3.4.08
and becoz i know
i have been MIA for such a long time,
i will post some updates now.
firstly,
SCHOOL:
its my last yr of high sch here,
meaning im starting univ next yr march.
i love all the subjs im still doing in sch,
and im doing fine so far.
i've basically decided to pursue an architecture degree,
becoz thats what Univ of Auckland is famous for,
and becoz i love design and buildings so much.
(also i have a secret dream
of personally designing my parents' retirement mansion.
YES I KNOW
so crazy right.
i'll have to earn lotsa money
to buy them a mansion,
but i want to design it myself.)
im starting to warm up to a certain group of friends in sch,
yes i know,
im so slow socially.
they're all asians
and my chinese has improved heaps as a result!
as proof,
visit my chinese blog,
yes CHINESE BLOG
haha
www.wretch.cc/blog/jollybeansits a blogging engine that taiwan youths use these days.
and i actually use it more often
than blogspot
probably coz i find myself
more comfortable with chinese these days.
yes i know.
FAR OUT!!! ><"
so yea anyway,
school is just great.
there are a lot more priviledges
being a senior in school
so its all cool(:
CHURCH:
im still in the YG (youth grp) exco,
serving as the Activities Coordinator.
but at the same time,
i've started attending the YAG (young adults grp) too,
mainly for univ-aged students/part timers.
so now its like,
i go to YG to serve,
learn abt worship
and handling difficult ppl,
but YAG has good bible study sessions,
which help me grow spiritually,
and its great fellowship.
im involved in the p&w teams
for both YG and YAG,
but my service is still mainly based in the YG.
anyway its great,
not everyday one can have the best of both worlds XD
YAG CAMP COMING UP!!
its called "EXPLORER"
and the idea is
we're going to explore our lives,
and eventually explore Christ.
im super psyched abt it k.
not only coz i expect it to be more mature spiritually than the YG camp i attended last yr,
but also coz i absolutely love having fellowship with the YAG peeps.
i felt a little bummed
when they lowered the age allowance for the camp
coz it seemed to me that
if the age allowance of the camp is lowered
then the maturity of the content and discussions
would be lowered too
and i thought it was quite ridiculous
that the youngest person going for the YAG camp,
is actually only 16.
but God made me see the bigger picture,
so im cool with everything now(:
so anyway,
i've been asked to be a grp leader in the camp,
and its quite nerve wrecking for me.
i mean,
man,
i really dont know if i can do it eh.
although most of the ppl are high sch age
(due to the lowered age allowance),
but its still a young adults camp.
will my grp actually listen to me??
and cooperate...?? >~<"
im involved in the camp p&w too,
which im ok with,
except it's in less than 3 wks
and they havent scheduled practice sessions yet...
i need to pray immensely for the camp!!
FAMILY:
great great great,
nth really wrong right now,
and it all feels good.
dad nearly died of dehydration
during a 13km marathon.
he had to be carried
for the last few hundred metres.
thank God he survived that...
when he came home and told us
we were freaked out!
coz while he was fainting,
we were in church for sunday service.
and at around 10am when he fell,
jamie had a sudden dizzy spell
and felt nauseous.
and they were dozens of kilometres apart!
thats what i call telepathic connection...
its so cool,
and i bet that connection
was what pulled dad through.
somehow,
God connected him and jamie,
and that somehow saved dad.
real miracles(:
tranquility ; 4/03/2008 07:17:00 am.
,"it is not by strength that one prevails;" 1 Sam 2:9b the results are all out now.
im not going to america this yr,
coz even though i have been offered places in some colleges, i lack the financial funding.
hmm i thought i'll be really disappointed,
but u know what,
God can really change one's heart.
when he closes a door for me,
he gives me enough peace and faith to accept taking another path.
sometimes it's hard
to suddenly find myself facing a dead end
coz i've been so sure its the path im meant to walk.
its hard
to suddenly realise i need another plan,
that somehow im meant to go to B instead of A.
its overwhelming in fact
to be hit by the reality
that things are really not that simple.
but im ok now,
completely at peace.
the new plan is
to go to Univ of Auckland next yr,
its located in the north island of NZ,
and ranked quite highly on the international platform.
the amazing thing is,
my parents are actually fine with this,
they've accepted the fact
that i've tried my best to go to america
but the time isnt right yet
and God wants me to go somewhere else instead.
i find it funny now,
thinking back to when i first came to NZ.
i was so sure
that im only staying here for 2 yrs max.
i wanted to go places,
i wanted to leave NZ,
as soon as possible.
but its funny
how things have worked out.
now im looking at myself,
seeing myself here in NZ
for the next few yrs.
and im actually ok with that(:
i do feel disappointment of course
but not coz my plan for myself failed
but coz not going to america
means not seeing an old friend for another few yrs.
the bitterness of this truth hurts
coz we've both been trying so hard,
but our friendship has lasted for so long
this will be but another test.
God does provide,
and even when things dont turn out the way i expect it to, there's always another door waiting for me.
praise him
hallelujah!
tranquility ; 4/03/2008 07:14:00 am.
