6.11.07
", i like my sun with a sprinkle of rain;"prelims are over,
in case i havent mentioned that yet.
they've been over for a few wks now,
and im quite happy with my results(:
only 2 more wks till eoys,
tension is building
and pressure is on.
(and as one of my tchrs like to say,
"Pressure's on,
don't stuff up!" XD)
these days,
i really miss my good friends in sg.
it's like,
suddenly the noises in life are blocked out
and all i can hear is my own breathing
and the memories i have.
it gets really depressing sometimes,
coz no one here can understand,
not even my family.
i mean,
sure, they'll sympathise and all,
but i cant emphasise enough
how much i really miss the girls.
thank God for some drama in my life,
to keep my mind occupied.
i'll start studying soon,
this wk,
i swear.
then after eoys,
comes SAT and ACT.
then after that,
i'll start preparing Christmas presents,
and finish designing a logo
for dad's new company.
and oh
gotta start having driving lessons
from dad.
once i get a car, that is.
he's still looking
and comparing prices
to find the best,
but i'll get one,
he promised.
this wk on monday,
i was mucking around the hse
for far too long
and was running late for sch.
i was panicking coz i havent made my lunch
but then i saw that mum had made it for me
when she saw me rushing around
getting ready.
i love daddy and mummy.
these days im starting to think
maybe flatting wouldnt be as great
as i think.
i'll miss my family.
and these days
i realise i've found a new tag line.
jamie was asking me
why wasnt i doing hmwk,
and i replied,
"i cant be bummed to do hmwk."
it got stuck on me,
so now i keep saying,
"i cant be bummed to do (this-and-that)..."
this entry is starting to sound real sluggish,
like im turning into a pig.
maybe i am.
maybe its just PMS.
but dont worry
i'll get a grip.
exams always does the trick.
yesterday
i invited some bmt ppl to YAG camp.
it's gonna be next april,
during term 1 break,
but now's Super Early Bird registration,
so i figured i might as well ask some ppl.
for those who has never tried,
and dont know,
it is NOT easy
inviting ppl to an evangelistic camp.
the mental stress i went through prior to that...
the time i spent praying and even fasting...
the number of times i've told vic
that im so nervous that i feel like puking...
gosh.
i dont know why i was so nervous.
maybe coz they're guys.
maybe coz i dont really know.
we dont even talk.
maybe coz im afraid of failure.
i felt like i was doing sth for God,
so its incredibly impt.
i felt like i couldnt face a failure.
i prayed for courage,
for wisdom of speech,
for an opportunity.
the opportunity came,
though rather late,
didnt get to talk to them
till later during the game.
courage?
yea well
see, thing is,
i didnt really have time
to puke up courage.
i panicked
coz i thought we were going home already.
so i just went straight up
and told them everything.
i didnt say it very well either
(so much for wisdom)
i basically gabbled and pointed a lot
(at what? i dont know)
somehow
by some miracle
he said he'll consider
(the other guy was too old for the camp),
so i gave him a registration form
and told him to ask his other friends.
he said he'll get back to me
after he asked them.
one of them goes to church sometimes,
but i dont reckon he's a Christian,
the rest probably havent even heard of Christ,
so im just praying real hard now
that all of them will be able to go.
(i'm going,
in case i havent mentioned that.)
God's power is made perfect in weakness.
thank goodness for that.
i think im a complete failure
at promoting camps and the likes.
note to self:
never try be a sales person in future.
stick to being a consumer.
tranquility ; 11/06/2007 09:38:00 am.
