12.4.07
", to all my besties out there, i wish for true love to always prevail, where ever u are.!"i never really believed in "friends forever".
i knew ppl use it too casually and with too little expectations.
few ppl use it with sincerity.
but most importantly, it just never seemed possible to me, for friends to be forever.
to me, friends always seemed to be a passing wind.
sometimes a breeze, sometimes a gust, and sometimes they come with the storm.
but nevertheless, they pass after some time,
i believe God gives us two kinds of friends.
the first type comes into our lives when we need help or simply need a friend, or not, depending on the situation.
these are the friends who make an impact on our lives at that time and then we never hear of them again.
the second type stays with us for a longer time in comparison.
they dont make such a big difference in the short run, but at the end of the day, we see the significance of such lasting friendships.
this doesn not mean the second type of friends is more superior or better quality than the first.
it simply differs according to the will of God and the role each of us plays in the life of another.
friends have a purpose in our lives, each one of them, just like we have a purpose in our friends' lives.
of coz, there will be times when casual strangers stroll past us and we call them our hi-bye friends.
and they have a purpose too.
so anyway, today, i want to remember those friends who had made an impact on me while i was in sg, and at that time were very significant to me (still are now), yet now not so close anymore.
i want to remember these friends who changed me in small and big ways, and i wish them all the best wherever they are now.
this is not the complete list, i'll be adding more as i rmb.
those not included here could mean two things:
1) we were never so close until we shared heart felt problems, to begin with.
2) we were close and still are.
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Jiamin:My lower primary bestie.
She was the first christian i ever met and showed me what it meant to be a dutiful christian.
In a way, God first made contact with me through her.
BeeHoon&gang:Class monitress of my p4 class.
she and her groupies made me feel v.welcomed as a new kid in CHIJ(BT), after i transferred there from Qifa.
They were all faithful catholics and attempted to bring me to catholic classes.
another attempt from God to reach me, but failed at that time.
i remained a free thinker.
TheDGS:mel, gill&shani.
only mel and shani started out as christian and catholic respectively.
the four of us were a clique and we have a huge secret no one shall ever know.
praise the Lord, all four of us are baptised and believers of Christ this day.
the magic has indeed worked.
GirlsOfTheSwing:pz, hf, yv and dx.
i rmb the times when we used to sit on the swing in nanyang and talk abt everything under the sun, sharing chips (or not = =) and occassionally pushing someone off coz only 4 ppl can get on.
yv is from a good catholic family, and although she made no attempt to convert me, i still thank God for planting a believer among my friends.
Shaun&Mark:we've been through alot.
we met in a rather unconventional way and the two of you opened my eyes to a world i never knew - a world probably more real than the one im living in.
i wasted a lot of time, i know.
things could've been better.
but i've learnt and grown, thanks to you two.
one was a brother to me, another a good friend.
no one can ever replace the memories i have of you two and i'll always rmb the day when we all met at the bus stop for the first time.
things didnt end on a good note for one of us, but still, i wont forget you guys.
be well.
Haowen:one of the dear daoshis of hcmc yf.
when i first knew him, i didnt think much of this chap and i wasnt too thrilled when he was appointed my mentor in the yf exco.
time proved me wrong and i saw his servant's heart and willingness to serve and obey.
i rmb the many times when i bombard him with qns abt the christian faith and bible and he was always serious and sincere in answering.
he would research and ask other daoshis in order to give me the best possible answer.
he was also my unofficial math tutor nearing my sec4 eoys.
he would be there during the study grps and he could always solve any math qn thrown at him.
i also rmb my 16th bday last yr.
it was very significant to me and i was incredibly anxious that day.
i had invited seriously all the friends i had.
i invited the DGs, the yfers, sixers... just abt any friend from all parts of my life.
it was the biggest party i ever self organised and i was losing faith in myself and God.
but haowen turned up with his guitar and i knew nth could go wrong.
and nth did.
Nicholas:my emo binny for a period of time.
he never told me everything abt himself and till today i feel i know little abt him.
but during that time when i was uncertain abt my own identity, he was there (on msn = =), ready to listen to my rants.
he was the only one who saw the real side of me, the complaining, rude, short tempered me.
and he accepted this friend nevertheless.
i've changed now, nicholas, into a better person i hope.
and im happy with who i am now.
thank you for believing in me and teaching me self acceptance.
Coco:you are one of the few girls who know almost everything abt me.
i'll always rmb that night at the chalet when we talked till midnight and you supported me while i made that difficult decision to call someone.
it's a pity it all had to end just as we were getting to know each other.
time is against us and it's no one's fault that we dont know whats happening to one another now.
but still, i wish you all the best in whatever u're facing now, and whoever is with u now.
God bless and guide you, my dear friend.
Junan:lion man with a kid's heart.
i rmb the trip to balai; i rmb the outing at sentosa; i rmb the times when u were leading bible study when i first joined hcmc yf.
those were hilarious times becoz u were there with ur sense of lameness.
i didnt really share alot of my problems with u, but i told u my past once, and u're one of the few who know.
im not sure how far things have progressed between you and someone, but i wish u happiness and blessing all the same.
may God use u to bless and enlighten lost souls in the christian faith.
thanks for being such a good brother while i needed one.
Zhixuan:I rmb discussing politics and worldly issues with u through email and on msn.
those times made me feel grown up and i learnt alot from u.
i rmb how u used to tell me on msn to get off and go study.
and i rmb how u take God's work and words really seriously.
sometimes u're like the big brother i never had, and other times u're a daoshi of the church.
and then for the rest of the times, u're a really good friend who made me realise what are the more impt things in life.
i know u will go on to do great things for God.
Yulan:i like to call her my angel and benefactor.
she pulled me out of the dark times and directed me towards light.
God has been working to reach me and touch my heart all my life, and he suceeded through this lady.
yulan, i know how difficult things get for u, and it's probably not even half of what i imagine, for God's work is never easy.
but u have a good heart and i know He will bless u.
i pray that u'll have emotional and spiritual strength in ur work, also physical strength, and may all who get to know u be blessed as well.
Gloria:i still rmb what u told me after my bday party last yr, at the sidegate of my condo.
have faith in the way u were created, dear girl.
i hope u're happier now in a new environment.
i wont forget ur sophisticated ways with language and music.
i hope when we next meet, u'll be a more secure person with plenty of good friends.
god bless.
tranquility ; 4/12/2007 04:03:00 pm.
