9.4.07
", thank you for the cross, my friend."term 1 break now.
woots.
i've got an entire wk to myself before i head off for church youth camp for the second wk of the hols, next wk.
hmm sorry for my long absence from this blog.
was in a deep emo pit for some time.
stuffs kept coming up and i had trouble being emotionally stable.
so yea.
but things are pretty much alright now.
big thanks to those who went on emo binge with me:
peter, for listening to me despite his own problems and insecurities.
jason,
for always being so cool abt me unloading emo stuffs onto him.
amy, for saying she'll support me (even though she has no idea abt any of my problems).
vic, for being so sane and sensible whenever i need advise and someone to talk to.
TP, for doing email relays with me and forgiving me when im late in reply.
sixuan, for sharing with me her own problems and still remembering me when she's unhappy.
cheers, you ppl are the best(:
ok so now that happy jenny is back, i shall discuss some of the things i learnt during this emo period.
firstly, i realised i am still not spiritually strong enough to know what to do at certain times.
or what not to do.
the bible tells me to hold my tongue for it is wise to do so.
but many times, especially the past few wks, it has become increasingly difficult to do so, mainly because other ppl have been loading their own problems onto me and i found the need to talk to a listening ear.
i chose my confidantes carefully and im confident they will not spill the secrets.
however, it does not change the fact that i have in fact broken my promise to those friends with the problems of not telling others.
so here's a qn for you:
if i revealed the secrets of another to a friend
without any intention of spreading the news insensibly or gossip, but
purely out of need for spiritual support and help (and im positive my friend will not spill the beans), did i then go against the words of the bible?
also, in doing so, did i also betray the trust of those who confided in me?
this has been eating at my inner conscience but personally i feel that as long as my intentions do not stem from evil and foolishness, but rather, conveyed after much thought and consideration, i have done nth to be ashamed of.
in fact, i think if i tell those ppl who confided in me that i told their secrets to so-and-so, they would understand because they know that friend too and they trust him/her too.
(i put him/her because i have a few close friends whom i confide such things with.)
but anyway, im probably living in self-denial.
so do feel free to tag ur opinion and let me know what u think.
secondly, God has a way of making things better.
after a rather bad badminton session last night, i was positive my easter sunday night was screwed.
but eventually, my friends said some v.nice things on msn and i went to bed feeling cheered up and remained in a good mood for today ^-^
it is true indeed, in all that we do and experience, give thanks constantly and never lose faith in Him.
ok enough of the reflections.
mann it's so frustrating to type now coz dad has forced me to start learning to type the proper ways, using all ten fingers instead of four.
so im typing...... like...... v e r y slooooow....nooowww....
movie outing tmr!!
going to watch Mr Bean with the girl twins and jamie.
and possibly joyce too.
surfed the net for publishers today.
found 5 or 6 possible publishers so as soon as im done editing The Magicator for the last time, im gonna start sending the manuscript out and hopefully i'll get at least one publisher responding.
pray for me yes? ^-^
ok i'll post again soon.
this one's getting wee bit too long XD
BYE!
tranquility ; 4/09/2007 03:37:00 pm.
