24.4.07
", not by my Will, but by Yours."stupid camp.
changed everything.
i'm truly happy that we can talk face to face now, instead of just hiding behind the computer screen...
im really glad that on the last day we could goof around naturally and not feel awkward.
it confirmed the friendship we have and now i know...
you are real.
it started with what they call love at first sight.
but it grew and deepened.
and i believe u feel it too.
but neither of us is saying anything.
thats alright.
im just thankful that both of us acknowledge the immense trust we have between us.
i want u to know, that i thank God for u.
but now there's someone else getting involved.
he's a very sad soul.
he's been through alot on his journey for true love.
i dont want to be a murderer.
a murderer who killed someone's last streak of hope for a better tomorrow.
i was the one who told him he would find someone better.
i was there as a good friend to support him that fateful night, when the one with him shld've been her.
but this isnt how i want things to turn out.
on one hand, u're being very silent and reserved.
on the other hand, he's going to keep advancing and it's hard to miss the signals he's sending.
both of you are really great.
both of you have got brains, sensitivity, the willingness to listen more and speak less...
he's a music talent and academic genius.
composer of the 2 theme songs for this yr's camp.
and student of 5 accelerated classes.
u are a pro in badminton.
probably one of the star players in the sch team.
and u use ur brains and wits in everything u do.
i dont want a choice.
sometimes no choice is the best choice.
i pray to God.
i know His plans are to prosper us.
i know all these will work for the best of all of us.
after all, we're all followers of Christ.
Dear Lord,
thank you for answering my prayers made before the camp.
you have strengthened me and given me answers to the questions in my heart.
im sure this change of events is planned and under ur control.
i pray for patience and a good heart to stay focused on u and let nth distract me.
shine light on the devil's temptations so that i may see them and avoid them.
help me stay on the path of righteousness and faithfulness to You.
the future is in ur hands i know.
knowing this, i have no fear and no worry.
i pray u bless all the hearts who love you.
and forgive us all for our transgressions.
Amen.
tranquility ; 4/24/2007 05:41:00 pm.
