for the rest of this week.
ehhh... whats the reason for this strange joy u ask?
HA HA.
thou shall not know...
^0^
so anyway!
glad that jamie's txt2000 is being used.
open up k girl!
im sure u'll start babbling and being urself soon in YG and school(:
then everyone will know u're actually a super lame and drama kid, not quiet and shy like they think! ><
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today we made conversation for the first time.it was v.short, random and basically crap.u dont seem to find it very significant.but to me, it is.040307.i'll always rmb.
tranquility ; 3/05/2007 02:45:00 pm.
4.3.07
", dont exasperate your children."sermon was good today.
pastor jack talked abt building a christian family.
it's a series of talks and today is the second talk.
What Is A Christian Family?
Basically:
1) God is first.
2) Dad is respected.
3) Mum is loved.
4) Children are nurtured.
5) Grace
6) Gratitude
7) Generiosity (spelling error?).
i think my family is more or less a christian family.
like, we have almost all the listed elements, except i dont think we put God in the first place.
hmm..yea, we've got to work on that.
i felt like pastor jack was talking abt my family, somehow?
like he gave an example of dads dragging their families halfway round the world for their jobs.
it's an example of NOT putting God in first place, but their WORK in first place.
was i thinking too much or does that sound like my dad?
i guess im still trying to figure out what im doing here across the pacific.
if, like what dad claims, God really meant for us to be here, im sure He will lead me into His purpose for me here in christchurch..
and speaking of dad, i was annoyed with him on friday night coz he ganged up with mum to nag me abt responsibility, treasuring my youth, aiming high (i.e. get a bloody scholarship and go to america) ETC ETC.
im not saying im not listening.
it's just that i dont think they know me well enough to be telling me all that.
dad's so busy being a professor and mum only cares abt the state of my room.
do they know hows school for me now? good or bad?
do they know if i fancy anyone?
do they know if i like the idea of getting a scholarship?
do they know the real reason why im playing along and working towards a scholarship?
do they know how it is for me to come to a new place and meet new ppl?
no.
they dont.
so whatever.
you two just keep on talking like u know it all.
and i dont think pastor jack's sermon got through ur thick head.
CHILDREN ARE NURTURED.
yes, we are.
but he also mentioned the verse in ephesians.
"fathers, dont exasperate your children..."
i rmb another verse in ephesians which tells children to honour their parents.
so i will, and i'll listen and obey you and mum.
but im really disappointed.
u're so full of yourself and what u've accomplished that even such an obvious msg didnt get through to you.
the men just dont get it.
boys too.
SO ANYWAY(:
abt the blog publicising thing, i've come to a clever (hopefully) decision.
i wont let any of my nz frens know my blog url unless they ask abt it.
as in, i wont be initiative in letting them know.
becoz i think as much as i write abt them here, it's actually nth bad?
like i dont gossip here or badmouth?
i think? ><
pls let me know if i do, k.
coz i really want this to be a clean and holy blog.
hmm...whatelse.
xia zi asked me what i thought abt the YG.
i said i think it's not all that it seems and there are 2 sides to everyone in YG, as far as what im discovering these days.
he agrees and asks me what i think abt him.
jamie nagged me to get off msn so he said we'll talk today in badminton.
gahh.
how shld i tell him... i dont even know why i said what i said.
like, he's a really nice kid, but when u're asked to describe someone and all u can say is, "hmm...ohyea, he/she is nice!"
then sth's wrong.
coz "nice" is just a vague word.
it doesnt have personality.
yet everyone has a story and personality.
so what i think im trying to say is.
when someone becomes too nice and shows no personality, he/she becomes a rather mysterious character?
like u know deep under, they've got their own secrets and troubles too.
but they just dont show it, or they ignore it by burying it so well.
ahh whatever.
i'll deal with xia zi when the time comes.
mm... sunny boy doesnt look too happy today.
seated far away from pighead.
wonder what happened.
ok lunching now.
Mcdonald for dinner!!
yayy ^0^
tranquility ; 3/04/2007 07:09:00 am.
3.3.07
", dont you get it.?"had YG and dance just now..
sooo tired @_@
hehh but it was fun.
coz finally YG had a decent attendence.
lots of ppl turned up, including those who said they might not i.e. doraemon, superman and xia zi.
(*note: doraemon=josh)
so anyway, dance was pretty cool.
embarked on a new dance journey.
this song is rather egyptian and harder than the first one!
challenging(:
jamie decided she wants to play bball with the guys rather than continue in dance.
=.="
traitor.
she refuses to believe me when i say she has slimmed down because of dance, and not the occassion hoop shootings.
WHATEVER LA JIAN MEI.
ohoh i prepared a dish for dinner later, and i bought a huge packet of chips on the way home from church!
gosh chips here come in large quantities.
$1.40 for a large packet.
which is like... 3 times of singapore Mac's large fries??
so yea... chips are cheap here.
hey that rhymed(:
argghhh...
DESIGN.
ideas ideas... Oh pls come to me...
im SO stuck and i need to hand in 2 designs on monday?
gahhh.
so gonna die.
at this rate, it'll be a miracle if i even get Achieved.
forget Excellence and Merit.
ok there's an issue i'll like to discuss with everyone.
(imagine we're in a meeting room, seated around a long table, serious expressions and hands holded professionally. hmmm....)
me: since coming to christchurch, i have made some friends in church and school. and many of them, i realise, own blogs. and they have kindly given me their blog url. and i think it is only right if i give them mine too.
BUT. i feel like this blog is a private space for me to communicate with u peeps in SG and would it be weird for u guys if nz ppl started tagging and reading the same stuffs im supposed to be sharing with you?
PLUS i actually talk abt my church and sch frens on this blog.. so like, even though i've nicknamed almost everyone, it's still not very nice to let them read abt themselves? ><
pls vote on the taggie!
thanks~
oh but i think one of my nz churchies might be reading this now!
HELLO stephanie(:
did u find my blog from jamie's links?
hehh.
sorry i didnt mean to ban you from here.
just havent made up my mind if i want to publicise my blog yet :P
dont let anyone else know my blog yet k!
thanks ^-^
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i believe in this friendship.i believe we can sail through this drizzle.i know it isnt just me.i know u know it too.i will be brave and happy.i will pray for you.
tranquility ; 3/03/2007 02:14:00 pm.
2.3.07
", in self denial."jamie are i were playing stupid just now.
we were eating Arnotts Tiny Teddy and imitating each facial expression as we ate the choc teddies ><
SO LAME.
did this blogthing test which i found on tiffany's blog.
the results are seriously screwed.
me? a peacemaker??
ho ho ho...
| You Are 9: The Peacemaker |
You are emotionally stable and willing to find common ground with others.
Your friends and family often look to you to be the mediator when there is conflict.
You are easy going and accepting. You take things as they come.
Avoding conflict at all costs, you're content when things are calm. |
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i cant believe u really did it..
is it because of bratty me?
now it just feels weird.
is this the end or has it never started?
the virtual and real you are 2 different ppl
pls shed off your disguise?
tranquility ; 3/02/2007 10:51:00 am.
1.3.07
", life minus love equals zero."no i am not referring to bgr love like what someone thinks.
i've been reading the purpose driven life and this is a quote from the chapter ytd.
love is universal.
the love im referring to here is love for our fellow human beings.
so someone pls stop thinking im head over heels in love with anyone =.=
anyway.
suki had his first puppy class just now!
his classmates were... interesting.
ahem.
yarr, but i feel pretty good abt darling suki now(:
hehh.
reckon he's gonna be a brilliant and adorable dog in 7mths time!
whee.
oh but suki's a wimp.
seriously.
he was scared silly by puppies smaller in size and younger in age.
sighh...
i guess this runs in the family...
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YYY, pls dont do what u're gonna do..
i'll go into serious depression?
yea but too bad.
no way of telling u that.
tranquility ; 3/01/2007 05:19:00 pm.
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